Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE



In George Smith's book Why Atheism? He discusses the short and easy refutation of atheism: "Even if the atheist is able to deny the existence of a particular god (e.g. the god of christianity) owing to its contradictory attributes this does not preclude the possibility that a god of some kind may still exist. Even if we cannot define adequately in human terms."

George Smith then rambles on a bit and grasps at straws and dosn't really provide any concrete rebuttal to this common attack on atheism. Smith's problem is largely due to the fact that his work panders to the masses. By cheaply pulling his punches in order to be more accessible to a mass market readership. He ignores the obvious answer to this common argument made by xians: Cosmicism. Do we as humans care about the feelings and opinions of cockroaches and maggots? Do we care about the moral and value systems of a centipede?

Of course we as a species are utterly apathetic to such basely pedantic concerns. In most cases our only interactions with those lower forms of life are in fact to exterminate them without remorse ever factoring into the equation. Because they are of course so far below our level of perception and cognition That they become non entities.

This is what our species is in the face of a higher power. We are so microscopic in comparison, that we will never grasp its presence, let alone understand its motives and identity, so for all intents and purposes it doesnt exist to us. Because its so far outside of our range of perception we cant even sense its presence. So why waste our lives chasing something thats beyond our comprehension? Why should we delude our selves into believing that a being intelligent enough and advanced enough to swim freely through "Black seas of infinity" is going to listen to the prayers and dreams of a parasitic species trapped perpetually on a "Placid island of ignorance".

Lovecraft by creating the Cthulhu mythos and the philosophy of cosmicism, in fact rendered that cheaply common attack on atheist reason obsolete. But George Smith, being a deconverted christian, not a natural atheist, still clings to some of those chains. He dosnt factor in the utter insignificance of humanity into his equation. Hes not ready to face the axiomatic truth that our existence is in fact meaningless.

As a result most of his work consists sadly of him trying as vainly as a xian to quixotically find meaning and purpose,where there is in fact none whatsoever. Furthermore George Smith states that writing a definitive philosophy of atheism would in fact be impossible. Despite Emma Goldman previously doing just that decades ago to powerful effect. George Smith also goes off topic and wastes readers time by attacking Ayn Rand in a thoroughly sophomoric fashion. To ignorantly attack the work of Ayn Rand in a book intended to promote logic and reason and advance atheist thought is as inane and irrationally counterproductive as a preacher giving sermon on the shortcomings and failures of christ.

Readers will find more relevant information on this topic and its relation to Lovecraftin in Ligotti's classic of modern philosophy and literary analysis: The Conspiracy Against The Human Race.

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE


(DEDICATED TO JENNIFER GOINES)

IMPERIAL RANT FOR OUR MASTER SATAN


"THEY ARE LOOKING FOR THE "GRAVE RACIAL INJUSTICE" OF THE GUY SITTING IN HIS TRUCK ON HIS LUNCHBREAK CASUALLY LISTENING TO SOMETHING EXTREME HE MAY OR MAY NOT AGREE WITH POLITICALLY BUT APPRECIATES THE ART THAT MOTIVATES THE MUSIC.THEY'RE ALL LIKE LITTLE ANGRY HITLERS,. THEY CANT WRITE ANYTHING WORTHWHILE SO THEY HAVE TO TRY AND KILL EVERYTHING THEY CANNOT DUPLICATE SUCCESSFULLY"-HOUSE OF ATREUS 

"I PERSONALLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT SOCIETY. I DON'T CONSIDER MYSELF AS HUMAN. SO I WONT WASTE MY TIME CRITICIZING THEIR SOCIETY. WOLVES DON'T CRITICIZE SHEEP. THEY JUST BLEED THEM TO DEATH,. I WORSHIP THE DEVIL BECAUSE SATAN WORSHIP IS ABOUT DIGGING UP CORPSES,KILLING PEOPLE FOR THE THRILL OF IT AND SPITTING ON THEIR GRAVES. ITS NOT ABOUT DANCING NAKED IN THE WOODS. REAL SATANISTS HATE EVERYTHING: YIDS,NIGGERS,XIANS,DOGS,CATS... EVERYTHING! SO FUCK THE SO CALLED SATANISTS. THEY ARE NOTHING. I ONLY RESPECT GRAVE ROBBERS AND KILLERS"-NICO CLAUX

"BETTER LIVING THROUGH MASS EXTINCTION\KILL THE WORLD &ALL IS SILENCE"-Jennifer Goines
When i was in federal prison.I became close allies with Jay Scott Ballenger. Jason had burned down over 33 churches,he was called the "Missionary of Lucifer" by the media. He mentored me and taught me alot of things. Previously i always subscribed to the eminent secular humanist/objectivist sourced side of the Left Hand Path. Jay Scott Ballenger wrote up the contract for my soul and did the proper blood&fire ritual to give my soul to Satan. 

Shortly before my last arrest, i went around collecting soul contract signatures at a Deicide show as well as a Mayhem show to mail back to Jason. It was surprising how many posers were scared to actually make their allegiance to Satan official....
So if their is a hell, I'm going to fucking burn in it. Ever since i saw Hellraiser 2 as a kid,iv been fascinated with hell. I always loved the imagery and atmosphere of hell itself. It was beautiful to me. Readers interested in more depictions of hell, should check out Jeffrey Thomas' Hades series and Edward Lee's Inferno novels, all of which take place primarily in hell itself . Not this world.Black Metal is meant to be a cosmic indifferent negative form of expression. Against the world and against all life. Its not meant to be something positive and a vehicle in which to promote causes and ideas that futility advance the human race. All sentient life on this planet needs to just fucking die. The anarcho crust twilight circle of false black metal needs to fuck off and die. Its not Black. Its not Metal. Its just lame and weak.

Black Metal with positive lyrics is as worthless as decaf,non alcoholic beer,soy meat,condoms&earplugs.Also why cant these posers create their own genre and innovate their own style? Would that not be a more effective way to promote your message?Instead of building your hackwork crudely upon the backs of your enemies, resulting in tired pastiches and dull replications of whats been done before with far greater honesty,sincerity and skill.Its blatantly obvious how little talent these crossover posers have,when their unable to create their own style and genre and have to instead rip off True Metal and protect their ripoff shit by calling out more talented musicians for their "abhorrent politics" Their worse then white power nazis. Because Nazi bands at least have their own genre and style. You don't see white power bands putting out rap albums and then writing columns in nazi zines condemning black rappers for being in gangs and smoking crack...

Punks trying to be Black are also engaging in the sellout commercial tactics the christian music industry employs to corrupt the minds of children. Xian music is designed and engineered to resemble and sound like pop/rock/metal music in order to manipulate people into buying it and becoming brainwashed by its bullshit philosphy that they try to shove down your throat like a rapists cock. Removing satanism from Black metal and replacing it with peace punk shit, is no different from the exploitative marketing techniques of christian metal acts. "Its heavy just like real metal but it has a positive christian message" .

I've actually heard people say that. People like that are similar to Iskara fans.....Iv desecrated statues of the virgin mary, iv spit blood in the faces of cops and had viscous fights with cops, Iv stabbed people, iv kicked peoples faces in. Iv done alot of fucked up and depraved shit in my life and i got no respect for fakes that have never experienced real brutality in their lives and talk of the benefits of non violent protest simply because it provides a convenient justification for their cowardice.

HEIL SATAN. HEIL CTHULHU!

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author.]

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 5

by Kyle Nonneman

ENDNOTES:

GOOD NEWS:
METHANE GAS FREEZES AND TURNS INTO METHANE ICE, THE FLOODING AND CLIMATE CHANGES THAT RESULT FROM INCREASED GLOBAL WARMING ISNT THE REAL THREAT TO HUMANITIES EXISTENCE. ITS ALSO THE POISONOUS EFFECT OF FROZEN METHANE THAWING OUT AND CAUSING EVEN GREATER DAMAGE TO THE ATMOSPHERE. SCIENTISTS ESTIMATE THE EARTH WILL BE INCAPABLE OF SUSTAINING LIFE BY 2035.
 

RECOMMENDED LISTENING:
KRIEG-THE BLACK HOUSE
This record is a cult classic, one of the few great american black metal records. The lyrical themes of this album are sourced from the frontman's own personal nightmares and provide more original and harrowing subject matter than the usual Satan/Death/Destruction themes. It has a fairly distinctive and unique sound to it. This harsh concept album was inspired by alot of the colder elements of postpunk and The Velvet Underground, this also features a pretty iconoclast cover of Venus In Furs. The layered and textured vocals are absolutely brutal. Krieg maintains a remorseless and extreme sound without simply replicating the scandanivian acts that set the standard. Utterly destroying most of the fumbling&pathetic attempts made by bored american crust punks to sound black.
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AS ALWAYS, YOU CAN SEND HATE MAIL AND DEATH THREATS TO:
KYLE NONNEMAN #16534211
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FUCK EMAIL . WRITE A LETTER.
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"THAT MAGICAL SUMMER OF 1913,IN WHAT WAS DESTINED TO BE THE GENTLE CLIMAX OF A HALF CENTURY OF PEACE. THE LAST OF THOSE MYSTERIOUSLY GOLDEN SUMMERS BEFORE THE DREAM EXPLODED LIKE A FESTERING CORPSE IN THE BROILING SUNS OF MID JULY,AND THE MOST BELIEVING OF ALL GENERATIONS IN THE LONG HISTORY OF EUROPE TOASTED EACH OTHER WITH BEAKERS OF BLOOD AND PUS, AND THEN LIKE SURPRISED CHILDREN,SANK BACK IN THEIR MILLIONS TO FILL A CONTINENT WITH GRAVES THAT ENDED THE DREAM FOR ALL TIME"

"WHEN THE DREAMER DIES, THE DREAM DIES WITH HIM AND IT DIES FOREVER. WHAT IT LEAVES BEHIND IS ALSO FOREVER. DONT LOOK FOR CHANGE. DONT LOOK FOR ANYTHING BETTER. LOOK ONLY AT YOUR OWN MIRROR IMAGE IN EVERY OTHER HUMAN FACE AND RECOGNIZE THE DREAMLESS ANIMAL FOR WHICH THERE IS NO COMFORT AND FROM WHICH THERE CAN BE NO ESCAPE. WHAT BEGAN WITH MAN AS GOD HAS ENDED WITH ANIMAL AS MAN AND THERE'S NO WAY TO CHANGE IT NOW."

"MATTHEW,MARK,LUKE AND JOHN,ESAU AND JOB AND BAAL-THESE WERE NOT THE HOLY OR UNHOLY NAMES WE CALLED UPON.WHEN IT WASN'T WOTAN SIEGFRIED WHO SANG IN OUR BLOOD,IT WAS THE VOICE OF THE EAST,THE VOICES OF NIETZSCHE AND STEFAN GEORGE, OF LANGBEHN AND LAGARDE. THE VOICE OF HEGEL RIGHT SIDE UP,THE PHILOSOPHY OF MATERIALISM, THE VOICES OF A BLOOD BROTHERHOOD AS DIFFERENT FROM WESTERN EUROPE AS LOKI FROM CHRIST HIMSELF. NOT AGAINST EACH OTHER BUT FOR EACH OTHER,FOR ALL, FREELY FOR ALL,FREELY OBEDIENT,HELD IN TOTAL THRALL BY DEVOTION TO THE LEADER. WE HAD LEFT THE CITY,THE MERCHANT,THE PROFESSOR,THE POLITICIAN,THE BANKER,THE JEW,THE SELF PROCLAIMED VIRGIN AND HER FRAUDULENT SON KILLED AT LAST BY THE JEWS-WE HAD LEFT THEM FOREVER BEHIND AS WE SEARCHED FOR SOMETHING OLDER,SIMPLER,AND INFINITELY MORE PURE: FOR SOMETHING IN SHORT,WORTH DYING FOR,."-DALTON TRUMBO

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author.]

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 4

by Kyle Nonneman

"WHY KILL TIME,WHEN YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF?"-CABARET VOLTAIRE

You can play the Crimethinc Mccarthyist witch hunt game and find links to "racist" black metal everywhere. Dimmu Borgir, one of the most well known false black metal bands beloved by the same fake assholes that buy cradle of poser filth cds, (its called cradle of filth because everything after TOTAL FUCKING DARKNESS is infantile shit.

If you need clean vocals and symphonic bullshit, then your alot like the sad old men at the nursing home who cant handle solid food anymore.) was originally on an allegedly NSBM label, No Colours.

No Colours put out the first Dimmu release, thats the same label Graveland was on before he started working with The National Alliance's record label Resistance. A lot of Metallica's early songs were directly inspired by H.P. Lovecraft, Lovecraft was a misanthropic separatist, he hated all of humanity, but he still held the belief that blacks were lower on the food chain , like beasts of burden and wrote about the horrors of miscegenation , as well as considering jews to be an exceptionally vile part of the already worthless human species. For one to simply say Lovecraft was racist is to admit to being ignorant of his philosophy of cosmicsim. He was a nihilistic misanthrope and a lot of his work dealt directly with humanity being forced into facing the fact that our existence is meaningless and were perpetually bound in ruin. Lovecraft's work was a statement against the specist conceited notion that mankind is the crown of creation, he stood up against the anthropomorphic bias and systems of denial used by lesser men to hide from the harsh realities of our disposable and inconsequential existence.

Of course if you're too fucking stupid to comprehend that, you can call him racist, and act like one of those christians that like to burn everything they dont understand.

The critics who try to dismiss Lovecraft because of his allegedly racist viewpoints, are of course completely incapable of writing anything remotely close to that level of unholy grim eloquence , let alone have the vast literary and cultural impact on the world Lovecraft does.The same goes for alot of black metal, American punks who act as detractors and protest against the themes of the scandanivan bands, dont get it anymore than S.T. Joshi does. They're immigrants and invaders afflicted with guilt and self loathing over being only a few generations removed from the terrorists who stole america . So they feel the need to make amends for the guilt they feel over there ancestors actions.Yet in doing so they adopt obvious xenophobic attitudes and label as fascist things unique to a foreign culture,simply because it dosnt fit in with their life experinces growing up in America. Alot more people in the racist underground have actually stepped up and waged direct war on the government than anarcho punks have.

I dont agree with Robert j. Mathews christian identity nonsense, but the man was fed up with the polite passive resistance of the all talk elements of the movement, and robbed alot of armored cars ,put the money back into the movement and died in a 36 hour machine gun battle with cops,u.s. marshalls and fbi agents, before they ended up burning his house down. Regardless of his misguided racism, That was more fucking hardcore than spiking a circle a/no gods no masters patch on the back of your jacket.

Peter Langan was a Transgender racist skinhead, who ended up in federal prison following the same extremist path Mathews did. American punks trying to play black metal, won't ever reach the elite level of the scandanivans that started it, nor will they ever get the recognition, they will never put out an album as good as Filosfem or Transivanian Hunger. They will always be in the shadows . So motivated by jealousy, these sore losers, instead of trying to create there own sound, would rather bitch and complain in zines in order to disarm and discredit there superiors. Im sick of fucking hearing it. If the music is about misanthropic destruction and blatantly antichristian, and its good music, I'm down. My only issue with hate crimes and racism, is the whole human race needs to be exterminated not just one part of it.

Were all a weed species that has a parasitic effect on all other sentinent life on this planet. I aint apolgising for racism, but your apolgist arguments justifying specieism are
what's truely abhorrent. How much time is spent in the punk scene calling out people who commit sexist/racist/homophobic acts against humans? Why such self centered concern for something as vile as humanity?

SPECICIDE NOT GENOCIDE.

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 3

by Kyle Nonneman

"THE ONLY WAY TO REFORM PEOPLE IS TO KILL THEM"-CARL PANZRAM

When i lived in Columbia Missouri, Menschenfeind productions sponsored,booked and flyered most of the shows, as well as setup venues and later on started a record store and a radio show,.

A lot of punks who in no way whatsoever contributed constructively to the scene, and never even helped flyer a show or give a touring band a place to crash, saw it as there right to protest and claim ignorantly that Menschenfeind was a white power label and all that bullshit. This feud climaxed in us setting up a Costes House show, Costes is like two GG Allins at once , with a female Bob Flanagan, shit,piss,blood, french woman doing boxcutter genital mutilation on one side of stage , while on the other there are two naked french guys covered in shit and piss, ones fucking a raw chicken while the other guys got a saxophone up his ass.

A lot of these punk kids fled in terror.

It was too punk rock for them.....

After Menschenfeind focused on the record store and moved to st louis, that scene pretty much fucking died. Because the computer cowards who loved to bitch on the internet and call the cops on shows with bands or promoters they didn't like, didn't want to put in the fucking effort and work necessary to set up there own space and book bands. They said fuck that and kept on throwing rocks behind the scene at people actually putting in work. Every band on Panzerfaust records sucked as much shit as Permanent Ruin's drummer. It was all either that polished glossy high production value RoseTattoo / AC/DC ripoff bar rock meets shitty bonehead OI ,cuntry music.. or that Radio Rock friendly nazi hardcore that sounds like Victory/crew shit but even more cheesy and corny.

Nonetheless, when it was discovered that the guy who ran Panzerfaust records wasn't actually white, and was using the money he made off selling white power music to take sex tours in Thailand, he was assaulted and assassinated in short order. In the punk scene , its all an incestuous mass of hippy free love and equality, predicated upon good christian morals, like turn the other cheek, so when you got a shitty ripoff label or a sellout band, they don't get beat up or killed,. No you just see some pseudo intellectual teeny bopper debate club bullshit in the MRR letters section and then when the label shuts down, he sells his out of print ripoff records to the highest bidder on Viva La Vinyl.

Like the US Government in Vietnam etc. imposing there righteousness on the heathens, and the Crusades...Punks also see themselves as morally obligated to police the scene, and tell people what there supposed to think and believe, and they see it as there right to tell people what to believe. They say it's about thinking for yourself, but anybody who's an apolitical nihilist and rises above the politics, is basically cast out and spit upon. You got free will to think for your self as long as you do it inside of there tiny box , whose borders are set by those with the most subcultural scene capital. You can sit there and tell me all about the fucking horrors of fetishizing nazi imagery and why we shouldn't promote this or that band, but you still sound like a fucking redneck prattling about the evil things muslims do to justify their war. Rednecks like to fight and blow shit up and you like the controversy and the arguments. I think you should all just be fucking killed and exterminated alongside the rest of the human race.

The drummer for Permanent Ruin said he was suffering from self loathing and mental disease. I think people like him, would feel a lot better if they would just do the right thing and take their own lives. Commit suicide. I don't need some damage case closet christian like that drummer, claiming I'm inferior because i listen to Death In June. Fuck you and the human race your so obsessed with advancing and promoting. People turn apolitical and nihilistic, when they wake up and realize humanity can't be fixed and that you can't salvage mankind, the best you can do is promote the extinction of humanity, and stand up against those who still quixotically believe in the lofty ideal that we can be saved and that we can make this world a better place.

I'm not the one kicking the dead horse.

LONG LIVE DEATH!`

CHECK OUT MY BETTER HALF'S WEBSITE
WWW.RIOVANCE.COM

(more to come...)

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman

THE GUILTY HAVE NO PRIDE:

"I SINCERELY BELIVE THAT IF YOU THINK THERE'S A SOLUTION, YOU'RE PART OF THE PROBLEM"-GEORGE CARLIN

(Go Fuck off and kill yourself Permanent Ruin drummer Rich Gutierrez.)

I love Death In June. When i first met my better half (CHECK OUT HER SITE WWW.RIOVANCE.COM), i was in county for assaulting a police officer and they put her in the Super max hole in the cell next to mine. I remember how beautiful it was when she sang Heaven Street and She Said Destroy by Death In June, alone in her cell. She was in there for stabbing somebody. she was living knowingly without a future anyway as a result of having H.I.V since she was 13. The virus made her more attractive to me, combining the twin extremes of sex&death, .The social darwinist , might is right, themes of Death In June's lyrics influenced her to be strong and independent,As well as inspireing her to use music as a creative outlet to vent all the fucked up shit in her life,and rise above her heroin addiction and terminal disease. She rolled a pedophile truck driver that tried to rape her friend in a motel room in kansas city,stabbed the guy up,tied him down and shot him up with a viral loaded rig full of H.I.V positive blood. (The conversation we had about this truck driver is used as the intro to my track "The Disease is Love")

I always associated "She Said Destroy" with the Venus in Furs elements of our relationship. Death In June is haunting and cold minimalist music, alot of punks and metalheads have an elitist tendency to dismiss with animosity beautiful accoustic music . Ladytron even did a tribute to Death In June with there cover of Little Black Angel. Go fucking protest a Ladytron show.. I remember reading a six weeks interview in MRR where Athena kautsch said she listens to Ladytron..Better call her before the committe on unpunk activities and burn her at the stake....I hate the human race, i look at death, not as something to fear and a source of shock, but as something beautiful and natural. Strife,war and violence will always be an intrinsic part of humanity. Communism dosnt work , because we are human beings, not an insect hive mind. Writers like Charlee Jacob,Jean Genet and Films like Nekromantik,Martyrs and American Beauty were revolutionary and iconoclast, because there portrayl of death was as something beautiful and erotic, whereas most other films just used death as something to be afraid and horrified of . "DEATH IS THE MARTYR OF BEAUTY"When you live most of your life with a terminal illness, you become more aware of the limitations of your mortality . You gain a better grasp on the world.Death In June celebrated death and strife in that context. To weaker minds , who live in fear of the grave, used to the way death is depicted in Cannibal Corpse lyrics and slasher films, Death In June and Nekromantik's attitude towards this natural part of our existence, is hard to comprehend. Because its about accepting and embracing something you have lived in fear of your whole life. So its of course far simpler to just dismiss this band as nazi bullshit, then actually listen to what is being said and open your eyes. Death In June's music isnt distributed by any national socialist labels. They exist autonomously of and in opposition of most genres and scenes,yet still manage to make a lasting impact. There in fact targeted and scorned by skinheads because of Douglas Pearce being so openly gay. "MANY ENEMIES BRING MUCH HONOR".Comments Pearce made about his sexual prefences were laughabley used by bay area scene police punks to discredit Death In June,.pearce stated in Dagobert's Revenge Zine that he prefered to suck white uncircumcised cock.

This was considered an example of racist hate speech and this portion of the interview was quoted on flyers protesting Death In June.Theres a significant difference between Death In June's misanthropic pro death social darwinist lyrics and there atavistic nostalgia for a simplier quieter prechristian era; and the ideology expressed by white supremacists.Death In June's lyrics and themes are largely influenced by writers and philosphers like Heraclitus,Nietzsche,Octave Mirbeau, and Jack London. (Alot of those authors are distributed by Re/search and AK Press.)

If you're illiterate and don't know the obvious differences between those writers and The works of Hitler,Rockwell and James Mason, then of course you can just call them nazis.. Your already doing and saying the same shit Mccarthy did anyway except your using the word nazi instead of commie. Also Death In June never firebombed the tour bus of bands whose politics they didnt approve of.

Just like what Rupture said :EVERYONE'S A HYPOCRITE.AND WE DON'T FUCKING CARE.
       
(more to come...)

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman

APOPTHELEMA #2:(())(())(())(())(())(())(())

\PERMANENT RUIN IN THE AGE OF HORUS/

! by nothingisttrue

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"SO SING ALONG /TO THE SUICIDE SONG/BLOW OUT YOUR BRAINS /DO IT TODAY! "-IMPALED NAZARENE

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"COME JOIN MY PHILOSOPHY/ABSOLUTE MISANTHROPY"-KREATOR

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"DARWIN EXPRESSED HIMSELF VERY GLOOMILY ON THE FUTURE OF HUMANITY,ON THE GROUND THAT IN OUR MODERN CIVILIZATION NATURAL SELECTION HAD NO PLAY,AND THE FITTEST DID NOT SURVIVE."-ALFRED WALLACE

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"FOSTERING THE GOOD FOR NOTHING AT THE EXPENSE OF THE GOOD IS AN EXTREME CRUELTY. IT IS A DELIBERATE STORING UP OF MISERIES FOR FUTURE GENERATIONS. THERE IS NO GREATER CURSE TO POSTERITY THAN THAT OF BEQUEATHING THEM AN INCREASING POPULATION OF IMBECILES"

-HERBERT SPENCER (PRINCIPLES OF SOCIOLOGY)

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"LISTENING TO THE COMEDIANS WHO COMMENT ON POLITICAL,SOCIAL, AND CULTURAL ISSUES, I NOTICE MOST OF THEIR MATERIAL REFLECTS AN UNDERLYING BELIEF THAT SOMEHOW THINGS WERE BETTER ONCE AND THAT WITH JUST A LITTLE EFFORT WE COULD SET THEM RIGHT AGAIN. THEY'RE LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS,AND ROOTING FOR PARTICULAR RESULTS, AND I THINK THAT NECESSARILY LIMITS THE TONE AND SUBSTANCE OF WHAT THEY SAY. THEY'RE TALENTED AND FUNNY PEOPLE,BUT THEY'RE NOTHING MORE THAN CHEERLEADERS ATTACHED TO A SPECIFIC WISHED FOR OUTCOME. I DON'T FEEL SO CONFIDED . I FRANKLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK HOW IT TURNS OUT IN THIS COUNTRY. OR ANYWHERE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER. I THINK THE HUMAN GAME WAS UP A LONG TIME AGO (WHEN THE HIGH PRIESTS AND TRADERS TOOK OVER),AND NOW WERE JUST PLAYING OUT THE STRING. AND THAT IS OF COURSE PRECISELY WHAT I FIND SO AMUSING:THE SLOW CIRCLING OF THE DRAIN BY A ONCE PROMISING SPECIES. AND THE SAPPY EVER DESPERATE BELIEF IN THIS COUNTRY THAT THERE IS ACTUALLY SOME SORT OF "AMERICAN DREAM" WHICH HAS MERELY BEEN MISPLACED."-GEORGE CARLIN

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This columns was inspired by the speceist pro human statements made by members of the closet christian band Permanent Ruin, they play positive moralist dead horse kicking, bullshit false grind/Power violence for sheep that are stupid enough to believe humanity has a future. Every member of this band should F.o.a.d. especially there drummer.(The vocalist for Permanent Ruin helped get Mykel Board fired from M.R.R)

People trapped in abusive codependent relationships, become accustomed to the abuse and perpetual degradation. They become afraid of change, and render themselves incapable of moving on ,through there acceptance and tolerance. These codependent damage cases will then justify there wilful ignorance by clinging to false hope. They will make excuse for there partners abuse in order to justify the suffering. They will lie to themselves and say oh if i just love them more, they'll stop beating me, oh i can be her savior and she'll stop burning me with cigarettes and attacking me with knives when she gets drunk....But in the end they get drunk and violent again and one of you ends up in the hospital. I carved Rio's name onto my cock multiple times to prove my loyalty to her, because i was afraid to let go.

I took my ex Angie back after she beat and tortured our infant son while i was in jail on a probation violation, then lost custody and had her parental rights terminated as a result of her alcoholism and her use of crystal meth to self medicate her manic depression. The serpent devouring its tail over and over, as emotional abuse feeds into physical abuse and we end up developing a fetish for it, and it becomes as much a part of the foreplay as pissing in each others mouths did. It becomes the center of your world and you never want to move on , so you lie and pretend it will change but it never does. On a grander scale, humanities relationship with the world is quite similar. We know the world will never change for the better. Life will always be hell. But we keep pretending it will get better, and life will take a positive turn. But it never fucking happens. But out of cowardice we refuse to kill ourselves, for the same reasons i refused to break up with my x. So anybody who says they have hope in the human race, is just pathetic,scared and in denial,. Out of fear, they become wilfully blind to the harsh realities of life and death. Choosing instead to live as Somanabulant corpses.

"WHEN YOU'RE DROWNING, ANY HAND WILL DO" -JAMIE DELANO