Letter from The Hole: Burnt Wood

APOPTHELEMA 

Letter from the Hole

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.]

From Kyle:

I heard an interesting and disturbing anecdote from some dude yelling war stories to his neighbor in the hole. [solitary confinement in prison]

There’s an infamous black skinhead named BURNT WOOD. “Wood” is skinhead slang for good white dude, as in peckerwood.

This black skinhead has Burnt Wood tattooed across his shoulders. He’s also covered in skinhead tats: swastikas, bolts, all that stuff... except he’s black. 

His mom’s white and she got raped by a black guy. Then she couldn’t get an abortion. The kid grew up and ended up in prison for life for killing some black gangbangers. His hatred of blacks and support of the white race is so vehement and hardcore, that skinheads accept him into their prison gang and treat him as one of their own.

The psychology of someone with that much conflicted self-hatred and hatred of other races is interesting, to say the least. 

You hear transgenders cry and bitch about the horror and discomfort of being trapped in a body you don’t identify with. That’s fucked up. But in Burnt Wood’s case, he’s trapped in the skin of something he absolutely hates. Think about that. 

You hear the Roe vs Wade arguments about what happens if a rape victim can’t get an abortion… they grow up to be infamous black skinheads committing murderous hate crimes to get over the horror of being born into this world… a doomed from the start outcast. 

--Kyle N. Feb 2023

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Apopthelma, Kyle Nonneman on The George Floyd Verdict

 

APOPTHELEMA 
Kyle on The George Floyd Trial

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.]

The faux trial hostage negotiation is over and the convicted pigfucker made popular on the news will most likely rot for awhile while post conviction remedy lawyers leech what they can from the marrow of this atrocity exhibition.

The trial was in reality by mob rule not jury.

The juries decisions were influenced more by  sycophantic  need to confirm to the established status quo set by the protestors.

Any juror voting not guilty would of course be branded a racist and in light of contemporary community standards being branded racist is as bad as being a communist during the McCarthy era.

I'm sure this factored significantly  into the Lemming-esque herd conformist decision-making process in the jury room.

Furthermore a vote of not guilty would incite nationwide protests and looting .

Its hard to be impartial in a trial where you know a few hundred thousand angry people will riot in the streets if you vote not guilty.

That's beyond extortion and coercion.

Despite the cop getting what his kind deserve, There's nothing empowering about gaining validation and acceptance within a corrupt system. Its like a wife-beater saying he's sorry and he loves you.

This cop was used as a whipping boy martyr for the multitude of sins past, present, and future committed by his race, gender and profession. He wasn't just convicted for killing George Floyd, he was also convicted as a public scapegoat sacrificed upon the altar of political correctness, an altar made from the shattered statues of  born-again racist dictators...o appease the wolves and keep the barbarians from storming the castle gates....

As a result were not going to see radical positive change in our society. No, this will just happily bring about more chaos and disorder. The protestors will still go out and smash it up and fight it out in the streets. A riot is like that Dead Kennedys song "THE UNBEATABLE HIGH" The cops will learn from there mistakes of course. No longer intervening in most crimes. Letting you bleed out or get robbed for crack.

Lest they end up in prison for life for their assistance.

Criminals now know if they want to commit a crime and not have to worry about getting shot by the cops all they need is some black face makeup. Way cheaper then a kevlar vest.

.WE ARE ALL FUCKED AND WE ARE ALL DOOMED 

WE HAVE NO FUTURE 

NO WAY TO BE SAVED.

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 #16534211

Osci

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Salem OR 97310

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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman
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POSTED Friday, Dec 16, 2016

ZARDOZ SPEAKS TO YOU~~~!!!!!!!!!!

"NO ONE CAN STAND KNOWING THEY'RE ARTIFICIAL"-World On A Wire

There's an old science fiction tale where a guy wishes that everyone was equal and his wishes is granted when all of humanity turns into flat gray mindless robots.

When you look at the problem of government subjugation as a separatist issue only affecting natives, then people reading books like In the Spirit of Crazy Horse, can say well it doesn't effect me because I'm not native. That's why when Ward Churchill wrote about the Peltier setup in Agents of Repression, he also exposed how the FBI's Cointelpro program targeted the freedoms of other people not just AIM.  

It's harder to dissociate yourself from those facts. You look at the ending to Indian Killer By Sherman Alexie, its subjective who the killer actually is and who's at fault. So is the subject of whether or not these crimes were justified acts or atrocity. Similar to how with Peltier, you have people who think it was righteous and justified to kill those FBI agents and admire him for that . And you also have people who admire and support Peltier because they see him as a political prisoner and a martyred symbol of government corruption. That duality has helped to immortalize his plight.

Sherman Alexie frequently in his novel Indian Killer attacks false Indians, whites who try to pose and pretend to be native for various reasons. Even going so far as to discriminate against and fight with real natives in a sustained and concentrated to prove they're not white. Its fucking pathetic. If you hate your race and your culture so much that the only way you can deal with your self-loathing is to pose and pretend to be something you're not and never will be, then you need to deal with your neurotic self contempt , instead of building up a delusion around yourself.

You see beatniks and hippies attracted to black culture and fetishize it. This was done in rebellion against the racist white mainstream society of the time. 

Now you see white kids attracted to black culture because its so assimilated into mainstream pop culture and in fashion. This was done in response to major labels giving all these black rappers record contract and tv shows to defang a subversive element of black culture that was a threat to the white status quo.


There's nothing at all subversive or even slightly edgy about some white kid trying to rebel by pretending to be black anymore. It was pathetic and lame in the 50s and 60s and now its even more pathetic because there's no fucking political statement or risk involved, no you're just going with the fashion and conforming to trend.

Then you also have the racism by proxy found in the all the trailer trash inbred whites that come to prison and pretend to be black or make up stupid inane stories about having minute trace amounts of native american blood in them. Because they do nothing and accomplish nothing with their pathetic lives and they don't ever get anywhere in life and if you're privileged and white and living in filth and poverty , then you either have to drag yourself up and better yourself , or your embrace redneck ideologies that scapegoat responsibility for your failures onto racist conspiracy theories or you become a race traitor and simply pretend to be black,native or whatever. Because then it's somehow glamorous to be a failure living in the gutter in poverty, more natural and typical. 

Then you can look at the pathetic wreckage of your life and feel like a martyred victim not a casualty of your own stupidity. Then you feel its ok to hustle welfare programs with your pretend minority status to fraudulently gain assistance normally reserved for people actually in need. Their way of pretending to be of another race usually involves acting out the cliche cartoon stereotypes of that culture , like a juvenille devil worshipper that knows nothing about true satanism so he imitates christian propaganda about satanism he saw in hollywood horror films.

You also kill two birds with one stone , because this also becomes a convenient way to deal with the collective guilt of being white. People need to face the harsh realities of their existence and not try to pretend to understand the senseless chaotic horrors of this world. We are forever bound in ruin to the uselessness of this world. The fact remains peace and understanding between races isn't ever going to be fucking possible. 

Diversity is forever the enemy of equality. Equality, and mixing of cultures and making the secrets and traditions of every culture public knowledge, doesn't make the world a better place, it just cheapens everything and devalues it into a common mass of hive minded mediocrity. obscurity needs to be cultivated. Some things should remain secret.

REMEMBER THE PARADOX OF SOLLIPISM, NO ONE CAN EVER TRULY UNDERSTAND ANYONE FULLY NOT EVEN THEMSELVES.

DEDICATED TO FRED STILLER (RIP?)

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part3

POSTED Monday, Sept. 11, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AS ATROCITY EXHIBITION
PART 3

((This Is The Way Step Inside ))

"I AM THE UGLY AMERICAN, I HATE WHAT I AM... TAKE A PISS ON YOUR FOUNDING FATHERS"-BIG BLACK


"SOME PEOPLE TAKE SO MUCH PRIDE IN IT LIKE "OH, I'M NOISE, I DO NOISE, I DO ANTIMUSIC ." GREAT FANTASTIC, LOVELY- I DON'T CARE-
DANIEL MENCHE

Incongruously in the american underground you see performers cheaply adopting the aesthetics and ideas of other countries and there adaptations are typically dependent on xenophobic distortions and false stereotypes.

Similar to a Redskins mascot or a blackface ministrel show except according to scene politics for some reason its not racist or ignorant... No when punks etc do it, they act like their a fucking modern day John Brown. Fetishizing something unreal inside of a blur of paraphillia....Gaijin Goyum Utlending neophytes such as these still feel themselves justified in passing judgement upon individuals such as myself. They fetishize images and ideas they stole from the japanese and filter it through there american minds until it's bastardized and dissociated from its original source.

They keep their desires and urges locked up behind a wall of denial and neurotic self contempt. Like christian's suppressing the natural urges of mankind and becoming all fucked up in the head. When they're confronted with someone who comes out and owns their depravity they dont know how to fucking respond. They try to channel the spirit of actual demons, but like a cheesy horror flick, when what they conjured up actually rises up from hell, they freak the fuck out.

Im tired of cosplaying paleface fantasists attempting to pass judgement upon me. These people are fucking cattle who have never experienced real brutality in their lives and through their sheltered existence they deem themselves worthy of voicing an opinion about my actions. They're simply sheep pretending to be wolves.

My art has for the most part always reflected my own reality and a way vent the depravity and ugliness intrinsic to my psyche. When i recorded the Disease is love, the spoken word samples in the intro were from private phone calls made to me by my better half while she was in prison for stabbing a cunt in the stomach multiple times. That shit all happened. I dont need to resort to sampling horror films and true crime documentries, i can simply use broken shards of my own tortured existence to spread my hatred to your kind like a virus.

i was always attracted to experimentation musically and transgressing accepted standards and norms. I fucked with electrical devices to make weird noise in an unsophisticated fashion since childhood, i used the reality of video games, the distorted harsh tones of chiptune, reminding me of the escape i chose from abuse and the world surrounding me that i never felt a part of. I started out doing straight harsh noise and progressed to more structured droning atmospheric pieces.

Later on when i became involved in various violent dysfunctional relationships and my life became surrounded with violence, I started doing more power electronics related material as an outlet for that hatred and urge to kill.

i came close to killing Angie a couple times. Cowards within the scene who have never lived with that inside of them, try to channel the evil and misanthropic depravity of individuals like myself. Through vicarous proxy. When confronted with the real thing, they cower in fear, reminded of how weak they are.

Randall Philips the creator of Fuck zine started a feud with Slogun, when he tried to interrogate Slogun as to what attracted him to serial killers and what inspired him to use so much of it as source material. Slogun choked up. He didnt want to admit to admireing them or wanting to be like them. He simply couldnt come up with an answer.

Most of these cattle can't. They act like they're individuals that think independently .But in reality most of them blindly conform to scene politics and follow the rules and standards set by the individual with the most scene capital. They seek acceptance and they crawl for validiation within that social structure.As such they're fucking peer pressure zombies.Not free thinking individuals following their own personal vision.

THIS IS THE WAY
THIS IS THE WAY
STEP INSIDE.........................

MORE TO COME...

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE


(DEDICATED TO JENNIFER GOINES)

IMPERIAL RANT FOR OUR MASTER SATAN


"THEY ARE LOOKING FOR THE "GRAVE RACIAL INJUSTICE" OF THE GUY SITTING IN HIS TRUCK ON HIS LUNCHBREAK CASUALLY LISTENING TO SOMETHING EXTREME HE MAY OR MAY NOT AGREE WITH POLITICALLY BUT APPRECIATES THE ART THAT MOTIVATES THE MUSIC.THEY'RE ALL LIKE LITTLE ANGRY HITLERS,. THEY CANT WRITE ANYTHING WORTHWHILE SO THEY HAVE TO TRY AND KILL EVERYTHING THEY CANNOT DUPLICATE SUCCESSFULLY"-HOUSE OF ATREUS 

"I PERSONALLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT SOCIETY. I DON'T CONSIDER MYSELF AS HUMAN. SO I WONT WASTE MY TIME CRITICIZING THEIR SOCIETY. WOLVES DON'T CRITICIZE SHEEP. THEY JUST BLEED THEM TO DEATH,. I WORSHIP THE DEVIL BECAUSE SATAN WORSHIP IS ABOUT DIGGING UP CORPSES,KILLING PEOPLE FOR THE THRILL OF IT AND SPITTING ON THEIR GRAVES. ITS NOT ABOUT DANCING NAKED IN THE WOODS. REAL SATANISTS HATE EVERYTHING: YIDS,NIGGERS,XIANS,DOGS,CATS... EVERYTHING! SO FUCK THE SO CALLED SATANISTS. THEY ARE NOTHING. I ONLY RESPECT GRAVE ROBBERS AND KILLERS"-NICO CLAUX

"BETTER LIVING THROUGH MASS EXTINCTION\KILL THE WORLD &ALL IS SILENCE"-Jennifer Goines
When i was in federal prison.I became close allies with Jay Scott Ballenger. Jason had burned down over 33 churches,he was called the "Missionary of Lucifer" by the media. He mentored me and taught me alot of things. Previously i always subscribed to the eminent secular humanist/objectivist sourced side of the Left Hand Path. Jay Scott Ballenger wrote up the contract for my soul and did the proper blood&fire ritual to give my soul to Satan. 

Shortly before my last arrest, i went around collecting soul contract signatures at a Deicide show as well as a Mayhem show to mail back to Jason. It was surprising how many posers were scared to actually make their allegiance to Satan official....
So if their is a hell, I'm going to fucking burn in it. Ever since i saw Hellraiser 2 as a kid,iv been fascinated with hell. I always loved the imagery and atmosphere of hell itself. It was beautiful to me. Readers interested in more depictions of hell, should check out Jeffrey Thomas' Hades series and Edward Lee's Inferno novels, all of which take place primarily in hell itself . Not this world.Black Metal is meant to be a cosmic indifferent negative form of expression. Against the world and against all life. Its not meant to be something positive and a vehicle in which to promote causes and ideas that futility advance the human race. All sentient life on this planet needs to just fucking die. The anarcho crust twilight circle of false black metal needs to fuck off and die. Its not Black. Its not Metal. Its just lame and weak.

Black Metal with positive lyrics is as worthless as decaf,non alcoholic beer,soy meat,condoms&earplugs.Also why cant these posers create their own genre and innovate their own style? Would that not be a more effective way to promote your message?Instead of building your hackwork crudely upon the backs of your enemies, resulting in tired pastiches and dull replications of whats been done before with far greater honesty,sincerity and skill.Its blatantly obvious how little talent these crossover posers have,when their unable to create their own style and genre and have to instead rip off True Metal and protect their ripoff shit by calling out more talented musicians for their "abhorrent politics" Their worse then white power nazis. Because Nazi bands at least have their own genre and style. You don't see white power bands putting out rap albums and then writing columns in nazi zines condemning black rappers for being in gangs and smoking crack...

Punks trying to be Black are also engaging in the sellout commercial tactics the christian music industry employs to corrupt the minds of children. Xian music is designed and engineered to resemble and sound like pop/rock/metal music in order to manipulate people into buying it and becoming brainwashed by its bullshit philosphy that they try to shove down your throat like a rapists cock. Removing satanism from Black metal and replacing it with peace punk shit, is no different from the exploitative marketing techniques of christian metal acts. "Its heavy just like real metal but it has a positive christian message" .

I've actually heard people say that. People like that are similar to Iskara fans.....Iv desecrated statues of the virgin mary, iv spit blood in the faces of cops and had viscous fights with cops, Iv stabbed people, iv kicked peoples faces in. Iv done alot of fucked up and depraved shit in my life and i got no respect for fakes that have never experienced real brutality in their lives and talk of the benefits of non violent protest simply because it provides a convenient justification for their cowardice.

HEIL SATAN. HEIL CTHULHU!