Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman
[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]


POSTED Friday, Dec 16, 2016

ZARDOZ SPEAKS TO YOU~~~!!!!!!!!!!

"NO ONE CAN STAND KNOWING THEY'RE ARTIFICIAL"-World On A Wire

There's an old science fiction tale where a guy wishes that everyone was equal and his wishes is granted when all of humanity turns into flat gray mindless robots.

When you look at the problem of government subjugation as a separatist issue only affecting natives, then people reading books like In the Spirit of Crazy Horse, can say well it doesn't effect me because I'm not native. That's why when Ward Churchill wrote about the Peltier setup in Agents of Repression, he also exposed how the FBI's Cointelpro program targeted the freedoms of other people not just AIM.  

It's harder to dissociate yourself from those facts. You look at the ending to Indian Killer By Sherman Alexie, its subjective who the killer actually is and who's at fault. So is the subject of whether or not these crimes were justified acts or atrocity. Similar to how with Peltier, you have people who think it was righteous and justified to kill those FBI agents and admire him for that . And you also have people who admire and support Peltier because they see him as a political prisoner and a martyred symbol of government corruption. That duality has helped to immortalize his plight.

Sherman Alexie frequently in his novel Indian Killer attacks false Indians, whites who try to pose and pretend to be native for various reasons. Even going so far as to discriminate against and fight with real natives in a sustained and concentrated to prove they're not white. Its fucking pathetic. If you hate your race and your culture so much that the only way you can deal with your self-loathing is to pose and pretend to be something you're not and never will be, then you need to deal with your neurotic self contempt , instead of building up a delusion around yourself.

You see beatniks and hippies attracted to black culture and fetishize it. This was done in rebellion against the racist white mainstream society of the time. 

Now you see white kids attracted to black culture because its so assimilated into mainstream pop culture and in fashion. This was done in response to major labels giving all these black rappers record contract and tv shows to defang a subversive element of black culture that was a threat to the white status quo.


There's nothing at all subversive or even slightly edgy about some white kid trying to rebel by pretending to be black anymore. It was pathetic and lame in the 50s and 60s and now its even more pathetic because there's no fucking political statement or risk involved, no you're just going with the fashion and conforming to trend.

Then you also have the racism by proxy found in the all the trailer trash inbred whites that come to prison and pretend to be black or make up stupid inane stories about having minute trace amounts of native american blood in them. Because they do nothing and accomplish nothing with their pathetic lives and they don't ever get anywhere in life and if you're privileged and white and living in filth and poverty , then you either have to drag yourself up and better yourself , or your embrace redneck ideologies that scapegoat responsibility for your failures onto racist conspiracy theories or you become a race traitor and simply pretend to be black,native or whatever. Because then it's somehow glamorous to be a failure living in the gutter in poverty, more natural and typical. 

Then you can look at the pathetic wreckage of your life and feel like a martyred victim not a casualty of your own stupidity. Then you feel its ok to hustle welfare programs with your pretend minority status to fraudulently gain assistance normally reserved for people actually in need. Their way of pretending to be of another race usually involves acting out the cliche cartoon stereotypes of that culture , like a juvenille devil worshipper that knows nothing about true satanism so he imitates christian propaganda about satanism he saw in hollywood horror films.

You also kill two birds with one stone , because this also becomes a convenient way to deal with the collective guilt of being white. People need to face the harsh realities of their existence and not try to pretend to understand the senseless chaotic horrors of this world. We are forever bound in ruin to the uselessness of this world. The fact remains peace and understanding between races isn't ever going to be fucking possible. 

Diversity is forever the enemy of equality. Equality, and mixing of cultures and making the secrets and traditions of every culture public knowledge, doesn't make the world a better place, it just cheapens everything and devalues it into a common mass of hive minded mediocrity. obscurity needs to be cultivated. Some things should remain secret.

REMEMBER THE PARADOX OF SOLLIPISM, NO ONE CAN EVER TRULY UNDERSTAND ANYONE FULLY NOT EVEN THEMSELVES.

DEDICATED TO FRED STILLER (RIP?)

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Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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POSTED Monday, Oct 9, 2016

(A EULOGY FOR RIO VANCE)
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"PENETRATION/SACRIFICE&MURDER. PLACE NO LIMIT ON ACTION. THEY ARE THE FULLEST REALIZATION OF THOUGHT&SENSATION SEVERED FROM CONSEQUENCES. DENYING ALL POSSIBILITY OF SURVIVAL. DECISIVE. YET TORN BY CONFLICT. THEY INDICATE A POINT AT WHICH DELIBERATE TRANSGRESSION GIVES WAY TO THE CONDITION OF ABSOLUTE FREEDOM"-HOLLINGS

Most people who read Full Force Frank's zines in the 1990s, did so because it was a trainwreck atrocity exhibition, they were insidiously waiting for Frank to act on the various actions he alluded to in his polemic rants. When nothing ever came of it and he disappeared, a lot of his fanbase was disappointed that he didn't follow through and lost respect for Frank. This is the 'Society of the Spectacle' and Frank never gave us the spectacle he promised..Talk minus action equals nothing..

But if Full Force Frank had followed through, his actions wouldn't have been solely motivated by a personal vendetta against the world, He would have also been giving fan service to his cult audience, which corrupts the beauty of the act. What I'm going to do has nothing to do with proving myself to anyone or providing fan service or proving a point to anyone. It will inevitably end in wreckage, unless in the next nine years her self destructive impulses don't beat me to it and she unfortunately finishes without me...

Rio Vance has for years done nothing but live homeless,in the gutter. Trading on the fantasies of lonely men to purchase the drugs that kill the pain of an outside world that she cant function in. In between the forced detoxes that result from whatever silly shit she got arrested for recently, she pretends to be clean & sober. She will prattle about turning her life around & doing something with it, becoming an artist. Working on her music.

She was assaulted recently because she asked for it. Being assaulted is something that validates her existence. She loves being a victim, being able to scapegoat responsibility for her actions and leech pity from people too blinded by her manipulation to see beneath the mask. Rio is exactly like the star of the film SMITHEREENS.The one with Richard Hell. I bought her a USB Audio interface so she could record her music. But she was always too high to record any music. Which is pretty pathetic considering even GG Allin managed to record his music...But GG Allin was more responsible.

Closest Rio ever came to being a musician was singing for crack money with an acoustic guitar. She has a lot of talent and intelligence but she chooses to be trash. A lot of drug addicts and prostitutes lack the ability to rise above their position in the gutter. They're too far gone to be saved. Its tragic when you see a great mind like hers destroy itself being a whore. This makes her all the more pathetic and worse than a common addict. Because she made a conscious decision to become trash and live this lifestyle of despair. She isn't the victim of determinism. All the abuse and degradation she suffered is either manufactured to get sympathy or simply the inevitable end result of the poor decisions she has always made in her life. Bottom line is She Knows Better. So she asked for it.

She continuously trys to contact me and to whip me again into submission but she never says she's sorry or apolgises for all the ways shes hurt and abandoned me over the years. She enjoys tormenting and abusing me its as simple as that. I enjoy being abused by women but in her case, there's never any reward given to the obedient slave no matter how obedient he is to his mistress. I hate how pathetic she made me. I hate how blinded I was to how depraved and heartless she has always been to me. I'm still pathetic. If she asked , I'd come crawling back. This 'Hypogirl' still has power over my heart.

I realize now-- at this point-- that she is a monster. So there is only one way I can move on from this.....Directing this violence inward at myself, just gives her more control. Channeling this by proxy into music is weak to me . why jerk off when you can just fuck something? I feel that the inevitable action Ii must take, is the only way to achieve closure and validate my existence, enabling me to die without regrets having accomplished something of great importance.

"YOU WERE WRONG TO RESIST ME/I WAS WRONG TO FORGIVE"-SWANS (Empathy)

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Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

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POSTED Monday, Oct 2, 2016

(A Eulogy For Rio Vance)

{Fans and Supporters of Apopthelema are all greatly encouraged to link/share and repost this to the Rio Vance (portland oregon) facebook page & her website riovance.com  &email it to her directly blameitonriovance@gmail.com ,she needs to read this, she needs to know how many people are aware of how diseased she is. Help drive the stakes into the heart of this psychic vampire}

"THE BRUTAL REALITY AND PAIN OF KNOWLEDGE..."-SOTOS
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"I SAW A MAN CRY ONCE , DOWN ON HIS KNEES IN THE CORNER OF A DARKENED CELL AND HIS PAIN MEANT NOTHING TO ME"-GIRA
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Rio Vance is a septicemic succubus inoculating us all with the toxin of her pestilence. Shes just like all the other failed fucking artists with so much potential shit out like an addict twitching in withdrawal.

She has me backed up against the walls of her post traumatic nihilism. Face smashed into unforgiving & incomprehensible perpetually mutating boundaries. Her love is a corrosive acid bath. She taints every life she touches with her poisoned ego. She used to be the remission to my diseased psyche. Now she is the disease . Infecting it with the mindless devotion of a cerebral parasite burrowing its way down into the depths of emotional repression. Ripping away the mask and revealing the skull beneath the skin. Peeling back the veil of secular reality like an addict puncturing an abscess. Bursting with stench. Like the Chicago casualty with her polaroids. She lives a meaningless life whose true value&purpose wont be actualized until shes dead to this heathen earth. Day by Day too broken inside to face the horrors of a waking existence in this world of shit. She tries to kill the memories but they all come cracking back to the surface. Smoke Ghosts freed from their glass chambered cage by the fire ignited by her despair. Smoke ghosts rise up from the stem possessing your body with demonic malignancy. In this apocalyptic new dark age my goal is to bring about the end of her world. From room 101 to the spirit of 1349. The counselor playing good cop tells her its just like being tickled. You cant help but laugh & secretly want to laugh again. Even if you don't want to admit how rough it was. If you follow the punchline of that cruel joke like the trackmarks on a junkies thigh,you realize were all cruelly bound in determinism to the entropy of our species. Trying to seek out a rational explanation for all this.... Becomes a struggle as desperate as the vehement claims she makes denying ever having an orgasm... Never mind the twitching serpents tongue crawling with reptilian cruelty past her smack deadened sex drive. Screams and whimpers summoning a knock at the door of the Joyce. Unfolding flowers. Rose petals crushed against unforgiving walls of muscle . Burning with fissures expanding further. Blooming into great heights of throbbing pain . My teeth sink into the soft folds.

Like the sutured petals of a perforated rosebud.

"THEY HAVE TO DENY THEMSELVES ANY LASTING PLEASURE,&WHEN THEY FALL IN LOVE, THEY DESTROY THERE LOVER OR ELSE TRANSFORM THEIR LOVE INTO DISTASTE & DESPAIR. SO ARTISTS TEND TO LOVE EITHER OBJECTS OR PEOPLE WHO RUN AWAY FROM THEM.SO THE FEMALE ARTIST REJECTS THE GOOD MALE ARTIST" -Acker

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part3

POSTED Monday, Sept. 11, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AS ATROCITY EXHIBITION
PART 3

((This Is The Way Step Inside ))

"I AM THE UGLY AMERICAN, I HATE WHAT I AM... TAKE A PISS ON YOUR FOUNDING FATHERS"-BIG BLACK


"SOME PEOPLE TAKE SO MUCH PRIDE IN IT LIKE "OH, I'M NOISE, I DO NOISE, I DO ANTIMUSIC ." GREAT FANTASTIC, LOVELY- I DON'T CARE-
DANIEL MENCHE

Incongruously in the american underground you see performers cheaply adopting the aesthetics and ideas of other countries and there adaptations are typically dependent on xenophobic distortions and false stereotypes.

Similar to a Redskins mascot or a blackface ministrel show except according to scene politics for some reason its not racist or ignorant... No when punks etc do it, they act like their a fucking modern day John Brown. Fetishizing something unreal inside of a blur of paraphillia....Gaijin Goyum Utlending neophytes such as these still feel themselves justified in passing judgement upon individuals such as myself. They fetishize images and ideas they stole from the japanese and filter it through there american minds until it's bastardized and dissociated from its original source.

They keep their desires and urges locked up behind a wall of denial and neurotic self contempt. Like christian's suppressing the natural urges of mankind and becoming all fucked up in the head. When they're confronted with someone who comes out and owns their depravity they dont know how to fucking respond. They try to channel the spirit of actual demons, but like a cheesy horror flick, when what they conjured up actually rises up from hell, they freak the fuck out.

Im tired of cosplaying paleface fantasists attempting to pass judgement upon me. These people are fucking cattle who have never experienced real brutality in their lives and through their sheltered existence they deem themselves worthy of voicing an opinion about my actions. They're simply sheep pretending to be wolves.

My art has for the most part always reflected my own reality and a way vent the depravity and ugliness intrinsic to my psyche. When i recorded the Disease is love, the spoken word samples in the intro were from private phone calls made to me by my better half while she was in prison for stabbing a cunt in the stomach multiple times. That shit all happened. I dont need to resort to sampling horror films and true crime documentries, i can simply use broken shards of my own tortured existence to spread my hatred to your kind like a virus.

i was always attracted to experimentation musically and transgressing accepted standards and norms. I fucked with electrical devices to make weird noise in an unsophisticated fashion since childhood, i used the reality of video games, the distorted harsh tones of chiptune, reminding me of the escape i chose from abuse and the world surrounding me that i never felt a part of. I started out doing straight harsh noise and progressed to more structured droning atmospheric pieces.

Later on when i became involved in various violent dysfunctional relationships and my life became surrounded with violence, I started doing more power electronics related material as an outlet for that hatred and urge to kill.

i came close to killing Angie a couple times. Cowards within the scene who have never lived with that inside of them, try to channel the evil and misanthropic depravity of individuals like myself. Through vicarous proxy. When confronted with the real thing, they cower in fear, reminded of how weak they are.

Randall Philips the creator of Fuck zine started a feud with Slogun, when he tried to interrogate Slogun as to what attracted him to serial killers and what inspired him to use so much of it as source material. Slogun choked up. He didnt want to admit to admireing them or wanting to be like them. He simply couldnt come up with an answer.

Most of these cattle can't. They act like they're individuals that think independently .But in reality most of them blindly conform to scene politics and follow the rules and standards set by the individual with the most scene capital. They seek acceptance and they crawl for validiation within that social structure.As such they're fucking peer pressure zombies.Not free thinking individuals following their own personal vision.

THIS IS THE WAY
THIS IS THE WAY
STEP INSIDE.........................

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part2

Thursday, August 25, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AND THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION:
PART TWO
((THIS IS THE WAY STEP INSIDE))

NOISEBOARD COMPUTER COWARDS KILLED CASSETTE CULTURE....

"THE ONLINE PRESENCE OF NOISE IN THE EARLY 2000S ,WAS DEFINED AMONG NORTH AMERICANS WHO DEVELOPED AN INTERMEDIATED NETWORK OF FAN CREATED WEBPAGES. THE MAJORITY OF WEBSITES ABOUT NOISE HAVE BEEN ORGANIZED AND FREQUENTED BY NORTH AMERICAN PARTICIPANTS. ALTHOUGH THERE ARE A HANDFUL OF BILINGUAL JAPAN BASED SITES,MOST ARE POSTED IN ENGLISH ONLY. EVEN BY THE EARLY 2010S,MANY WELL-KNOWN JAPANESE NOISICIANS DID NOT YET HAVE WEBSITES AND ONLY A HANDFUL OF JAPANESE LABELS

HAVE DEVELOPED WEB BASED SALES PORTALS. IN ADDITION, NOT MANY JAPANESE AUTHORS POST RECORDINGS ONLINE OR CONTRIBUTE TO DISCUSSION BOARDS ABOUT NOISE INDIVIDUAL POSTERS CAN CHOOSE TO REMAIN ANONYMOUS, CHANGE THEIR NAMES REGULARLY & LURK VOYEURISTICLY. WHEREAS THE CASSETTE CULTURE GREW THROUGH BARTER EXCHANGE OF RECORDINGS BETWEEN FELLOW PRODUCERS,NOISE'S ONLINE COMMUNITIES CONVERGED THROUGH OPEN ACCESS TO CROWD SOURCED KNOWLEDGE.INDIVIDUALS COULD PARTICIPATE IN KNOWLEDGE CONSTRUCTION IN WAYS THAT REFLECTED LITTLE OR NO STAKE IN NOISE'S COMPLEXITIES"-NOVAK
Relapse records was responsible for the Japan American Noise treaty compilation issued in the 1990s. As well as the import and distribution of various Japanoise releases with sexual themed covers.Relapse was one of the primary sources outside of the underground cassette culture that brought noise to the attention of American audiences.Relapse dropped a couple Death Metal acts in the 90s, for having no image. The bands they did this to,were acts like Rottrevore, who were attempting to do something more original beyond death,destruction lyrics and instead wrote songs about politics and social criticism.

With Relapse's primary customer base being Metalheads, its very likely they repackaged and promoted Japanoise releases in this fashion in an effort to pander to the proclivities of there primary market demographic. This market obviously carried on the torch when they were inspired by Japanoise releases to start noise side projects as a break from there day jobs in Death/Gore Grind bands.

Noise quickly became a convenient outlet for suburban death metal fans to vent their repressed sexuality and it gave them a way to go from being a fan to an actual recording artist, without the ardent work of actually learning to play an insturment. Bringing the concept of 'Scene metal' to new heights of amateurish mediocrity. This only got worse when laptops were introduced into the equation. Previously they had to at least had buy pedals and learn to chain them together in a closed feedback loop.
Then of course crossover acts like Bastard Noise came out of the california hippy love punk scene, . Bastard Noise's success is largely due to them being the only noise/faux p.e. distributed by punk/grind labels like Deep Six. Bastard Noise also focused on lyrical themes and imagery that unlike British Power Electronics were easily digestible by punk kids and deemed acceptable by the P.C scene police. They didn't do much in terms of innovation, they simply performed a safer defanged easier to swallow strain of extreme electronic music that lame punks could handle, instead of the more subversive and honest sounds of Whitehouse & Sutciffe Jugend.
Its of course ironic and fitting that one of the most active and well-known american noise acts is called Bastard Noise. Since the American Underground is largely founded more on derivative bastardization of foreign subcultures than originality.Which makes sense in the larger context of american history, since this country was stolen by immigrants who transplanted themselves here by force and are forced now to either disown and live in shame of what little cultural heritage they have or be branded a racist. A lot of them also deal with there guilt over being white and compensate for their lack of cultural roots by adopting the identity and culture of other races.
Rap music used to be a form of urban protest music for blacks to fight back against the status quo of american society. Now its just another form of bubblegum pop music and you see trailer trash inbred white dudes in prison with thug life tattoos.Think about that next time you hear Michael Gira talk about turning all the A.C. off in the venue to make it more like a Native American Sweatlodge.... Gira should make the venue more like that Great White/Whitesnake show back in the eighties where all the butt rockers burned alive .

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part1

Sunday, August 14, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AND THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION:  PART ONE

(THIS IS THE WAY STEP INSIDE....)

FIRST HERE'S A WORD FROM OUR SPONSORS:

"IN BATAILLE'S MYTHOLOGY,THE ECSTASY OF THE TORTURE VICTIM LENT WEIGHT TO THE ECSTASY OF THE GREAT SADISTS GILLES DE RAIS,ERZSEBET BATHORY DE NASSADY,DONA CATALINA DE LOS RIOS OR AGAIN TO THE MAN WHO WANTED TO SEE THE TORTURED BODIES OF WHICH PLATO SPEAKS, TO THE ITHYPHALLIC FLAGELLATORS OF CHRIST"-J.M. LO DUCA
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"THIS URGE,WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO IS, "WHAT IS THE BODY?
IN WESTERN CULTURE,PEOPLE ARE SO BODY CONSCIOUS THEY DONT KNOW THEY ARE LIVING IN IT. THE ONLY TIME YOU CAN START TO FIGURE THAT OUT IS WHEN YOU START PIERCING,TATTOOING ,PLAYING WITH IT, MODIFYING IT. THAT IS THE ONLY TIME YOU FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE.THAT SHORT INSTANT WHEN THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH YOUR FLESH,YOU MAY HAVE A REALIZATION OF WHO YOU ARE. THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH MY BODY BUT ITS NOT GOING THROUGH ME. SO IT DOESNT HURT.

[...] WE ARE AT THE LOWEST STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THERE IS. EVEN ANIMALS HAVE A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THAN MOST OF THESE PEOPLE RUNNING AROUND IN THREE PIECE SUITS.

THE POINT IS,THE IDEA OF MORTALITY AND IMMORTALITY IS ALL MESSED UP AND IS VERY UNREAL. IT ALL STARTED WITH ST.PAUL AND THE PERVERSION OF THE TEACHINGS OF CHRIST."-FAKIR MUSAFAR
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"In a 1994 essay, published in the underground music magazine G-Modern,Mikawa Toshiji of Incapacitants criticized overseas comps for creating & enforcing the categories of Japanoise. Mikawa argued that japanese noise was presented to foreign audiences as a landscape of radical incommensurability, which forced Noisicians to define themselves against an Orientalist projection.

His examples are the covers of Extreme Music From Japan, Land of the Rising Noise, and Come Again II,. Many of the Japanese performers on these compilations were frustrated and disturbed by the artwork chosen to represent the Japanese Noise scene. Shocking images of sexual bondage and physical violence were used on the covers of several early recordings by Japanese Noise artists in the 1980s. Primarily Merzbow. Most famously on his Music for Bondage Performance cd. Associations with deviant sex quickly became an important part of overseas knowledge about Japanese Noise. Especially in the 1990s, as hentai filtered into underground media circulation such as the Urutsukidoji series.

Noise Artists North America began to use images inspired by Merzbow,often borrowing from Japnese pornography {..}

"japanoise became a mirror ball of distorted perspectives that could only reflect the projections of an outsider back into their own view"-Novak
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"It wouldn't be totally irrelevant to say that the bias that is preoccupying the producers is encapsulated in these images. That Noise should remind us of some sort of torture;and then that being exposed to these sounds transforms torture into pleasure-and then that idea is related to these images that evoke torture victims; then it goes without saying that beyond the diversity of the works included the images add a framework to these compilations which takes power over the minds of their buyers. This distorted perception of Noise was mapped onto its creative sources as Japanese artists were forced to define themselves in relation to a Japanese noise scene. then changed their work to avoid being categorized under those terms.

Regardless of whetber one accepts these visual choices or is disgusted by them, the use of these images has affected the minds of the individual artists on these albums.{..} so now what has been represented as japanese noise at first by exaggeration based on the lack of sufficent information in the early period,then labeled with attributes that summarized the group from the distant perspective of overseas reception and then represented by the glut of information in later periods-is forced to define itself"

-Mikawa



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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7 by Kyle Nonneman

Monday, August 1, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7

 

ANTINATALIST RANT INSPIRED BY THE FILM :
I SMILE BACK

(AKA I SAW YOUR MOMMY!)

STARRING SARAH SILVERMAN

This film is a lot like Possession minus the tentacle monster sex.. Watch this fucking movie if you ever wanted to fully understand the lyrics to Berkertex Bribe by Crass..Its a brutally honest film about motherhood thats as cute&cuddly as Trevor Browns paintings & Spiegelman's Maus comix and moving as the classic novelization of the Hedda Nussenbaum case Susan Brownmiller wrote.

In the grand Plathian feminist horror tradition of films like Boxing Helena, It lives Again, Frances,& Ciao! Manhattan .The perfect film for those who use well read copies of the Scum Manifesto to wipe up the semen when there done jerking off to those Law & Order Svu episodes where Mariska Hartigay becomes a victim and gets bound and gagged..for those who want to wallow in all that degradation,

This film takes the downward spiral hinted at in films like Smithereens to a level closer to the heart... Its like Kathy Acker coldly dissecting the lies told by common chick flicks and showing the cold ugly reality of life in this society for what it truly is.

It brings to mind the lyrics Stevie Nick's Gold Dust Woman as much as it does various Jarboe fronted Swans songs..A nihilistic argument for antinatalism and a reminder of how fucking worthless our existence is wrapped loosely in the sheep's clothing of a Lifetime original film saved by the female lead showing us all her wounds..Watching her slow inexorable demise..

The demise all too familar to those who have sat in dilapidated motel rooms, listening to former house wives turned meth whores rant about how they're a good mommy and if it wasn't for this or that sick motherfucker doing this to her. She loves her kids.. Till you shut her up by handing her a pipe or shoving another cock down her throat.You let procreating the human species become your fucking purpose in life and find meaning in the love of your parasitic offspring, you deserve what the fuck you get..

A lot of people will look at this film as if the female protagonist is a martyr and a victim of a cruel misogynist conspiracy..Shocked and appalled to the point in which they have to simply find someone to blame for what happens, other than the mommy character of course or the cold relative chaotic nature of the universe or the cruelty intrinsic to human nature....

That's as hard to swallow as a shit & blood-stained cock fresh from a cheating housewife's rectum.(A tighter alternative to her blown-out birth hole) So in misandrist tradition they blame the men in the film.Which isn't what happens.

She creates her own hells through her own actions.. Pure and simple.My ex- tried to tell me she loved children, she beat and starved our newborn son, was given many treatment opportunities, fucked it all off to get high. She tried to relapse on crystal meth in a motel room off interstate in Portland. Using the same shit again that caused her to lose her kids in the first place. Don't pretend to be something your not. She didn't love her fucking kids , they were just a way to make people feel sorry for her and overlook her drug addiction, wearing the crown of victimhood upon her head.

It wasn't enough to fuck up her own life, no she had to bring others into this world and fuck their lives up along with her own. No one is innocent.

If you're a sick fuck, you'll also find some decent clips in this film to jerk off to . you can politicize onanist depravity by directing your attention to something not meant to be used in that fashion. Its forbidden. As a result, its more attractive ...I SMILE BACK.....(through feces clotted with blood. Mistakes & failures desecrating the venerable sanctity of family life and honest morality...).

This film is based on a book."feminist" fiction tends to be more honest than prose. Like Dworkin's novel Ice & Fire, a long out of print tale written in a deliberate and admitted pastiche of Henry Miller & Genet's style and themes, Dworkin's novel goes into her Electra complexed ambivalence towards rape and explores her daddy/daughter incest fantasies and BDSM proclivities. In that novel, Dworkin shows a lot of skeletons in her closet and got too autobiographical and honest.

Her later non fiction prose was designed as self therapy to shove those skeletons back in the closest and build a wall of denial around the harsh realities of what she really desired and wanted in life. Reminding me of the attacks porn stars voice at feminists, porn stars label them jealous self loathing misogynists, trying to demonize and victimize the pretty successful girls who can come out and be women, and explore and express their sexual nature with pride and honor not shame. A lot of this is the pouting of sore losers that are fucked up in the head and can't handle reality , so they try to reinvent everyone else's reality to try and pander to their own mental disease.

I SMILE BACK...
(LOOK BACK&LAUGH)
(BECAUSE ITS ALL A FUCKING SICK JOKE).
YUM YAB....!


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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE


IN HONOR OF FAUST'S RELEASE FROM PRISON: HELNORSK SVARTMETALL

"WE WANT THE FREEDOM NOT OF HERDS,BUT OF DUTY, WE HATE THE PROPAGANDA OF EQUALITY. STRUGGLE IS THE FATHER OF ALL THINGS . EQUALITY IS DEATH"-SEBOTTENDORFF
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"IT IS ONLY IN THE ENTHUSIASM OF DESTRUCTION THAT THE MEANING OF DIVINE CREATION IS REVEALED. IT IS ONLY IN THE MIDST OF DEATH THAT ETERNAL LIFE FLARES UP"-SCHLEGEL
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"METAL IS A ROMP THROUGH THE BACKROOM AT SPENCERS FOR DWEEBS LIKE THIS AND I WISH THEIR CAREERS WOULD FOLLOW FAUST OUT TO THE WOODS FOR FREE CANDY"
"BLACK METAL IS FOUNDED BY SOCIOPATHS. YOU DONT GET TO PICK AND CHOOSE WHEN THE NOVELTY OF DEATH APPEALS TO YOU"
--MIKE SHEA  (CODEX OBSCURUM #9)
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"I SMUGLY STUCK TO THE POSITION THAT I WOULDN'T LISTEN TO NAZIS' MUSIC BECAUSE IT WAS SHIT ANYWAY. THE PRODUCT OF IDIOTIC SKINHEADS WHO COULD BARELY STRING TWO CHORDS TOGETHER.BUT THIS WAS CONFOUNDED BY INQUISITION'S TECHNICALLY ADEPT, WELL WRITTEN AND WELL RECORDED OUTPUT. I HAD BEEN SIMPLIFYING REALITY TO FIT MY OWN PRECONCEPTIONS"-shamelessnavelgazing.wordpress.com (Inquisition and black metal's fascism problem)
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"DEATH AND DESTRUCTION ARE NECESSARY TO THE HEALTH OF THE WORLD, AND THEREFORE AS NATURAL AND LOVABLE AS BIRTH AND LIFE. ONLY PRIESTS AND BORN COWARDS MOAN AND WEEP OVER DYING"-RAGNAR REDBEARD
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I dont give a shit about followers of christ's safety, i openly advocate and promote "Ideologies that call for their destruction".You want a safe space to be a fucking sheep then go back to listening to Vengeance Rising.

Vh1 sponsored major label mouthpiece and undercover PMRC operative Zack Sigel has taken it upon himself to try and force his christian beliefs onto the black metal underground. Zack Sigel has started an internet only campaign sponsored by vh1&the new PMRC to protest the highly exalted status of Faust, the drummer from Emperor who was just released from prison for murder. Sigel is a poser and a christian he's not part of the underground. His opinion means shit. His kind are the fucking enemy. Period. The thoughts of his kind stand as yet another example of why the human race needs to just simply be exterminated. Zack Sigel is just untermenschen.

Faust earned his place in the underground, he put alot of actual work in. Faust was also courageous enough to take the life of another human being. You frequently see posers saying Faust's murder was motivated by homophobia. The fact is these poser's have perception bias. They are prey animals. So they are unable to comprehend the actions and motivations of a predator. To compensate for their inability to see things from the perspective of a wolf, these sheep simply debase the situation down to a level they can understand with their lesser minds.Unable to understand social darwininism, natural selection and the predator/prey relationship, they just ignorantly jump to the conclusion that it was a homophobic murder motivated by a prejudical fear of homosexuals.That's a motive their kind can understand & directly relate to, of course. Since like homophobes, they're frightened of anything they dont understand and fear the unknown. .Whereas true satanists and misanthropes embrace death and the endless depths, facing the unknown to achive a higher knowledge and understanding of the world then the sheep who live in denial. Their cowardice is further proven by the fact that they won't do anything but talk shit online. never in person.

When you go to a restaurant, you order cooked steak,the menu says steak. It doesn't say bloody piece of flesh cut from a screaming cow. Our civilized society has wilfully been put into a state of submission . Very few people hunt for what they eat. Instead they dissociate themselves from what they are . Humans are predators. Now that were safe at the top of the food chain, A lot of people are becoming domesticated and weak, to the point that they openly advocate sacrificing what little value we even have as a species to act like a prey animal. This has ugly consequences. Various feminists have advanced the proven theory that since humans, unlike every other mammal, decline to eat the afterbirth of their young, this unrequited biological imperative results in postpartum depression which leads many mothers to kill their children rather then do something as unchristian as eat the placenta.
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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

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or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

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or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUEIn 96, Feral House published The Making of A Serial Killer by Danny Rolling,the Gainsville Florida rapist killer. Rolling is the poor man's Richard Speck....Rolling became born again and his killings were the disorganized schizoaffective confused acts of a sheep making a fumbling attempt at being a wolf. Rolling when locked up went back to being a good christian and scapegoats responsibility for his crimes on a demonic entity he calls Gemini. He blames the demon he calls Gemini , because he cant own up to what he did or take pride in his kills...

It's interesting how Slayer has a song called Gemini on their 96 album Undisputed Attitude. Codex Obscurum did a track by track review of the NuSlayer album Repentless and for the most part... told it like it is. Being a completist separates the elite from the false, but in a lot of cases, it becomes a masochistic endurance test centered around individuals who cant let go of a beloved band and accept their death, and instead they close their eyes and fuck a corpse....

I fail to see the ability to make a meal out of shit as a unique and valuable skill, when there's a lot better things to eat out there...Slayer stated that there is a bunch of unreleased Jeff Hanneman session material. Which they chose to shelf and recorded Repentless instead. The cover of Repentless has a pentagram covered up by Christ's face as well as an image of a crucifixion that's not inverted. In addition to the clandestine christian overtones on the cover of this album, it's released on Nuclear Blast. Nuclear Blast is the same label responsible for releasing a lot of material by the infamous false christian metal band Mortification. Mortification is openly christian and false, having gone so far as to record tributes to the christian hair metal band Rez.You can't be at war with christ and false metal if you're sheltering, clothing, feeding and dwelling amongst troops of the enemy.

In times of war, that's called being a traitor. At least when Cavalera sold out to the enemy he quit recording as Sepultura....The first three Slayer albums were groundbreaking classics that laid the foundations for a lot of powerful metal acts. Like Sepultura The underground acts directly influenced by Slayer's early work are ultimately more relevant and powerful then most of what Slayer has done since the masterpieces they put out in the 1980s. You can argue that Slayer was more metal in the 90s than Metallica, but that's not saying much.

When there's a whole underground of innovative extreme acts struggling for the recognition they deserve, transgressivley advancing extreme music in new directions, why waste your fucking time promoting an overrated major label act that's pretty much just treading water at this point?

Dissection's cover of Antichrist off Shown No Mercy is also better than the original, because of the sincerity and honesty Dissection puts behind the lyrics. Unlike Slayer, Dissection had a lifelong uncompromising commitment to satan. Slayer shouldn't get a pass for selling out and becoming traitors just because they put out 3 classic groundbreaking albums and an ep in the eighties. Also Possessed's Seven Churches came out in 85, and the first 3 Bathory albums were released between 84&85. Reign in Blood wasn't released until 1986.

A lot of Slayer's fanbase also consists of weekend warrior half stepping posers that buy Slayer products because it's a convenient and accessible brand name. Its not too extreme and they're almost major label rock stars, and they have discernible lyrics . Perfect for the type of lame sheep that have a pathetic need to pretend to appreciate extreme heavy music but in reality can't handle anything beyond NWOBHM, Butt metal, and clean major label melodic thrash. The type of stupid motherfuckers that hate live recordings, because raw uncompressed guitars don't sound right to cattle accustomed to the sugar coated defanged tones of radio friendly corporate pop music. These people are frightened by anything with full dynamic range....Acts like Lamb of God, Amon  Amarth and most of what the high priestess of false metal Full metal jackie plays on her radio show panders to this mass market demographic of cascadian hipsters & Juggallos. All that shit is as incorrigibly useless, defective and bereft of meaning as earplugs, condoms, decaf coffee, and non alcoholic beer.

RECOMENDED LISTENING:

DEATHHAMMER-EVIL POWER
modern classic full length album of raw evil thrashing satanic speed metal done right. played properly with integrity and honesty.
         Sounds just like something from 1985.No modern bullshit just a goat sodomizing bloodlust fueled dedication to old school metal..
      Straight bang your head for satan and burn down a church true underground metal for everyone who isnt afraid to admit that the new Slayer album sucks ass.
          DEATHHAMMER FUCKING KILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEIL SATAN! HEIL TORMENTOR!!!
LONG LIVE THE DEATH CULT!



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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

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or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE


"PROHIBITION GIVES WHAT IT PROSCRIBES A MEANING THAT IN ITSELF THE PROHIBITED ACTION NEVER HAD. A PROHIBITED ACT INVITES TRANSGRESSION,WITHOUT WHICH THE ACT WOULD NOT HAVE THE WICKED GLOW WHICH IS SO SEDUCTIVE.IN THE TRANSGRESSION OF THE PROHIBITION A SPELL IS CAST"-BATAILLE
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"WAS IT NOT LIKELY THAT ALL SELF DESTRUCTIVE IMPULSES WERE THE RESULT OF WITCHCRAFT? THOSE UNIVERSAL IMPULSES THAT WERE A DIRECT CONTRADICTION TO THE LAWS OF SELF PRESERVATION AND SURVIVAL. TO ACCOUNT FOR THEM, POE HAD FANCIFULLY CONCIVED AN "IMP OF THE PERVERSE" AND PSYCHOANALYISTS HAD LABORIOUSLY HYPOTHESIZED A "DEATH WISH" HOW MUCH SIMPLER TO ATTRIBUTE THEM TO MALIGN FORCES OUTSIDE THE INDIVIDUAL,WORKING BY MEANS AS YET UNANLYZED AND THEREFORE CLASSFIED AS SUPERNATURAL"-FRITZ LEIBER (CONJURE WIFE)
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Witchcraft is a convenient catchall term applied to give order to things ignorant folks dont understand. In Crowley's confessions as well as De Sade's Justine, there's a parable made as to the directly ill effects of christianity's doctrines ordering abstinence and suppression of natural human biological functions. Desires,Needs, and Impulses. These appetites when left unfulfilled creates a neurotic self contempt that leads individuals to aberrant acts of self destruction and willful debasement. Jeffrey Dahmer had a strong christian upbringing as a child so did Ed Gein. They were taught at an early age that they were evil and tainted in the eyes of god because of there homosexuality and doomed from the start .

This of course instilled in them an "Imp of the Perverse" essentially. Because instead of being raised to freely be themselves without hindrance, they were taught that it was wrong and evil. This led them to become desperate at concealment . Dahmer's acts were motivated by a desire to keep what he did secret. He couldnt perform unless the victim was unconscious.He tried to create zombies so he would have a partner that wouldn't leave him due to pathological abandonment issues. The attraction to alot of fetishes and paraphillias , comes from the thrill and rush of doing something forbidden and against the status quo. It is of course religion that gives them there forbidden taboo effect and thus goes the theological subjugation of humanity,making all these depraved fetishes so attractive and arousing.

Then they of course blame all this shit on witchcraft and Satanism. In an effort to not only scapegoat there own responsibility and culpability in the acts. But also provide there herd with a common enemy to rally against and frighten them into further submission. The idea of the Imp of the Perverse, is at its core another name for the Gnostic Demiurge. The Gnostic Demiurge is the term for the cosmic indifferent higher power as symbolized by Lovecraft's Ancient Ones. They're not so much working against us and promoting our self destruction as their just bluntly apathetic and indifferent to it. Because we mean nothing to them.

Look at Rio, she wont take her medication, so now the hiv virus is spreading to her brain and this invisible organism sees the tissues containing her memories, desires and dreams merely as a warm fertile place to breed and replicate itself. Conjure Wife is a funny and amusing novel. It somewhat satires the belief in the supernatural that at its core is just something fanciful humans manufactured as a psychological survival mechanism. So they can pretend that their bound in determinism to the whims of a higher power and not actually in control of their own actions.

This is of course appealling on a large scale because it frees people from responsibility and allows them to scapegoat all the damaging effects of their existence onto someone else. And of course some individuals do end up with a death wish and endup living there lives knowingly without a future .Its subjective as to wether thats a form of freedom or self destruction. Those enslaved by the rat race of conventional morality fail to comprehend that and are in some cases insidiously jealous of it so they act in accordance to their cognitive dissonance&perception bias.

"THEY WERE LIKE THE VISIONS CONJURED UP BY SOME FORBIDDEN DRUG. THEY HAD THE LURE OF AN UNKNOWN SIN AND AN ULTIMATE BLASPHEMY. NORMAN COULD UNDERSTAND THE FORCE THAT COMPELLED THE PRACTIONERS OF BLACK MAGIC TO TAKE ANY RISK"-LEIBER (CONJURE WIFE).



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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part3

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

"DID YOU EVER EXPERIENCE REAL BRUTALITY? OR DID YOU READ ABOUT IT ON THE LYRICS SHEETS? DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR WHAT YOUR FIGHTING FOR? OR ARE YOU JUST FUCKIN' BORED?"-WEEKEND NACHOS (S.C.A.B. from the STILL record)

Dickens had somewhat of an agenda, to make the masses aware of the cruel conditions in london's slums and make them aware of the plight of the disenfranchised . but he didn't go far enough in his fiction. Our modern post industrial society has further degenerated since that period.

With the Smoke Ghost, Leiber made that point. The Dickensian ghosts are dead and obsolete. Unable to enact any force in our world at this point. It also depicts a submission to the cosmic forces, as mankind inevitably bound in ruin. Unable to listen to reason or see reality for what it is. You have to accept the necessary evil and swallow it. Look at the ending to Leiber's Conjure Wife. Its not some "Last Exorcism" type formulaic hackwork where the skeptic non believer becomes a believer.

No. He acquiesces to his wife's lunacy and supernatural belif system for the same reason the protagonist of Smoke Ghosts bows before the ghost. For the same reasons Leiber himself, took the path of horror fiction after Hiroshima, Instead of writing luddite cautionary scifi about the evils of advanced technology .

Similarly a lot of Andrew Vachss work shines a mirror on the ugly side of humanity. He spits in the faces of those sheep looking for authentic crime fiction that's real, By giving them something so real it pretty much ceases to be escapist fiction and becomes a Ketchum-esque beast that fits the standards of aesthetic terrorism as much as it does those of the detective novel.

I like it because the characters are human and not simply cardboard cutouts going through the motions . I don't give a shit about authors that write crime fiction without having any actual experience with the subject matter beyond research and hollywood pandering to a reader demographic of fellow tourists and housewives that have also never lived near the gutter and seen beneath the mask, and beyond the veil.

Like Carpenter's film They Live. Its the difference between those who have put on the sunglasses and those who just go through the motions. Blindly ignorant of what humanity is really all about. Also a lot of these lesser crime fiction hacks are just mining the darkside of human nature in cheaply exploitative fashion in order to have fodder for a piece of cheap entertainment. Junkfood for the masses. Theirs no point in any of it. Its just shit, .

I've lived through those types of hells and there's no fucking tragic martyrdom to any of it. No misunderstood glory in it.. Iv lived with a hooker that shot crystal meth every day in front of me and told me all the war stories about her life on the street and why she did what she did. She wasn't forced into it or controlled. She openly admitted to being cheap and enjoyed the degradation. But of course humanity needs to compartmentalize there evils and have a scapegoat to make sense of the chaos, turn it into something routine. But that aint reality. She wasnt pimped out . Id give her money so she wouldn't have to trick and she would still go out and do it regardless. 

And there are people like myself who fuck there lives over trying to save people who don't want to be saved and then they wake up.. And give up and move on. Like i did with Rio. And the one before Rio. Id get put in jail on domestic violence, get released homeless with no financial support. So id have to go back to living with Angie. She'd burn me with cigarettes,bite me, We'd get drunk and get all fucked up, the only safe word was the trip to the e.r. And the common person on the street cant understand that shit. They think no would willingly live that way of their own free will. So we get demonized and no contact orders placed on us .By people who think they could fucking save us from ourselves. As if there was any fucking point at all to our existence.


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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE



In George Smith's book Why Atheism? He discusses the short and easy refutation of atheism: "Even if the atheist is able to deny the existence of a particular god (e.g. the god of christianity) owing to its contradictory attributes this does not preclude the possibility that a god of some kind may still exist. Even if we cannot define adequately in human terms."

George Smith then rambles on a bit and grasps at straws and dosn't really provide any concrete rebuttal to this common attack on atheism. Smith's problem is largely due to the fact that his work panders to the masses. By cheaply pulling his punches in order to be more accessible to a mass market readership. He ignores the obvious answer to this common argument made by xians: Cosmicism. Do we as humans care about the feelings and opinions of cockroaches and maggots? Do we care about the moral and value systems of a centipede?

Of course we as a species are utterly apathetic to such basely pedantic concerns. In most cases our only interactions with those lower forms of life are in fact to exterminate them without remorse ever factoring into the equation. Because they are of course so far below our level of perception and cognition That they become non entities.

This is what our species is in the face of a higher power. We are so microscopic in comparison, that we will never grasp its presence, let alone understand its motives and identity, so for all intents and purposes it doesnt exist to us. Because its so far outside of our range of perception we cant even sense its presence. So why waste our lives chasing something thats beyond our comprehension? Why should we delude our selves into believing that a being intelligent enough and advanced enough to swim freely through "Black seas of infinity" is going to listen to the prayers and dreams of a parasitic species trapped perpetually on a "Placid island of ignorance".

Lovecraft by creating the Cthulhu mythos and the philosophy of cosmicism, in fact rendered that cheaply common attack on atheist reason obsolete. But George Smith, being a deconverted christian, not a natural atheist, still clings to some of those chains. He dosnt factor in the utter insignificance of humanity into his equation. Hes not ready to face the axiomatic truth that our existence is in fact meaningless.

As a result most of his work consists sadly of him trying as vainly as a xian to quixotically find meaning and purpose,where there is in fact none whatsoever. Furthermore George Smith states that writing a definitive philosophy of atheism would in fact be impossible. Despite Emma Goldman previously doing just that decades ago to powerful effect. George Smith also goes off topic and wastes readers time by attacking Ayn Rand in a thoroughly sophomoric fashion. To ignorantly attack the work of Ayn Rand in a book intended to promote logic and reason and advance atheist thought is as inane and irrationally counterproductive as a preacher giving sermon on the shortcomings and failures of christ.

Readers will find more relevant information on this topic and its relation to Lovecraftin in Ligotti's classic of modern philosophy and literary analysis: The Conspiracy Against The Human Race.

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE


(DEDICATED TO JENNIFER GOINES)

IMPERIAL RANT FOR OUR MASTER SATAN


"THEY ARE LOOKING FOR THE "GRAVE RACIAL INJUSTICE" OF THE GUY SITTING IN HIS TRUCK ON HIS LUNCHBREAK CASUALLY LISTENING TO SOMETHING EXTREME HE MAY OR MAY NOT AGREE WITH POLITICALLY BUT APPRECIATES THE ART THAT MOTIVATES THE MUSIC.THEY'RE ALL LIKE LITTLE ANGRY HITLERS,. THEY CANT WRITE ANYTHING WORTHWHILE SO THEY HAVE TO TRY AND KILL EVERYTHING THEY CANNOT DUPLICATE SUCCESSFULLY"-HOUSE OF ATREUS 

"I PERSONALLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT SOCIETY. I DON'T CONSIDER MYSELF AS HUMAN. SO I WONT WASTE MY TIME CRITICIZING THEIR SOCIETY. WOLVES DON'T CRITICIZE SHEEP. THEY JUST BLEED THEM TO DEATH,. I WORSHIP THE DEVIL BECAUSE SATAN WORSHIP IS ABOUT DIGGING UP CORPSES,KILLING PEOPLE FOR THE THRILL OF IT AND SPITTING ON THEIR GRAVES. ITS NOT ABOUT DANCING NAKED IN THE WOODS. REAL SATANISTS HATE EVERYTHING: YIDS,NIGGERS,XIANS,DOGS,CATS... EVERYTHING! SO FUCK THE SO CALLED SATANISTS. THEY ARE NOTHING. I ONLY RESPECT GRAVE ROBBERS AND KILLERS"-NICO CLAUX

"BETTER LIVING THROUGH MASS EXTINCTION\KILL THE WORLD &ALL IS SILENCE"-Jennifer Goines
When i was in federal prison.I became close allies with Jay Scott Ballenger. Jason had burned down over 33 churches,he was called the "Missionary of Lucifer" by the media. He mentored me and taught me alot of things. Previously i always subscribed to the eminent secular humanist/objectivist sourced side of the Left Hand Path. Jay Scott Ballenger wrote up the contract for my soul and did the proper blood&fire ritual to give my soul to Satan. 

Shortly before my last arrest, i went around collecting soul contract signatures at a Deicide show as well as a Mayhem show to mail back to Jason. It was surprising how many posers were scared to actually make their allegiance to Satan official....
So if their is a hell, I'm going to fucking burn in it. Ever since i saw Hellraiser 2 as a kid,iv been fascinated with hell. I always loved the imagery and atmosphere of hell itself. It was beautiful to me. Readers interested in more depictions of hell, should check out Jeffrey Thomas' Hades series and Edward Lee's Inferno novels, all of which take place primarily in hell itself . Not this world.Black Metal is meant to be a cosmic indifferent negative form of expression. Against the world and against all life. Its not meant to be something positive and a vehicle in which to promote causes and ideas that futility advance the human race. All sentient life on this planet needs to just fucking die. The anarcho crust twilight circle of false black metal needs to fuck off and die. Its not Black. Its not Metal. Its just lame and weak.

Black Metal with positive lyrics is as worthless as decaf,non alcoholic beer,soy meat,condoms&earplugs.Also why cant these posers create their own genre and innovate their own style? Would that not be a more effective way to promote your message?Instead of building your hackwork crudely upon the backs of your enemies, resulting in tired pastiches and dull replications of whats been done before with far greater honesty,sincerity and skill.Its blatantly obvious how little talent these crossover posers have,when their unable to create their own style and genre and have to instead rip off True Metal and protect their ripoff shit by calling out more talented musicians for their "abhorrent politics" Their worse then white power nazis. Because Nazi bands at least have their own genre and style. You don't see white power bands putting out rap albums and then writing columns in nazi zines condemning black rappers for being in gangs and smoking crack...

Punks trying to be Black are also engaging in the sellout commercial tactics the christian music industry employs to corrupt the minds of children. Xian music is designed and engineered to resemble and sound like pop/rock/metal music in order to manipulate people into buying it and becoming brainwashed by its bullshit philosphy that they try to shove down your throat like a rapists cock. Removing satanism from Black metal and replacing it with peace punk shit, is no different from the exploitative marketing techniques of christian metal acts. "Its heavy just like real metal but it has a positive christian message" .

I've actually heard people say that. People like that are similar to Iskara fans.....Iv desecrated statues of the virgin mary, iv spit blood in the faces of cops and had viscous fights with cops, Iv stabbed people, iv kicked peoples faces in. Iv done alot of fucked up and depraved shit in my life and i got no respect for fakes that have never experienced real brutality in their lives and talk of the benefits of non violent protest simply because it provides a convenient justification for their cowardice.

HEIL SATAN. HEIL CTHULHU!

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5

by Kyle Nonneman

ENDNOTES:

GOOD NEWS:
METHANE GAS FREEZES AND TURNS INTO METHANE ICE, THE FLOODING AND CLIMATE CHANGES THAT RESULT FROM INCREASED GLOBAL WARMING ISNT THE REAL THREAT TO HUMANITIES EXISTENCE. ITS ALSO THE POISONOUS EFFECT OF FROZEN METHANE THAWING OUT AND CAUSING EVEN GREATER DAMAGE TO THE ATMOSPHERE. SCIENTISTS ESTIMATE THE EARTH WILL BE INCAPABLE OF SUSTAINING LIFE BY 2035.
 

RECOMMENDED LISTENING:
KRIEG-THE BLACK HOUSE
This record is a cult classic, one of the few great american black metal records. The lyrical themes of this album are sourced from the frontman's own personal nightmares and provide more original and harrowing subject matter than the usual Satan/Death/Destruction themes. It has a fairly distinctive and unique sound to it. This harsh concept album was inspired by alot of the colder elements of postpunk and The Velvet Underground, this also features a pretty iconoclast cover of Venus In Furs. The layered and textured vocals are absolutely brutal. Krieg maintains a remorseless and extreme sound without simply replicating the scandanivian acts that set the standard. Utterly destroying most of the fumbling&pathetic attempts made by bored american crust punks to sound black.
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"THAT MAGICAL SUMMER OF 1913,IN WHAT WAS DESTINED TO BE THE GENTLE CLIMAX OF A HALF CENTURY OF PEACE. THE LAST OF THOSE MYSTERIOUSLY GOLDEN SUMMERS BEFORE THE DREAM EXPLODED LIKE A FESTERING CORPSE IN THE BROILING SUNS OF MID JULY,AND THE MOST BELIEVING OF ALL GENERATIONS IN THE LONG HISTORY OF EUROPE TOASTED EACH OTHER WITH BEAKERS OF BLOOD AND PUS, AND THEN LIKE SURPRISED CHILDREN,SANK BACK IN THEIR MILLIONS TO FILL A CONTINENT WITH GRAVES THAT ENDED THE DREAM FOR ALL TIME"

"WHEN THE DREAMER DIES, THE DREAM DIES WITH HIM AND IT DIES FOREVER. WHAT IT LEAVES BEHIND IS ALSO FOREVER. DONT LOOK FOR CHANGE. DONT LOOK FOR ANYTHING BETTER. LOOK ONLY AT YOUR OWN MIRROR IMAGE IN EVERY OTHER HUMAN FACE AND RECOGNIZE THE DREAMLESS ANIMAL FOR WHICH THERE IS NO COMFORT AND FROM WHICH THERE CAN BE NO ESCAPE. WHAT BEGAN WITH MAN AS GOD HAS ENDED WITH ANIMAL AS MAN AND THERE'S NO WAY TO CHANGE IT NOW."

"MATTHEW,MARK,LUKE AND JOHN,ESAU AND JOB AND BAAL-THESE WERE NOT THE HOLY OR UNHOLY NAMES WE CALLED UPON.WHEN IT WASN'T WOTAN SIEGFRIED WHO SANG IN OUR BLOOD,IT WAS THE VOICE OF THE EAST,THE VOICES OF NIETZSCHE AND STEFAN GEORGE, OF LANGBEHN AND LAGARDE. THE VOICE OF HEGEL RIGHT SIDE UP,THE PHILOSOPHY OF MATERIALISM, THE VOICES OF A BLOOD BROTHERHOOD AS DIFFERENT FROM WESTERN EUROPE AS LOKI FROM CHRIST HIMSELF. NOT AGAINST EACH OTHER BUT FOR EACH OTHER,FOR ALL, FREELY FOR ALL,FREELY OBEDIENT,HELD IN TOTAL THRALL BY DEVOTION TO THE LEADER. WE HAD LEFT THE CITY,THE MERCHANT,THE PROFESSOR,THE POLITICIAN,THE BANKER,THE JEW,THE SELF PROCLAIMED VIRGIN AND HER FRAUDULENT SON KILLED AT LAST BY THE JEWS-WE HAD LEFT THEM FOREVER BEHIND AS WE SEARCHED FOR SOMETHING OLDER,SIMPLER,AND INFINITELY MORE PURE: FOR SOMETHING IN SHORT,WORTH DYING FOR,."-DALTON TRUMBO

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author.]

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 4

by Kyle Nonneman

"WHY KILL TIME,WHEN YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF?"-CABARET VOLTAIRE

You can play the Crimethinc Mccarthyist witch hunt game and find links to "racist" black metal everywhere. Dimmu Borgir, one of the most well known false black metal bands beloved by the same fake assholes that buy cradle of poser filth cds, (its called cradle of filth because everything after TOTAL FUCKING DARKNESS is infantile shit.

If you need clean vocals and symphonic bullshit, then your alot like the sad old men at the nursing home who cant handle solid food anymore.) was originally on an allegedly NSBM label, No Colours.

No Colours put out the first Dimmu release, thats the same label Graveland was on before he started working with The National Alliance's record label Resistance. A lot of Metallica's early songs were directly inspired by H.P. Lovecraft, Lovecraft was a misanthropic separatist, he hated all of humanity, but he still held the belief that blacks were lower on the food chain , like beasts of burden and wrote about the horrors of miscegenation , as well as considering jews to be an exceptionally vile part of the already worthless human species. For one to simply say Lovecraft was racist is to admit to being ignorant of his philosophy of cosmicsim. He was a nihilistic misanthrope and a lot of his work dealt directly with humanity being forced into facing the fact that our existence is meaningless and were perpetually bound in ruin. Lovecraft's work was a statement against the specist conceited notion that mankind is the crown of creation, he stood up against the anthropomorphic bias and systems of denial used by lesser men to hide from the harsh realities of our disposable and inconsequential existence.

Of course if you're too fucking stupid to comprehend that, you can call him racist, and act like one of those christians that like to burn everything they dont understand.

The critics who try to dismiss Lovecraft because of his allegedly racist viewpoints, are of course completely incapable of writing anything remotely close to that level of unholy grim eloquence , let alone have the vast literary and cultural impact on the world Lovecraft does.The same goes for alot of black metal, American punks who act as detractors and protest against the themes of the scandanivan bands, dont get it anymore than S.T. Joshi does. They're immigrants and invaders afflicted with guilt and self loathing over being only a few generations removed from the terrorists who stole america . So they feel the need to make amends for the guilt they feel over there ancestors actions.Yet in doing so they adopt obvious xenophobic attitudes and label as fascist things unique to a foreign culture,simply because it dosnt fit in with their life experinces growing up in America. Alot more people in the racist underground have actually stepped up and waged direct war on the government than anarcho punks have.

I dont agree with Robert j. Mathews christian identity nonsense, but the man was fed up with the polite passive resistance of the all talk elements of the movement, and robbed alot of armored cars ,put the money back into the movement and died in a 36 hour machine gun battle with cops,u.s. marshalls and fbi agents, before they ended up burning his house down. Regardless of his misguided racism, That was more fucking hardcore than spiking a circle a/no gods no masters patch on the back of your jacket.

Peter Langan was a Transgender racist skinhead, who ended up in federal prison following the same extremist path Mathews did. American punks trying to play black metal, won't ever reach the elite level of the scandanivans that started it, nor will they ever get the recognition, they will never put out an album as good as Filosfem or Transivanian Hunger. They will always be in the shadows . So motivated by jealousy, these sore losers, instead of trying to create there own sound, would rather bitch and complain in zines in order to disarm and discredit there superiors. Im sick of fucking hearing it. If the music is about misanthropic destruction and blatantly antichristian, and its good music, I'm down. My only issue with hate crimes and racism, is the whole human race needs to be exterminated not just one part of it.

Were all a weed species that has a parasitic effect on all other sentinent life on this planet. I aint apolgising for racism, but your apolgist arguments justifying specieism are
what's truely abhorrent. How much time is spent in the punk scene calling out people who commit sexist/racist/homophobic acts against humans? Why such self centered concern for something as vile as humanity?

SPECICIDE NOT GENOCIDE.

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 3

by Kyle Nonneman

"THE ONLY WAY TO REFORM PEOPLE IS TO KILL THEM"-CARL PANZRAM

When i lived in Columbia Missouri, Menschenfeind productions sponsored,booked and flyered most of the shows, as well as setup venues and later on started a record store and a radio show,.

A lot of punks who in no way whatsoever contributed constructively to the scene, and never even helped flyer a show or give a touring band a place to crash, saw it as there right to protest and claim ignorantly that Menschenfeind was a white power label and all that bullshit. This feud climaxed in us setting up a Costes House show, Costes is like two GG Allins at once , with a female Bob Flanagan, shit,piss,blood, french woman doing boxcutter genital mutilation on one side of stage , while on the other there are two naked french guys covered in shit and piss, ones fucking a raw chicken while the other guys got a saxophone up his ass.

A lot of these punk kids fled in terror.

It was too punk rock for them.....

After Menschenfeind focused on the record store and moved to st louis, that scene pretty much fucking died. Because the computer cowards who loved to bitch on the internet and call the cops on shows with bands or promoters they didn't like, didn't want to put in the fucking effort and work necessary to set up there own space and book bands. They said fuck that and kept on throwing rocks behind the scene at people actually putting in work. Every band on Panzerfaust records sucked as much shit as Permanent Ruin's drummer. It was all either that polished glossy high production value RoseTattoo / AC/DC ripoff bar rock meets shitty bonehead OI ,cuntry music.. or that Radio Rock friendly nazi hardcore that sounds like Victory/crew shit but even more cheesy and corny.

Nonetheless, when it was discovered that the guy who ran Panzerfaust records wasn't actually white, and was using the money he made off selling white power music to take sex tours in Thailand, he was assaulted and assassinated in short order. In the punk scene , its all an incestuous mass of hippy free love and equality, predicated upon good christian morals, like turn the other cheek, so when you got a shitty ripoff label or a sellout band, they don't get beat up or killed,. No you just see some pseudo intellectual teeny bopper debate club bullshit in the MRR letters section and then when the label shuts down, he sells his out of print ripoff records to the highest bidder on Viva La Vinyl.

Like the US Government in Vietnam etc. imposing there righteousness on the heathens, and the Crusades...Punks also see themselves as morally obligated to police the scene, and tell people what there supposed to think and believe, and they see it as there right to tell people what to believe. They say it's about thinking for yourself, but anybody who's an apolitical nihilist and rises above the politics, is basically cast out and spit upon. You got free will to think for your self as long as you do it inside of there tiny box , whose borders are set by those with the most subcultural scene capital. You can sit there and tell me all about the fucking horrors of fetishizing nazi imagery and why we shouldn't promote this or that band, but you still sound like a fucking redneck prattling about the evil things muslims do to justify their war. Rednecks like to fight and blow shit up and you like the controversy and the arguments. I think you should all just be fucking killed and exterminated alongside the rest of the human race.

The drummer for Permanent Ruin said he was suffering from self loathing and mental disease. I think people like him, would feel a lot better if they would just do the right thing and take their own lives. Commit suicide. I don't need some damage case closet christian like that drummer, claiming I'm inferior because i listen to Death In June. Fuck you and the human race your so obsessed with advancing and promoting. People turn apolitical and nihilistic, when they wake up and realize humanity can't be fixed and that you can't salvage mankind, the best you can do is promote the extinction of humanity, and stand up against those who still quixotically believe in the lofty ideal that we can be saved and that we can make this world a better place.

I'm not the one kicking the dead horse.

LONG LIVE DEATH!`

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