Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 2 Part 1

by Kyle Nonneman

APOPTHELEMA #2:(())(())(())(())(())(())(())

\PERMANENT RUIN IN THE AGE OF HORUS/

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"SO SING ALONG /TO THE SUICIDE SONG/BLOW OUT YOUR BRAINS /DO IT TODAY! "-IMPALED NAZARENE

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"COME JOIN MY PHILOSOPHY/ABSOLUTE MISANTHROPY"-KREATOR

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"DARWIN EXPRESSED HIMSELF VERY GLOOMILY ON THE FUTURE OF HUMANITY,ON THE GROUND THAT IN OUR MODERN CIVILIZATION NATURAL SELECTION HAD NO PLAY,AND THE FITTEST DID NOT SURVIVE."-ALFRED WALLACE

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"FOSTERING THE GOOD FOR NOTHING AT THE EXPENSE OF THE GOOD IS AN EXTREME CRUELTY. IT IS A DELIBERATE STORING UP OF MISERIES FOR FUTURE GENERATIONS. THERE IS NO GREATER CURSE TO POSTERITY THAN THAT OF BEQUEATHING THEM AN INCREASING POPULATION OF IMBECILES"

-HERBERT SPENCER (PRINCIPLES OF SOCIOLOGY)

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"LISTENING TO THE COMEDIANS WHO COMMENT ON POLITICAL,SOCIAL, AND CULTURAL ISSUES, I NOTICE MOST OF THEIR MATERIAL REFLECTS AN UNDERLYING BELIEF THAT SOMEHOW THINGS WERE BETTER ONCE AND THAT WITH JUST A LITTLE EFFORT WE COULD SET THEM RIGHT AGAIN. THEY'RE LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS,AND ROOTING FOR PARTICULAR RESULTS, AND I THINK THAT NECESSARILY LIMITS THE TONE AND SUBSTANCE OF WHAT THEY SAY. THEY'RE TALENTED AND FUNNY PEOPLE,BUT THEY'RE NOTHING MORE THAN CHEERLEADERS ATTACHED TO A SPECIFIC WISHED FOR OUTCOME. I DON'T FEEL SO CONFIDED . I FRANKLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK HOW IT TURNS OUT IN THIS COUNTRY. OR ANYWHERE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER. I THINK THE HUMAN GAME WAS UP A LONG TIME AGO (WHEN THE HIGH PRIESTS AND TRADERS TOOK OVER),AND NOW WERE JUST PLAYING OUT THE STRING. AND THAT IS OF COURSE PRECISELY WHAT I FIND SO AMUSING:THE SLOW CIRCLING OF THE DRAIN BY A ONCE PROMISING SPECIES. AND THE SAPPY EVER DESPERATE BELIEF IN THIS COUNTRY THAT THERE IS ACTUALLY SOME SORT OF "AMERICAN DREAM" WHICH HAS MERELY BEEN MISPLACED."-GEORGE CARLIN

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This columns was inspired by the speceist pro human statements made by members of the closet christian band Permanent Ruin, they play positive moralist dead horse kicking, bullshit false grind/Power violence for sheep that are stupid enough to believe humanity has a future. Every member of this band should F.o.a.d. especially there drummer.(The vocalist for Permanent Ruin helped get Mykel Board fired from M.R.R)

People trapped in abusive codependent relationships, become accustomed to the abuse and perpetual degradation. They become afraid of change, and render themselves incapable of moving on ,through there acceptance and tolerance. These codependent damage cases will then justify there wilful ignorance by clinging to false hope. They will make excuse for there partners abuse in order to justify the suffering. They will lie to themselves and say oh if i just love them more, they'll stop beating me, oh i can be her savior and she'll stop burning me with cigarettes and attacking me with knives when she gets drunk....But in the end they get drunk and violent again and one of you ends up in the hospital. I carved Rio's name onto my cock multiple times to prove my loyalty to her, because i was afraid to let go.

I took my ex Angie back after she beat and tortured our infant son while i was in jail on a probation violation, then lost custody and had her parental rights terminated as a result of her alcoholism and her use of crystal meth to self medicate her manic depression. The serpent devouring its tail over and over, as emotional abuse feeds into physical abuse and we end up developing a fetish for it, and it becomes as much a part of the foreplay as pissing in each others mouths did. It becomes the center of your world and you never want to move on , so you lie and pretend it will change but it never does. On a grander scale, humanities relationship with the world is quite similar. We know the world will never change for the better. Life will always be hell. But we keep pretending it will get better, and life will take a positive turn. But it never fucking happens. But out of cowardice we refuse to kill ourselves, for the same reasons i refused to break up with my x. So anybody who says they have hope in the human race, is just pathetic,scared and in denial,. Out of fear, they become wilfully blind to the harsh realities of life and death. Choosing instead to live as Somanabulant corpses.

"WHEN YOU'RE DROWNING, ANY HAND WILL DO" -JAMIE DELANO

Apopthelema Part 2 of 6 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Part 2 of 6

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: Because of a lack of time and resources, I'm posting these columns as is. Please enjoy them or comment as you wish. They have not been proof-read, so the errors that a proof-reader would catch are included. Please don't use those errors against the writer. They happen to us all... it's just that some have the resources to correct them, others do not.]

ON THE CHURCH SHOOTINGS IN THE SOUTH:

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"we willl wash the blood from our hands once we kill every priest"-BELLICOSE MINDS

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"no devotion anymore/the voice of god means nothing/lets burn the temple"-REVCO

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"All humans feed on violence,on the small exercises of power over another,but few have tasted--as we have the ultimate power.And without that Ability,few know the unequaled pleasure of taking a human life. Without the Ability,even those who do feed on life cannot savor the flow of emotions in stalker and victim, the total exhilaration of the attacker who has moved beyond all rules and punishments,the strange,almost sexual submission of the victim in that final second of truth when all options are canceled,all futures denied,all possibilities erased in an exercise of absolute power over another.I despair at modern violence.I despair at the impersonal nature of it and the casual quality which has made it accessible to so many. I had a television set until i sold it at the height of the vietnam war. Those sanitized snippets of death meant nothing to me. But i believe it meant something to these cattle which surrounded me. When the war ended and the nightly televised body counts ended,they demanded more,more, and the movie screens and streets of this sweet and dying nation have provided it in mediocre,mob abundance. It is an addiction i know well.They miss the point. Merely observed,violent death is a sad and sullied tapestry of confusion. but to those of us who have Fed, death can be a sacrament."

-Carrion Comfort

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Andrew Underwood condemned this shooting, yet this same M.R.R columnist has no problem promoting hardcore records with anti religious themes and fascist bashing lyrics. Yet when someone actually takes it beyond the realm of fantasy, oh no..."you cant do that"...."this is just a game"... Bowing before the altar of christ and rocking out to Skrewdriver are equally contemptible activities. The Swastika was meant by the nazis to represent a catholic army. Secterian violence has for centuries provided hypocritical tyrants with an ideological justification for there acts of barbaric atrocity. In modern times christers are as willfully blind to the blood on there hands as they are apologetic and revisionist in there interpretations of the old testament. The body count for this mass shooting was only 9. Thats a fraction of the number killed by jesus cultists during the various inquisitions,crusades and witch burnings that helped make the world a safer place for ignorant sheep. If you want to talk about sociopathic mass murderers what about King Olaf? Christians used to butcher children on purpose in order to get the death penalty. They would then pray for forgiveness prior to being executed. They did all this just to get to heaven early. Suicide is an unforgivable sin so they got around holy law by killing kids. Its not as if this individual shotup an animal shelter full of cute kittens.No... All he did was some minor pest control on a nest of cock roaches. Nonetheless the shooter was a pedantic failure and a perpetual loser. He was obviously looking for a demiurge to blame his failures and shortcomings on. Those were his true motivations. Not the lofty ideals professed in his illiterate manifesto. Full Force Frank would agree that this was the unsophisticated act of a pathetic loser. This massacre clearly dosnt hold up to the standards of quality set by Jay Scott Ballenger and Mark Essex. The entire human race is a weed species that should be exterminated. Social darwinism makes total sense. But basing someone's value on there skin color is illogical and inane. I find it laughable that the ignorant redneck mouthbreather responsible for this massacre was frivolously attempting to start a race war.Most of the established nazi groups feel the same way about inbred trailer trash like the shooter as the Mattachine society did towards "limp wristed swishers". In addition african american christians are a thoroughly broken and sadly subjugated class, that have chosen to embrace the belif system of there oppressors. Christianity was used by crackers to justify slavery. Slaves were spiritually raped into abandoning there native african tribal culture. Enslaved mentally as well as physically. African American christians are as pathetic as women who marry there rapists,instead of stepping the fuck up in righteous Baise Moi fashion like Inez Garcia and Aillen Wournos did. So its silly the shooter targeted these types of blacks. It was a redundant act. Since they were already dead inside.

seeking shelter in lies.

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ApopthelemaPart 4 of 6 byKyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Part 4 of 6

by Kyle Nonneman

ON THE TRANSGENDER ISSUES IN THE MAINSTREAM MEDIA:

"MY MOTTO: FUCK HOPE"-GEORGE CARLIN

in last months playboy, Caroline Cossey is interviewed again She brings up an interesting point :nobody ever bothered to ask jenner if she's turned on sexually by wearing womens clothing.... those who dont understand the difference, throw out there three piece suits, and realize they cant get it back and end up hanging it up....

I watched the series premier of the reality tv show they did on jenner postop,

she meets with a bunch of established veterans of the trans community.

They call her out for being a privileged celebrity , that never had to come up through the drag scene or do sex work to get by, and point out that a dilettante tourist and neophyte that didn't deal with all the struggles of coming out , doesn’t have the experience necessary to accurately be a public spokesperson for the movement.

they say she acts like a giddy teenager, and acts as if its all about makeup and hair, so they take jenner to a Human resources center in san francisco, to burst her privileged bubble you can see alot of animosity and resentment expressed towards jenner by the ex sex workers and former drag queens, that haven't had a silver spoon in there mouths every step of the way. Really if you think about it, this is probable why alot of the public is so accepting of Jenner, she's post op , but shes not a veteran of the movement, she wasn't standing in the kickline at stonewall, jenner is essentially like those fashionable uncle tom house slaves closet racists used for show to put on a front of liberal open mindedness. The Movement needs more Nat Turners and less Uncle Toms....

Charles Romalotti said that,"Once you popularize a cartoon version of something,the cartoon version and the real thing become indistinguishable in the eyes of the masses, which serves to discredit the real thing as a whole".Despite the presence of real activists on the jenner show, its still at its core just a tabloid freakshow that puts on a mask made of philanthropic altruism to hide the stench of sensationalist exploitation. G.L.A.D.D. accepting Jenner as a spokesperson for there movement, is as much of a mistake as when the battered womens movement made a spokesperson out of Hedda Nussenbaum, the coke fiend baby killer.

Whats next ? A golliwog puppet speaking for the nation of islam? I'm sure the general public would approve of that. Just be your fucking self and fuck what anybody else thinks. that's the problem with m.r.r. its petty concern over trivial scene politics undermined its music coverage, and instead of just discussing cool new records, and fun interesting sounds, its all sophomoric debate club prattle from punks trying to climb out of the mosh pit and scale the ivory tower.

fuck politics and all the discussions of it all. more people need to read Marco Vassi's work:

"WE WALK AROUND WITH A GENDER FOR A GOOD DEAL OF THE TIME WHEN WE DONT NEED TO USE IT. IF YOUR NOT ACTUALLY INVOLVED IN FUCKING,BEING MALE OR FEMALE IS LARGELY INCIDENTAL . THAT OUR SOCIETY IS BIFURCATED ALONG THE MALE/FEMALE LINE IS OF COURSE ONE OF THE ROUSING CRIES OF FEMALE LIB AND GAY LIB AND ALOT OF POLITICAL MOVEMENTS. THAT IS, WHY DO WE BE MEN AND WOMEN WHEN WE'RE NOT ENGAGED IN THE MEN /WOMEN'S BUISNESS?"-MARCO VASSI

it also brings to mind the perpetual victim stance walking wounded, martyrdom of survivors who build there identity around there struggle and survival and war stories of there sad past, and then they never manage to move beyond that and be a whole person. like alcoholics anonymous meeting lifers.But then again, were always constantly at war with the world. Bob Black wrote a classic piece on this called 'Why I hate Survivors"Ed gein if you study that case, was a trannie, told by his christian mother he was sick and evil, going to burn in hell, all the fire and brimstone preaching meshed with his innner shame and he became a monster . there wasn't any way to come out and get support in the backwoods of wisconsin in the late 1940s/50s.

they simplify what he did. he wanted to be a woman so bad, and surgery wasn't available at that time and there was no drag scene. so he wore vests and pants made out of lady parts, and ingested there flesh , all in a deranged attempt to make himself into a woman. gein's case inspired norman bates in psycho and leatherface in texas chainsaw massacre. countless hordes of horror films were inspired and released as a result of those two movies. then think about all the nightmares and shocks caused by those movies.... as well as there effect on mainstream pop culture...

The ignorance of christianity , and the intolerant fears of the servants of righteousness create monsters.....

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