Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman

APOPTHELEMA #2:(())(())(())(())(())(())(())

\PERMANENT RUIN IN THE AGE OF HORUS/

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"SO SING ALONG /TO THE SUICIDE SONG/BLOW OUT YOUR BRAINS /DO IT TODAY! "-IMPALED NAZARENE

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"COME JOIN MY PHILOSOPHY/ABSOLUTE MISANTHROPY"-KREATOR

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"DARWIN EXPRESSED HIMSELF VERY GLOOMILY ON THE FUTURE OF HUMANITY,ON THE GROUND THAT IN OUR MODERN CIVILIZATION NATURAL SELECTION HAD NO PLAY,AND THE FITTEST DID NOT SURVIVE."-ALFRED WALLACE

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"FOSTERING THE GOOD FOR NOTHING AT THE EXPENSE OF THE GOOD IS AN EXTREME CRUELTY. IT IS A DELIBERATE STORING UP OF MISERIES FOR FUTURE GENERATIONS. THERE IS NO GREATER CURSE TO POSTERITY THAN THAT OF BEQUEATHING THEM AN INCREASING POPULATION OF IMBECILES"

-HERBERT SPENCER (PRINCIPLES OF SOCIOLOGY)

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"LISTENING TO THE COMEDIANS WHO COMMENT ON POLITICAL,SOCIAL, AND CULTURAL ISSUES, I NOTICE MOST OF THEIR MATERIAL REFLECTS AN UNDERLYING BELIEF THAT SOMEHOW THINGS WERE BETTER ONCE AND THAT WITH JUST A LITTLE EFFORT WE COULD SET THEM RIGHT AGAIN. THEY'RE LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS,AND ROOTING FOR PARTICULAR RESULTS, AND I THINK THAT NECESSARILY LIMITS THE TONE AND SUBSTANCE OF WHAT THEY SAY. THEY'RE TALENTED AND FUNNY PEOPLE,BUT THEY'RE NOTHING MORE THAN CHEERLEADERS ATTACHED TO A SPECIFIC WISHED FOR OUTCOME. I DON'T FEEL SO CONFIDED . I FRANKLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK HOW IT TURNS OUT IN THIS COUNTRY. OR ANYWHERE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER. I THINK THE HUMAN GAME WAS UP A LONG TIME AGO (WHEN THE HIGH PRIESTS AND TRADERS TOOK OVER),AND NOW WERE JUST PLAYING OUT THE STRING. AND THAT IS OF COURSE PRECISELY WHAT I FIND SO AMUSING:THE SLOW CIRCLING OF THE DRAIN BY A ONCE PROMISING SPECIES. AND THE SAPPY EVER DESPERATE BELIEF IN THIS COUNTRY THAT THERE IS ACTUALLY SOME SORT OF "AMERICAN DREAM" WHICH HAS MERELY BEEN MISPLACED."-GEORGE CARLIN

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This columns was inspired by the speceist pro human statements made by members of the closet christian band Permanent Ruin, they play positive moralist dead horse kicking, bullshit false grind/Power violence for sheep that are stupid enough to believe humanity has a future. Every member of this band should F.o.a.d. especially there drummer.(The vocalist for Permanent Ruin helped get Mykel Board fired from M.R.R)

People trapped in abusive codependent relationships, become accustomed to the abuse and perpetual degradation. They become afraid of change, and render themselves incapable of moving on ,through there acceptance and tolerance. These codependent damage cases will then justify there wilful ignorance by clinging to false hope. They will make excuse for there partners abuse in order to justify the suffering. They will lie to themselves and say oh if i just love them more, they'll stop beating me, oh i can be her savior and she'll stop burning me with cigarettes and attacking me with knives when she gets drunk....But in the end they get drunk and violent again and one of you ends up in the hospital. I carved Rio's name onto my cock multiple times to prove my loyalty to her, because i was afraid to let go.

I took my ex Angie back after she beat and tortured our infant son while i was in jail on a probation violation, then lost custody and had her parental rights terminated as a result of her alcoholism and her use of crystal meth to self medicate her manic depression. The serpent devouring its tail over and over, as emotional abuse feeds into physical abuse and we end up developing a fetish for it, and it becomes as much a part of the foreplay as pissing in each others mouths did. It becomes the center of your world and you never want to move on , so you lie and pretend it will change but it never does. On a grander scale, humanities relationship with the world is quite similar. We know the world will never change for the better. Life will always be hell. But we keep pretending it will get better, and life will take a positive turn. But it never fucking happens. But out of cowardice we refuse to kill ourselves, for the same reasons i refused to break up with my x. So anybody who says they have hope in the human race, is just pathetic,scared and in denial,. Out of fear, they become wilfully blind to the harsh realities of life and death. Choosing instead to live as Somanabulant corpses.

"WHEN YOU'RE DROWNING, ANY HAND WILL DO" -JAMIE DELANO

Apopthelema Part 2 of 6 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Part 2 of 6

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: Because of a lack of time and resources, I'm posting these columns as is. Please enjoy them or comment as you wish. They have not been proof-read, so the errors that a proof-reader would catch are included. Please don't use those errors against the writer. They happen to us all... it's just that some have the resources to correct them, others do not.]

ON THE CHURCH SHOOTINGS IN THE SOUTH:

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"we willl wash the blood from our hands once we kill every priest"-BELLICOSE MINDS

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"no devotion anymore/the voice of god means nothing/lets burn the temple"-REVCO

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"All humans feed on violence,on the small exercises of power over another,but few have tasted--as we have the ultimate power.And without that Ability,few know the unequaled pleasure of taking a human life. Without the Ability,even those who do feed on life cannot savor the flow of emotions in stalker and victim, the total exhilaration of the attacker who has moved beyond all rules and punishments,the strange,almost sexual submission of the victim in that final second of truth when all options are canceled,all futures denied,all possibilities erased in an exercise of absolute power over another.I despair at modern violence.I despair at the impersonal nature of it and the casual quality which has made it accessible to so many. I had a television set until i sold it at the height of the vietnam war. Those sanitized snippets of death meant nothing to me. But i believe it meant something to these cattle which surrounded me. When the war ended and the nightly televised body counts ended,they demanded more,more, and the movie screens and streets of this sweet and dying nation have provided it in mediocre,mob abundance. It is an addiction i know well.They miss the point. Merely observed,violent death is a sad and sullied tapestry of confusion. but to those of us who have Fed, death can be a sacrament."

-Carrion Comfort

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Andrew Underwood condemned this shooting, yet this same M.R.R columnist has no problem promoting hardcore records with anti religious themes and fascist bashing lyrics. Yet when someone actually takes it beyond the realm of fantasy, oh no..."you cant do that"...."this is just a game"... Bowing before the altar of christ and rocking out to Skrewdriver are equally contemptible activities. The Swastika was meant by the nazis to represent a catholic army. Secterian violence has for centuries provided hypocritical tyrants with an ideological justification for there acts of barbaric atrocity. In modern times christers are as willfully blind to the blood on there hands as they are apologetic and revisionist in there interpretations of the old testament. The body count for this mass shooting was only 9. Thats a fraction of the number killed by jesus cultists during the various inquisitions,crusades and witch burnings that helped make the world a safer place for ignorant sheep. If you want to talk about sociopathic mass murderers what about King Olaf? Christians used to butcher children on purpose in order to get the death penalty. They would then pray for forgiveness prior to being executed. They did all this just to get to heaven early. Suicide is an unforgivable sin so they got around holy law by killing kids. Its not as if this individual shotup an animal shelter full of cute kittens.No... All he did was some minor pest control on a nest of cock roaches. Nonetheless the shooter was a pedantic failure and a perpetual loser. He was obviously looking for a demiurge to blame his failures and shortcomings on. Those were his true motivations. Not the lofty ideals professed in his illiterate manifesto. Full Force Frank would agree that this was the unsophisticated act of a pathetic loser. This massacre clearly dosnt hold up to the standards of quality set by Jay Scott Ballenger and Mark Essex. The entire human race is a weed species that should be exterminated. Social darwinism makes total sense. But basing someone's value on there skin color is illogical and inane. I find it laughable that the ignorant redneck mouthbreather responsible for this massacre was frivolously attempting to start a race war.Most of the established nazi groups feel the same way about inbred trailer trash like the shooter as the Mattachine society did towards "limp wristed swishers". In addition african american christians are a thoroughly broken and sadly subjugated class, that have chosen to embrace the belif system of there oppressors. Christianity was used by crackers to justify slavery. Slaves were spiritually raped into abandoning there native african tribal culture. Enslaved mentally as well as physically. African American christians are as pathetic as women who marry there rapists,instead of stepping the fuck up in righteous Baise Moi fashion like Inez Garcia and Aillen Wournos did. So its silly the shooter targeted these types of blacks. It was a redundant act. Since they were already dead inside.

seeking shelter in lies.

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Apopthelema: Part 6 of 6 byKyle Nonneman

ENDNOTES:
Recomended Listening: 

Coffins-Perpetual Penance
2 disc collection from this cult japanese band that Violently drags the conventions of traditonal death doom straight to hell.... 
This is the sound of stoner metal being drowned in bloody sewage. Gorey Sludgecore satanic jams that fuse Autopsy&Pungent Stench with Grief and later Noothgrush . The vocals are all gruesome death growls from the bowels of satan.
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Castrator-No Victim
this deeply inspirational release is from the same label that put out Coffins Perpetual Penance collection. Castrator is an all female guttural death metal act, musically its brutal scrotum grinding early tech-death with a Suffocation/Nile influence polished with vague hints of NWOSDM. There visceral lyrics all deal explicity with getting revenge on rapists and feature grotesque and vile descriptions of men being dispatched violently... This tackles similar territory as underground power violence/grind acts like Rape Revenge but they have the iconoclast distinction of bringing it directly to the metal scene. Like Derketa and Rosemary Malign, this band gets recognition and respect for the powerful brutality of there music on its own, NOT there token novelty status as a female act in a male dominated scene. These women show Bro fronted goregrind toiletcore hacks how to truely shred.... 
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Obliteration-Black Death Horizon
Obliteration is a brutal norweigan horde, with nothing to prove.they focus on playing true kvlt metal,. The vokills are like Fenriz mixed with a doom infused take on that classic late eighties Seven Churches/Scream Bloody Gore/Apocalyptic Raids sound you heard before Chris Barnes rise to power. The thrashing death doom guitars have that classick Skogsberg sound, Morbid&Nihilist, with Sabbath grooves.All this is topped off with cavernous black metal atmospherics. Total black death. This may be considered impure by ignorant elitists, but this band dosnt give a fuck about trivial scene politics or genre labels, there just focused on shredding out some sick evil metal. fuck politics.this kills.

This is the norweigan sound of mutilated corpses rotting in ancient crypts, not the florida sound of cleaned and prepped corpses on stainless steel autopsy tables in sterile hospital morgues. If your looking for jockish tech metal masturbation,gothenburg radio rock, or the clean circumcised drums and neutered guitar tones of Scott Burns, then Obliteration will spit blood in your fucking face and infect you with black death. All the releases iv heard from Obliteration are top tier.
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Barghest-Virtuous Purge 
Featuring members of Thou, guttural Black Metal Sludge,with rumbling low end grooves somewhat blunting the guitars.. The prerequisite piercing tremolo riffs are barbed subtley.the sludge elements you'd expect from a band featuring members of Thou, show up in both the overall production and in the buildups and outros. 
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YDI-A Place in the sun/Black Dust
blown the fuck out... shit edge...evil misanthropic hardcore /protogrind bleeding out into some gutter doom sludge jams that sound like G.G. Allin smoking crack with Kilslug&Hellhammer.this is pissed off negative outsider shit to jam on your boombox while your going on a killing spree high on pcp.a memorable artifact from the precode era of punk rock, before all the politics eroded the nihilism and alot of punks became as naive as hippies, thinking they could change the world for the better without exterminating the human race. this record fucking kills.
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Cretin-Stranger Lp
punishing&manic Death Grind that manages to throw in some solos and structure, without sacrificing any speed or intensity.This sounds like the corpse of early Misery Index being 'eaten back to life' , by Insect Warfare. this record grinds the genitals off the lesser tech/melodic death acts flooding the scene with mediocre bullshit. leaving them bleeding profusely from there mangled crotches.the lyrics on this lp are all bizarre and very creative, reminding me of Slap-A-Ham's sense of humor.... 
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Recommended viewing: 
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Humans , is a decent british tv series about revolting against your opressors through underground resistance.,using gritty speculative science fiction,Humans takes the moralðical implications of the infamous Dredd Scott court case and filters it through all the existential dread the concept of the singularity invokes in lesser men It's like Asimov's robots retelling the legend of Nat Turner or Conquest of the Planet of the Apes with droids. the human race being rendered obsolete is a
beautiful thing to me. we should all heil the coming robot apocalypse. 
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CONTACT:
send death threats,complaints&verbal abuse to:
KYLE NONNEMAN#16534211
777 STANTON 
ONTARIO OREGON 97914

malignant trolls&computer cowards fuck off. "People who hide are afraid"....response is guaranteed to anyone who bothers to write,i dont have email.

ApopthelemaPart 5 of 6 byKyle Nonneman

WE KEEP OUR VICTIMS READY:

"Having everyone look as inoffensive as possible,having everyone be as together as possiblee-though the wearer is as offensive possible on the inside. You want everyone to look the same,so maybe they'll feel the same and then they'll be easier to control,to take over,".-Karen FInley
In the late eighties through the early nineties, Ed o'neil starre as Al Bundy on the popular sitcom Married with Children. This sitcom filtered the blue collar working class ambivalence of pedestrian country music ,through campy low budget trash comedy, that at times brought to mind a cleaner version of John Waters seventies period.

Ed O'neil's characterr becomes a cartoon protest leader against misandrist subjugation in numerous episodes. Today Ed O'neil is the sellout star of the sitcom Modern Family. Married with Children was a marginally subversive and slightly iconoclast attack on the status quo of the nuclear family status quo and the american dream. Modern Family on the other hand, reminds us that equality is the enemy of diversity. What we see on Modern Family is an affirmative action mandated equal distribution of misery. Reminiscent of the classic vonnegut short story about equality being enforced by law, that opens his Welcome to the Monkeyhouse collection. The gay couple on the sitcom are homosexuals of the polite ivy league variety. They frequently express contempt and spite towards more flaming outspoken gays.

This sitcom uses the gay couple as a propaganda vehicle to bring back the pre stonewall glory days of the 1950s assimilationist homophile organizations. The masses act like accepting gay marriage and laughing at this show, makes them more open minded and progressive. It clearly doesnt . The respectable assimilationist movement won no civil rights. and by "ELIMINATING THE MOST POWERFUL FORM OF SEXUAL DISSENT IN AMERICAN CULTURE, ACTUALLY CONTRIBUTED TO THE SEXUAL CONSERVATISM OF THE TIMES:"-Thaddeus Russell

The masses insidiously accept this allegedly revolutionary act of liberation while at the same time further perpetuating there reactionary agenda of phillistine conservatism.After i wrote this, Sadie Switchblade wrote her own column on this subject, in eloquent Solanas esque polemic fashion: "The desire of queers to get married is unnatural and has been planted in us by norms in order to assimilate us into their bullshit society to declaw us and neutralize our threatening nature. "Gay Culture". Has been subsumed into hetero culture entirely,there are cops,bans and straight people in the fucking pride parade.The spirit of Sylvia Rivera lives on in Jennicet Guttierrez. This isnt progress. this is full on regression. an agenda so single-minded and compromised that it has infantilized all of us. Where we once hurled rocks and high heels at our oppressors,we now mutter sheepish pleas for sympathy and "rights" We owe it to our foremothers and to ourselves to weaponize our anger and to burn shit to the ground. We want liberation . Not assimilation! When the fuck did we trade in our radical history for tolerance and lip service from a bunch of elitist liberals and guilt wracked do-gooders? Marriage is a tool of the state that will never set the stage for our freedom. Fuck every single pathetic salmon-shorts wearing gay married shitbag. You only have your marriage because you bumped the T off LGB in order to get your horseshit legislation passed." -Sadie Switchblade.

--Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Part 1 of 6 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Part 1 of 6

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: Because of a lack of time and resources, I'm posting these columns as is. Please enjoy them or comment as you wish. They have not been proof-read, so the errors that a proof-reader would catch are included. Please don't use those errors against the writer. They happen to us all... it's just that some have the resources to correct them, others do not.]

"THOUGH PLAINLY A PRISONER,I HAVE NOT LOST MY LIFELONG ZEAL FOR THE UNKNOWN;AND AM DETERMINED TO PROBE THE COSMOS AS DEEPLY AS POSSIBLE BEFORE DOOM COMES"-H.P. LOVECRAFT

This is the first Apopthelema column.

Being incarcerated for the next decade leaves me without the resources neccessary to publish and distribute a print zine. So i'm forced out of necessity to publish these hypergraphia induced misanthropic diatribes on-line. There is no goal or endpoint to any of this. I do this for myself, with nothing to prove to any of your kind. Its an efficient way to purge and vent all of the fucked up shit in my head. I was influenced into writing a column to some extent by reading maximum rocknroll. Despite its abhorrent politics and hypocritical editors, it remains a good publication. Also its better to self publish online then submit to zines etc, because most people in the underground are too lazy to go to the fucking post office. Never mind that there scene wouldn't fucking exist in its present state if it wasnt for the ardent efforts of dedicated tape traders in the 80s/early 90s. Now with the download generation apathy, you have a Gresham's Law type effect . Forums and messageboards enable posers and provide neophytes with access, and make things more convient for dilletantes. The time and effort required to do everything through the mail, had a social darwinist side effect that helped weed out the defective stock , so you didnt have such a flood of bullshit 'scene music' to use a quote from Isten : 

"1.MUSIC THAT EXISTS MERELY BECAUSE ITS MAKERS THINK IT'S IMPORTANT FOR THEM TO BE A PART OF METAL AND THE UNDERGROUND SCENE, AND TO MAKE THE RELATIONSHIP OFFICIAL AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 

2.MUSIC THAT IS PLAYED BY PEOPLE WHO ARE REALLY QUITE FASCINATED BY THE IDEA OF MAKING SOME MUSIC OF THERE OWN,BUT HAVE YET TO FIND AN EMOTION OR AN IDEA TO EXPRESS."

its also funny that burned cdrs have the binary bits burned into the dye, not stamped as in glass mastered pressed discs, so the dye after time errodes and decays, rendering all these inane pedantic bedroom project cdrs unplayable coasters within a decade. I was given a probation violation based on the content of my music, and this was publicized in M.R.R and other zines, but except for a token elite few, no one in the underground ever bothered to take further action or even write me letters. ignored and discarded.

Also i find it appalling no one in the diy punk community has chosen to criticize and call out the former M.R.R zine coordinator for selling out ,By using M.R.R. as a stepping stone to gain employment at Revolver. Exploiting the resources and efforts of the Underground for personal gain. When Justin Pearson from Locust signed his soul to Epitapth and got on the cover of Revolver, he was widely villified. This zine coordinator violated Tim Yo's last will and testament,cosigns on the firing of one of the finest social critics and iconoclast philosophers since Marco Vassi ,then jumps ship to work at Revolver to pimp Bro mall punk, Fratboy daterape butt rock, and wigger rap metal to self loathing trailer park kids with racial identity issues that need to just fucking kill themselves. To top it all off , this sell out is still allowed to write columns for M.R.R, that mention Revolver, Being a promoter for all the wretched shit hot topic kiddies adore is not fucking punk.I hope this bitch chokes to death on Corey Taylor's cock. People that listen to shit like I.C.P ,Slipknot, and Shinedown, deserve the same level of contempt and hatred given to Skrewdriver fans. Someone wearing a Slipknot etc. patch/shirt at a diy show, should be excluded and 86'd the same as a rapist nazi would. No distinction should be made. If you allow and tolerate that shit to invade the underground, like a virus, then your fucking false.Allowing these low life forms to run M.R.R. and dictate editorial policy, is fucked up. With the convenience of the internet and the continued mainstream commodification of the underground, it becomes necessary to become more militant and elitist, It aint fucking dead yet, but more people need to get active and put work in.. We need more underground pride.None of us have any future anyway, But that dosnt mean we should give up.We need to actively resist victimization, assimilation, and mediocrity,

"MY INTEREST IN "ISSUES" IS MERELY TO POINT OUT HOW BADLY WE'RE DOING, NOT TO SUGGEST A WAY WE MIGHT DO BETTER. DON'T CONFUSE ME WITH THOSE WHO CLING TO HOPE. I ENJOY DESCRIBING THINGS HOW THEY ARE, I HAVE NO INTEREST IN FIXING THEM. "-GEORGE CARLIN

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