Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part3

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

"DID YOU EVER EXPERIENCE REAL BRUTALITY? OR DID YOU READ ABOUT IT ON THE LYRICS SHEETS? DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR WHAT YOUR FIGHTING FOR? OR ARE YOU JUST FUCKIN' BORED?"-WEEKEND NACHOS (S.C.A.B. from the STILL record)

Dickens had somewhat of an agenda, to make the masses aware of the cruel conditions in london's slums and make them aware of the plight of the disenfranchised . but he didn't go far enough in his fiction. Our modern post industrial society has further degenerated since that period.

With the Smoke Ghost, Leiber made that point. The Dickensian ghosts are dead and obsolete. Unable to enact any force in our world at this point. It also depicts a submission to the cosmic forces, as mankind inevitably bound in ruin. Unable to listen to reason or see reality for what it is. You have to accept the necessary evil and swallow it. Look at the ending to Leiber's Conjure Wife. Its not some "Last Exorcism" type formulaic hackwork where the skeptic non believer becomes a believer.

No. He acquiesces to his wife's lunacy and supernatural belif system for the same reason the protagonist of Smoke Ghosts bows before the ghost. For the same reasons Leiber himself, took the path of horror fiction after Hiroshima, Instead of writing luddite cautionary scifi about the evils of advanced technology .

Similarly a lot of Andrew Vachss work shines a mirror on the ugly side of humanity. He spits in the faces of those sheep looking for authentic crime fiction that's real, By giving them something so real it pretty much ceases to be escapist fiction and becomes a Ketchum-esque beast that fits the standards of aesthetic terrorism as much as it does those of the detective novel.

I like it because the characters are human and not simply cardboard cutouts going through the motions . I don't give a shit about authors that write crime fiction without having any actual experience with the subject matter beyond research and hollywood pandering to a reader demographic of fellow tourists and housewives that have also never lived near the gutter and seen beneath the mask, and beyond the veil.

Like Carpenter's film They Live. Its the difference between those who have put on the sunglasses and those who just go through the motions. Blindly ignorant of what humanity is really all about. Also a lot of these lesser crime fiction hacks are just mining the darkside of human nature in cheaply exploitative fashion in order to have fodder for a piece of cheap entertainment. Junkfood for the masses. Theirs no point in any of it. Its just shit, .

I've lived through those types of hells and there's no fucking tragic martyrdom to any of it. No misunderstood glory in it.. Iv lived with a hooker that shot crystal meth every day in front of me and told me all the war stories about her life on the street and why she did what she did. She wasn't forced into it or controlled. She openly admitted to being cheap and enjoyed the degradation. But of course humanity needs to compartmentalize there evils and have a scapegoat to make sense of the chaos, turn it into something routine. But that aint reality. She wasnt pimped out . Id give her money so she wouldn't have to trick and she would still go out and do it regardless. 

And there are people like myself who fuck there lives over trying to save people who don't want to be saved and then they wake up.. And give up and move on. Like i did with Rio. And the one before Rio. Id get put in jail on domestic violence, get released homeless with no financial support. So id have to go back to living with Angie. She'd burn me with cigarettes,bite me, We'd get drunk and get all fucked up, the only safe word was the trip to the e.r. And the common person on the street cant understand that shit. They think no would willingly live that way of their own free will. So we get demonized and no contact orders placed on us .By people who think they could fucking save us from ourselves. As if there was any fucking point at all to our existence.


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