Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part3

POSTED Monday, Sept. 11, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AS ATROCITY EXHIBITION
PART 3

((This Is The Way Step Inside ))

"I AM THE UGLY AMERICAN, I HATE WHAT I AM... TAKE A PISS ON YOUR FOUNDING FATHERS"-BIG BLACK


"SOME PEOPLE TAKE SO MUCH PRIDE IN IT LIKE "OH, I'M NOISE, I DO NOISE, I DO ANTIMUSIC ." GREAT FANTASTIC, LOVELY- I DON'T CARE-
DANIEL MENCHE

Incongruously in the american underground you see performers cheaply adopting the aesthetics and ideas of other countries and there adaptations are typically dependent on xenophobic distortions and false stereotypes.

Similar to a Redskins mascot or a blackface ministrel show except according to scene politics for some reason its not racist or ignorant... No when punks etc do it, they act like their a fucking modern day John Brown. Fetishizing something unreal inside of a blur of paraphillia....Gaijin Goyum Utlending neophytes such as these still feel themselves justified in passing judgement upon individuals such as myself. They fetishize images and ideas they stole from the japanese and filter it through there american minds until it's bastardized and dissociated from its original source.

They keep their desires and urges locked up behind a wall of denial and neurotic self contempt. Like christian's suppressing the natural urges of mankind and becoming all fucked up in the head. When they're confronted with someone who comes out and owns their depravity they dont know how to fucking respond. They try to channel the spirit of actual demons, but like a cheesy horror flick, when what they conjured up actually rises up from hell, they freak the fuck out.

Im tired of cosplaying paleface fantasists attempting to pass judgement upon me. These people are fucking cattle who have never experienced real brutality in their lives and through their sheltered existence they deem themselves worthy of voicing an opinion about my actions. They're simply sheep pretending to be wolves.

My art has for the most part always reflected my own reality and a way vent the depravity and ugliness intrinsic to my psyche. When i recorded the Disease is love, the spoken word samples in the intro were from private phone calls made to me by my better half while she was in prison for stabbing a cunt in the stomach multiple times. That shit all happened. I dont need to resort to sampling horror films and true crime documentries, i can simply use broken shards of my own tortured existence to spread my hatred to your kind like a virus.

i was always attracted to experimentation musically and transgressing accepted standards and norms. I fucked with electrical devices to make weird noise in an unsophisticated fashion since childhood, i used the reality of video games, the distorted harsh tones of chiptune, reminding me of the escape i chose from abuse and the world surrounding me that i never felt a part of. I started out doing straight harsh noise and progressed to more structured droning atmospheric pieces.

Later on when i became involved in various violent dysfunctional relationships and my life became surrounded with violence, I started doing more power electronics related material as an outlet for that hatred and urge to kill.

i came close to killing Angie a couple times. Cowards within the scene who have never lived with that inside of them, try to channel the evil and misanthropic depravity of individuals like myself. Through vicarous proxy. When confronted with the real thing, they cower in fear, reminded of how weak they are.

Randall Philips the creator of Fuck zine started a feud with Slogun, when he tried to interrogate Slogun as to what attracted him to serial killers and what inspired him to use so much of it as source material. Slogun choked up. He didnt want to admit to admireing them or wanting to be like them. He simply couldnt come up with an answer.

Most of these cattle can't. They act like they're individuals that think independently .But in reality most of them blindly conform to scene politics and follow the rules and standards set by the individual with the most scene capital. They seek acceptance and they crawl for validiation within that social structure.As such they're fucking peer pressure zombies.Not free thinking individuals following their own personal vision.

THIS IS THE WAY
THIS IS THE WAY
STEP INSIDE.........................

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part1

Sunday, August 14, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AND THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION:  PART ONE

(THIS IS THE WAY STEP INSIDE....)

FIRST HERE'S A WORD FROM OUR SPONSORS:

"IN BATAILLE'S MYTHOLOGY,THE ECSTASY OF THE TORTURE VICTIM LENT WEIGHT TO THE ECSTASY OF THE GREAT SADISTS GILLES DE RAIS,ERZSEBET BATHORY DE NASSADY,DONA CATALINA DE LOS RIOS OR AGAIN TO THE MAN WHO WANTED TO SEE THE TORTURED BODIES OF WHICH PLATO SPEAKS, TO THE ITHYPHALLIC FLAGELLATORS OF CHRIST"-J.M. LO DUCA
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"THIS URGE,WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO IS, "WHAT IS THE BODY?
IN WESTERN CULTURE,PEOPLE ARE SO BODY CONSCIOUS THEY DONT KNOW THEY ARE LIVING IN IT. THE ONLY TIME YOU CAN START TO FIGURE THAT OUT IS WHEN YOU START PIERCING,TATTOOING ,PLAYING WITH IT, MODIFYING IT. THAT IS THE ONLY TIME YOU FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE.THAT SHORT INSTANT WHEN THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH YOUR FLESH,YOU MAY HAVE A REALIZATION OF WHO YOU ARE. THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH MY BODY BUT ITS NOT GOING THROUGH ME. SO IT DOESNT HURT.

[...] WE ARE AT THE LOWEST STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THERE IS. EVEN ANIMALS HAVE A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THAN MOST OF THESE PEOPLE RUNNING AROUND IN THREE PIECE SUITS.

THE POINT IS,THE IDEA OF MORTALITY AND IMMORTALITY IS ALL MESSED UP AND IS VERY UNREAL. IT ALL STARTED WITH ST.PAUL AND THE PERVERSION OF THE TEACHINGS OF CHRIST."-FAKIR MUSAFAR
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"In a 1994 essay, published in the underground music magazine G-Modern,Mikawa Toshiji of Incapacitants criticized overseas comps for creating & enforcing the categories of Japanoise. Mikawa argued that japanese noise was presented to foreign audiences as a landscape of radical incommensurability, which forced Noisicians to define themselves against an Orientalist projection.

His examples are the covers of Extreme Music From Japan, Land of the Rising Noise, and Come Again II,. Many of the Japanese performers on these compilations were frustrated and disturbed by the artwork chosen to represent the Japanese Noise scene. Shocking images of sexual bondage and physical violence were used on the covers of several early recordings by Japanese Noise artists in the 1980s. Primarily Merzbow. Most famously on his Music for Bondage Performance cd. Associations with deviant sex quickly became an important part of overseas knowledge about Japanese Noise. Especially in the 1990s, as hentai filtered into underground media circulation such as the Urutsukidoji series.

Noise Artists North America began to use images inspired by Merzbow,often borrowing from Japnese pornography {..}

"japanoise became a mirror ball of distorted perspectives that could only reflect the projections of an outsider back into their own view"-Novak
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"It wouldn't be totally irrelevant to say that the bias that is preoccupying the producers is encapsulated in these images. That Noise should remind us of some sort of torture;and then that being exposed to these sounds transforms torture into pleasure-and then that idea is related to these images that evoke torture victims; then it goes without saying that beyond the diversity of the works included the images add a framework to these compilations which takes power over the minds of their buyers. This distorted perception of Noise was mapped onto its creative sources as Japanese artists were forced to define themselves in relation to a Japanese noise scene. then changed their work to avoid being categorized under those terms.

Regardless of whetber one accepts these visual choices or is disgusted by them, the use of these images has affected the minds of the individual artists on these albums.{..} so now what has been represented as japanese noise at first by exaggeration based on the lack of sufficent information in the early period,then labeled with attributes that summarized the group from the distant perspective of overseas reception and then represented by the glut of information in later periods-is forced to define itself"

-Mikawa



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