Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

POSTED Monday, Oct 9, 2016

(A EULOGY FOR RIO VANCE)
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"PENETRATION/SACRIFICE&MURDER. PLACE NO LIMIT ON ACTION. THEY ARE THE FULLEST REALIZATION OF THOUGHT&SENSATION SEVERED FROM CONSEQUENCES. DENYING ALL POSSIBILITY OF SURVIVAL. DECISIVE. YET TORN BY CONFLICT. THEY INDICATE A POINT AT WHICH DELIBERATE TRANSGRESSION GIVES WAY TO THE CONDITION OF ABSOLUTE FREEDOM"-HOLLINGS

Most people who read Full Force Frank's zines in the 1990s, did so because it was a trainwreck atrocity exhibition, they were insidiously waiting for Frank to act on the various actions he alluded to in his polemic rants. When nothing ever came of it and he disappeared, a lot of his fanbase was disappointed that he didn't follow through and lost respect for Frank. This is the 'Society of the Spectacle' and Frank never gave us the spectacle he promised..Talk minus action equals nothing..

But if Full Force Frank had followed through, his actions wouldn't have been solely motivated by a personal vendetta against the world, He would have also been giving fan service to his cult audience, which corrupts the beauty of the act. What I'm going to do has nothing to do with proving myself to anyone or providing fan service or proving a point to anyone. It will inevitably end in wreckage, unless in the next nine years her self destructive impulses don't beat me to it and she unfortunately finishes without me...

Rio Vance has for years done nothing but live homeless,in the gutter. Trading on the fantasies of lonely men to purchase the drugs that kill the pain of an outside world that she cant function in. In between the forced detoxes that result from whatever silly shit she got arrested for recently, she pretends to be clean & sober. She will prattle about turning her life around & doing something with it, becoming an artist. Working on her music.

She was assaulted recently because she asked for it. Being assaulted is something that validates her existence. She loves being a victim, being able to scapegoat responsibility for her actions and leech pity from people too blinded by her manipulation to see beneath the mask. Rio is exactly like the star of the film SMITHEREENS.The one with Richard Hell. I bought her a USB Audio interface so she could record her music. But she was always too high to record any music. Which is pretty pathetic considering even GG Allin managed to record his music...But GG Allin was more responsible.

Closest Rio ever came to being a musician was singing for crack money with an acoustic guitar. She has a lot of talent and intelligence but she chooses to be trash. A lot of drug addicts and prostitutes lack the ability to rise above their position in the gutter. They're too far gone to be saved. Its tragic when you see a great mind like hers destroy itself being a whore. This makes her all the more pathetic and worse than a common addict. Because she made a conscious decision to become trash and live this lifestyle of despair. She isn't the victim of determinism. All the abuse and degradation she suffered is either manufactured to get sympathy or simply the inevitable end result of the poor decisions she has always made in her life. Bottom line is She Knows Better. So she asked for it.

She continuously trys to contact me and to whip me again into submission but she never says she's sorry or apolgises for all the ways shes hurt and abandoned me over the years. She enjoys tormenting and abusing me its as simple as that. I enjoy being abused by women but in her case, there's never any reward given to the obedient slave no matter how obedient he is to his mistress. I hate how pathetic she made me. I hate how blinded I was to how depraved and heartless she has always been to me. I'm still pathetic. If she asked , I'd come crawling back. This 'Hypogirl' still has power over my heart.

I realize now-- at this point-- that she is a monster. So there is only one way I can move on from this.....Directing this violence inward at myself, just gives her more control. Channeling this by proxy into music is weak to me . why jerk off when you can just fuck something? I feel that the inevitable action Ii must take, is the only way to achieve closure and validate my existence, enabling me to die without regrets having accomplished something of great importance.

"YOU WERE WRONG TO RESIST ME/I WAS WRONG TO FORGIVE"-SWANS (Empathy)

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Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

POSTED Monday, Oct 2, 2016

(A Eulogy For Rio Vance)

{Fans and Supporters of Apopthelema are all greatly encouraged to link/share and repost this to the Rio Vance (portland oregon) facebook page & her website riovance.com  &email it to her directly blameitonriovance@gmail.com ,she needs to read this, she needs to know how many people are aware of how diseased she is. Help drive the stakes into the heart of this psychic vampire}

"THE BRUTAL REALITY AND PAIN OF KNOWLEDGE..."-SOTOS
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"I SAW A MAN CRY ONCE , DOWN ON HIS KNEES IN THE CORNER OF A DARKENED CELL AND HIS PAIN MEANT NOTHING TO ME"-GIRA
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Rio Vance is a septicemic succubus inoculating us all with the toxin of her pestilence. Shes just like all the other failed fucking artists with so much potential shit out like an addict twitching in withdrawal.

She has me backed up against the walls of her post traumatic nihilism. Face smashed into unforgiving & incomprehensible perpetually mutating boundaries. Her love is a corrosive acid bath. She taints every life she touches with her poisoned ego. She used to be the remission to my diseased psyche. Now she is the disease . Infecting it with the mindless devotion of a cerebral parasite burrowing its way down into the depths of emotional repression. Ripping away the mask and revealing the skull beneath the skin. Peeling back the veil of secular reality like an addict puncturing an abscess. Bursting with stench. Like the Chicago casualty with her polaroids. She lives a meaningless life whose true value&purpose wont be actualized until shes dead to this heathen earth. Day by Day too broken inside to face the horrors of a waking existence in this world of shit. She tries to kill the memories but they all come cracking back to the surface. Smoke Ghosts freed from their glass chambered cage by the fire ignited by her despair. Smoke ghosts rise up from the stem possessing your body with demonic malignancy. In this apocalyptic new dark age my goal is to bring about the end of her world. From room 101 to the spirit of 1349. The counselor playing good cop tells her its just like being tickled. You cant help but laugh & secretly want to laugh again. Even if you don't want to admit how rough it was. If you follow the punchline of that cruel joke like the trackmarks on a junkies thigh,you realize were all cruelly bound in determinism to the entropy of our species. Trying to seek out a rational explanation for all this.... Becomes a struggle as desperate as the vehement claims she makes denying ever having an orgasm... Never mind the twitching serpents tongue crawling with reptilian cruelty past her smack deadened sex drive. Screams and whimpers summoning a knock at the door of the Joyce. Unfolding flowers. Rose petals crushed against unforgiving walls of muscle . Burning with fissures expanding further. Blooming into great heights of throbbing pain . My teeth sink into the soft folds.

Like the sutured petals of a perforated rosebud.

"THEY HAVE TO DENY THEMSELVES ANY LASTING PLEASURE,&WHEN THEY FALL IN LOVE, THEY DESTROY THERE LOVER OR ELSE TRANSFORM THEIR LOVE INTO DISTASTE & DESPAIR. SO ARTISTS TEND TO LOVE EITHER OBJECTS OR PEOPLE WHO RUN AWAY FROM THEM.SO THE FEMALE ARTIST REJECTS THE GOOD MALE ARTIST" -Acker

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part3

POSTED Monday, Sept. 11, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AS ATROCITY EXHIBITION
PART 3

((This Is The Way Step Inside ))

"I AM THE UGLY AMERICAN, I HATE WHAT I AM... TAKE A PISS ON YOUR FOUNDING FATHERS"-BIG BLACK


"SOME PEOPLE TAKE SO MUCH PRIDE IN IT LIKE "OH, I'M NOISE, I DO NOISE, I DO ANTIMUSIC ." GREAT FANTASTIC, LOVELY- I DON'T CARE-
DANIEL MENCHE

Incongruously in the american underground you see performers cheaply adopting the aesthetics and ideas of other countries and there adaptations are typically dependent on xenophobic distortions and false stereotypes.

Similar to a Redskins mascot or a blackface ministrel show except according to scene politics for some reason its not racist or ignorant... No when punks etc do it, they act like their a fucking modern day John Brown. Fetishizing something unreal inside of a blur of paraphillia....Gaijin Goyum Utlending neophytes such as these still feel themselves justified in passing judgement upon individuals such as myself. They fetishize images and ideas they stole from the japanese and filter it through there american minds until it's bastardized and dissociated from its original source.

They keep their desires and urges locked up behind a wall of denial and neurotic self contempt. Like christian's suppressing the natural urges of mankind and becoming all fucked up in the head. When they're confronted with someone who comes out and owns their depravity they dont know how to fucking respond. They try to channel the spirit of actual demons, but like a cheesy horror flick, when what they conjured up actually rises up from hell, they freak the fuck out.

Im tired of cosplaying paleface fantasists attempting to pass judgement upon me. These people are fucking cattle who have never experienced real brutality in their lives and through their sheltered existence they deem themselves worthy of voicing an opinion about my actions. They're simply sheep pretending to be wolves.

My art has for the most part always reflected my own reality and a way vent the depravity and ugliness intrinsic to my psyche. When i recorded the Disease is love, the spoken word samples in the intro were from private phone calls made to me by my better half while she was in prison for stabbing a cunt in the stomach multiple times. That shit all happened. I dont need to resort to sampling horror films and true crime documentries, i can simply use broken shards of my own tortured existence to spread my hatred to your kind like a virus.

i was always attracted to experimentation musically and transgressing accepted standards and norms. I fucked with electrical devices to make weird noise in an unsophisticated fashion since childhood, i used the reality of video games, the distorted harsh tones of chiptune, reminding me of the escape i chose from abuse and the world surrounding me that i never felt a part of. I started out doing straight harsh noise and progressed to more structured droning atmospheric pieces.

Later on when i became involved in various violent dysfunctional relationships and my life became surrounded with violence, I started doing more power electronics related material as an outlet for that hatred and urge to kill.

i came close to killing Angie a couple times. Cowards within the scene who have never lived with that inside of them, try to channel the evil and misanthropic depravity of individuals like myself. Through vicarous proxy. When confronted with the real thing, they cower in fear, reminded of how weak they are.

Randall Philips the creator of Fuck zine started a feud with Slogun, when he tried to interrogate Slogun as to what attracted him to serial killers and what inspired him to use so much of it as source material. Slogun choked up. He didnt want to admit to admireing them or wanting to be like them. He simply couldnt come up with an answer.

Most of these cattle can't. They act like they're individuals that think independently .But in reality most of them blindly conform to scene politics and follow the rules and standards set by the individual with the most scene capital. They seek acceptance and they crawl for validiation within that social structure.As such they're fucking peer pressure zombies.Not free thinking individuals following their own personal vision.

THIS IS THE WAY
THIS IS THE WAY
STEP INSIDE.........................

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part2

Thursday, August 25, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AND THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION:
PART TWO
((THIS IS THE WAY STEP INSIDE))

NOISEBOARD COMPUTER COWARDS KILLED CASSETTE CULTURE....

"THE ONLINE PRESENCE OF NOISE IN THE EARLY 2000S ,WAS DEFINED AMONG NORTH AMERICANS WHO DEVELOPED AN INTERMEDIATED NETWORK OF FAN CREATED WEBPAGES. THE MAJORITY OF WEBSITES ABOUT NOISE HAVE BEEN ORGANIZED AND FREQUENTED BY NORTH AMERICAN PARTICIPANTS. ALTHOUGH THERE ARE A HANDFUL OF BILINGUAL JAPAN BASED SITES,MOST ARE POSTED IN ENGLISH ONLY. EVEN BY THE EARLY 2010S,MANY WELL-KNOWN JAPANESE NOISICIANS DID NOT YET HAVE WEBSITES AND ONLY A HANDFUL OF JAPANESE LABELS

HAVE DEVELOPED WEB BASED SALES PORTALS. IN ADDITION, NOT MANY JAPANESE AUTHORS POST RECORDINGS ONLINE OR CONTRIBUTE TO DISCUSSION BOARDS ABOUT NOISE INDIVIDUAL POSTERS CAN CHOOSE TO REMAIN ANONYMOUS, CHANGE THEIR NAMES REGULARLY & LURK VOYEURISTICLY. WHEREAS THE CASSETTE CULTURE GREW THROUGH BARTER EXCHANGE OF RECORDINGS BETWEEN FELLOW PRODUCERS,NOISE'S ONLINE COMMUNITIES CONVERGED THROUGH OPEN ACCESS TO CROWD SOURCED KNOWLEDGE.INDIVIDUALS COULD PARTICIPATE IN KNOWLEDGE CONSTRUCTION IN WAYS THAT REFLECTED LITTLE OR NO STAKE IN NOISE'S COMPLEXITIES"-NOVAK
Relapse records was responsible for the Japan American Noise treaty compilation issued in the 1990s. As well as the import and distribution of various Japanoise releases with sexual themed covers.Relapse was one of the primary sources outside of the underground cassette culture that brought noise to the attention of American audiences.Relapse dropped a couple Death Metal acts in the 90s, for having no image. The bands they did this to,were acts like Rottrevore, who were attempting to do something more original beyond death,destruction lyrics and instead wrote songs about politics and social criticism.

With Relapse's primary customer base being Metalheads, its very likely they repackaged and promoted Japanoise releases in this fashion in an effort to pander to the proclivities of there primary market demographic. This market obviously carried on the torch when they were inspired by Japanoise releases to start noise side projects as a break from there day jobs in Death/Gore Grind bands.

Noise quickly became a convenient outlet for suburban death metal fans to vent their repressed sexuality and it gave them a way to go from being a fan to an actual recording artist, without the ardent work of actually learning to play an insturment. Bringing the concept of 'Scene metal' to new heights of amateurish mediocrity. This only got worse when laptops were introduced into the equation. Previously they had to at least had buy pedals and learn to chain them together in a closed feedback loop.
Then of course crossover acts like Bastard Noise came out of the california hippy love punk scene, . Bastard Noise's success is largely due to them being the only noise/faux p.e. distributed by punk/grind labels like Deep Six. Bastard Noise also focused on lyrical themes and imagery that unlike British Power Electronics were easily digestible by punk kids and deemed acceptable by the P.C scene police. They didn't do much in terms of innovation, they simply performed a safer defanged easier to swallow strain of extreme electronic music that lame punks could handle, instead of the more subversive and honest sounds of Whitehouse & Sutciffe Jugend.
Its of course ironic and fitting that one of the most active and well-known american noise acts is called Bastard Noise. Since the American Underground is largely founded more on derivative bastardization of foreign subcultures than originality.Which makes sense in the larger context of american history, since this country was stolen by immigrants who transplanted themselves here by force and are forced now to either disown and live in shame of what little cultural heritage they have or be branded a racist. A lot of them also deal with there guilt over being white and compensate for their lack of cultural roots by adopting the identity and culture of other races.
Rap music used to be a form of urban protest music for blacks to fight back against the status quo of american society. Now its just another form of bubblegum pop music and you see trailer trash inbred white dudes in prison with thug life tattoos.Think about that next time you hear Michael Gira talk about turning all the A.C. off in the venue to make it more like a Native American Sweatlodge.... Gira should make the venue more like that Great White/Whitesnake show back in the eighties where all the butt rockers burned alive .

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Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 4 Part1

Sunday, August 14, 2016

THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AND THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION:  PART ONE

(THIS IS THE WAY STEP INSIDE....)

FIRST HERE'S A WORD FROM OUR SPONSORS:

"IN BATAILLE'S MYTHOLOGY,THE ECSTASY OF THE TORTURE VICTIM LENT WEIGHT TO THE ECSTASY OF THE GREAT SADISTS GILLES DE RAIS,ERZSEBET BATHORY DE NASSADY,DONA CATALINA DE LOS RIOS OR AGAIN TO THE MAN WHO WANTED TO SEE THE TORTURED BODIES OF WHICH PLATO SPEAKS, TO THE ITHYPHALLIC FLAGELLATORS OF CHRIST"-J.M. LO DUCA
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"THIS URGE,WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO IS, "WHAT IS THE BODY?
IN WESTERN CULTURE,PEOPLE ARE SO BODY CONSCIOUS THEY DONT KNOW THEY ARE LIVING IN IT. THE ONLY TIME YOU CAN START TO FIGURE THAT OUT IS WHEN YOU START PIERCING,TATTOOING ,PLAYING WITH IT, MODIFYING IT. THAT IS THE ONLY TIME YOU FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE.THAT SHORT INSTANT WHEN THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH YOUR FLESH,YOU MAY HAVE A REALIZATION OF WHO YOU ARE. THE NEEDLE IS GOING THROUGH MY BODY BUT ITS NOT GOING THROUGH ME. SO IT DOESNT HURT.

[...] WE ARE AT THE LOWEST STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THERE IS. EVEN ANIMALS HAVE A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THAN MOST OF THESE PEOPLE RUNNING AROUND IN THREE PIECE SUITS.

THE POINT IS,THE IDEA OF MORTALITY AND IMMORTALITY IS ALL MESSED UP AND IS VERY UNREAL. IT ALL STARTED WITH ST.PAUL AND THE PERVERSION OF THE TEACHINGS OF CHRIST."-FAKIR MUSAFAR
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"In a 1994 essay, published in the underground music magazine G-Modern,Mikawa Toshiji of Incapacitants criticized overseas comps for creating & enforcing the categories of Japanoise. Mikawa argued that japanese noise was presented to foreign audiences as a landscape of radical incommensurability, which forced Noisicians to define themselves against an Orientalist projection.

His examples are the covers of Extreme Music From Japan, Land of the Rising Noise, and Come Again II,. Many of the Japanese performers on these compilations were frustrated and disturbed by the artwork chosen to represent the Japanese Noise scene. Shocking images of sexual bondage and physical violence were used on the covers of several early recordings by Japanese Noise artists in the 1980s. Primarily Merzbow. Most famously on his Music for Bondage Performance cd. Associations with deviant sex quickly became an important part of overseas knowledge about Japanese Noise. Especially in the 1990s, as hentai filtered into underground media circulation such as the Urutsukidoji series.

Noise Artists North America began to use images inspired by Merzbow,often borrowing from Japnese pornography {..}

"japanoise became a mirror ball of distorted perspectives that could only reflect the projections of an outsider back into their own view"-Novak
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"It wouldn't be totally irrelevant to say that the bias that is preoccupying the producers is encapsulated in these images. That Noise should remind us of some sort of torture;and then that being exposed to these sounds transforms torture into pleasure-and then that idea is related to these images that evoke torture victims; then it goes without saying that beyond the diversity of the works included the images add a framework to these compilations which takes power over the minds of their buyers. This distorted perception of Noise was mapped onto its creative sources as Japanese artists were forced to define themselves in relation to a Japanese noise scene. then changed their work to avoid being categorized under those terms.

Regardless of whetber one accepts these visual choices or is disgusted by them, the use of these images has affected the minds of the individual artists on these albums.{..} so now what has been represented as japanese noise at first by exaggeration based on the lack of sufficent information in the early period,then labeled with attributes that summarized the group from the distant perspective of overseas reception and then represented by the glut of information in later periods-is forced to define itself"

-Mikawa



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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7 by Kyle Nonneman

Monday, August 1, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 7

 

ANTINATALIST RANT INSPIRED BY THE FILM :
I SMILE BACK

(AKA I SAW YOUR MOMMY!)

STARRING SARAH SILVERMAN

This film is a lot like Possession minus the tentacle monster sex.. Watch this fucking movie if you ever wanted to fully understand the lyrics to Berkertex Bribe by Crass..Its a brutally honest film about motherhood thats as cute&cuddly as Trevor Browns paintings & Spiegelman's Maus comix and moving as the classic novelization of the Hedda Nussenbaum case Susan Brownmiller wrote.

In the grand Plathian feminist horror tradition of films like Boxing Helena, It lives Again, Frances,& Ciao! Manhattan .The perfect film for those who use well read copies of the Scum Manifesto to wipe up the semen when there done jerking off to those Law & Order Svu episodes where Mariska Hartigay becomes a victim and gets bound and gagged..for those who want to wallow in all that degradation,

This film takes the downward spiral hinted at in films like Smithereens to a level closer to the heart... Its like Kathy Acker coldly dissecting the lies told by common chick flicks and showing the cold ugly reality of life in this society for what it truly is.

It brings to mind the lyrics Stevie Nick's Gold Dust Woman as much as it does various Jarboe fronted Swans songs..A nihilistic argument for antinatalism and a reminder of how fucking worthless our existence is wrapped loosely in the sheep's clothing of a Lifetime original film saved by the female lead showing us all her wounds..Watching her slow inexorable demise..

The demise all too familar to those who have sat in dilapidated motel rooms, listening to former house wives turned meth whores rant about how they're a good mommy and if it wasn't for this or that sick motherfucker doing this to her. She loves her kids.. Till you shut her up by handing her a pipe or shoving another cock down her throat.You let procreating the human species become your fucking purpose in life and find meaning in the love of your parasitic offspring, you deserve what the fuck you get..

A lot of people will look at this film as if the female protagonist is a martyr and a victim of a cruel misogynist conspiracy..Shocked and appalled to the point in which they have to simply find someone to blame for what happens, other than the mommy character of course or the cold relative chaotic nature of the universe or the cruelty intrinsic to human nature....

That's as hard to swallow as a shit & blood-stained cock fresh from a cheating housewife's rectum.(A tighter alternative to her blown-out birth hole) So in misandrist tradition they blame the men in the film.Which isn't what happens.

She creates her own hells through her own actions.. Pure and simple.My ex- tried to tell me she loved children, she beat and starved our newborn son, was given many treatment opportunities, fucked it all off to get high. She tried to relapse on crystal meth in a motel room off interstate in Portland. Using the same shit again that caused her to lose her kids in the first place. Don't pretend to be something your not. She didn't love her fucking kids , they were just a way to make people feel sorry for her and overlook her drug addiction, wearing the crown of victimhood upon her head.

It wasn't enough to fuck up her own life, no she had to bring others into this world and fuck their lives up along with her own. No one is innocent.

If you're a sick fuck, you'll also find some decent clips in this film to jerk off to . you can politicize onanist depravity by directing your attention to something not meant to be used in that fashion. Its forbidden. As a result, its more attractive ...I SMILE BACK.....(through feces clotted with blood. Mistakes & failures desecrating the venerable sanctity of family life and honest morality...).

This film is based on a book."feminist" fiction tends to be more honest than prose. Like Dworkin's novel Ice & Fire, a long out of print tale written in a deliberate and admitted pastiche of Henry Miller & Genet's style and themes, Dworkin's novel goes into her Electra complexed ambivalence towards rape and explores her daddy/daughter incest fantasies and BDSM proclivities. In that novel, Dworkin shows a lot of skeletons in her closet and got too autobiographical and honest.

Her later non fiction prose was designed as self therapy to shove those skeletons back in the closest and build a wall of denial around the harsh realities of what she really desired and wanted in life. Reminding me of the attacks porn stars voice at feminists, porn stars label them jealous self loathing misogynists, trying to demonize and victimize the pretty successful girls who can come out and be women, and explore and express their sexual nature with pride and honor not shame. A lot of this is the pouting of sore losers that are fucked up in the head and can't handle reality , so they try to reinvent everyone else's reality to try and pander to their own mental disease.

I SMILE BACK...
(LOOK BACK&LAUGH)
(BECAUSE ITS ALL A FUCKING SICK JOKE).
YUM YAB....!


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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6 by Kyle Nonneman

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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 6

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE


IN HONOR OF FAUST'S RELEASE FROM PRISON: HELNORSK SVARTMETALL

"WE WANT THE FREEDOM NOT OF HERDS,BUT OF DUTY, WE HATE THE PROPAGANDA OF EQUALITY. STRUGGLE IS THE FATHER OF ALL THINGS . EQUALITY IS DEATH"-SEBOTTENDORFF
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"IT IS ONLY IN THE ENTHUSIASM OF DESTRUCTION THAT THE MEANING OF DIVINE CREATION IS REVEALED. IT IS ONLY IN THE MIDST OF DEATH THAT ETERNAL LIFE FLARES UP"-SCHLEGEL
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"METAL IS A ROMP THROUGH THE BACKROOM AT SPENCERS FOR DWEEBS LIKE THIS AND I WISH THEIR CAREERS WOULD FOLLOW FAUST OUT TO THE WOODS FOR FREE CANDY"
"BLACK METAL IS FOUNDED BY SOCIOPATHS. YOU DONT GET TO PICK AND CHOOSE WHEN THE NOVELTY OF DEATH APPEALS TO YOU"
--MIKE SHEA  (CODEX OBSCURUM #9)
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"I SMUGLY STUCK TO THE POSITION THAT I WOULDN'T LISTEN TO NAZIS' MUSIC BECAUSE IT WAS SHIT ANYWAY. THE PRODUCT OF IDIOTIC SKINHEADS WHO COULD BARELY STRING TWO CHORDS TOGETHER.BUT THIS WAS CONFOUNDED BY INQUISITION'S TECHNICALLY ADEPT, WELL WRITTEN AND WELL RECORDED OUTPUT. I HAD BEEN SIMPLIFYING REALITY TO FIT MY OWN PRECONCEPTIONS"-shamelessnavelgazing.wordpress.com (Inquisition and black metal's fascism problem)
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"DEATH AND DESTRUCTION ARE NECESSARY TO THE HEALTH OF THE WORLD, AND THEREFORE AS NATURAL AND LOVABLE AS BIRTH AND LIFE. ONLY PRIESTS AND BORN COWARDS MOAN AND WEEP OVER DYING"-RAGNAR REDBEARD
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I dont give a shit about followers of christ's safety, i openly advocate and promote "Ideologies that call for their destruction".You want a safe space to be a fucking sheep then go back to listening to Vengeance Rising.

Vh1 sponsored major label mouthpiece and undercover PMRC operative Zack Sigel has taken it upon himself to try and force his christian beliefs onto the black metal underground. Zack Sigel has started an internet only campaign sponsored by vh1&the new PMRC to protest the highly exalted status of Faust, the drummer from Emperor who was just released from prison for murder. Sigel is a poser and a christian he's not part of the underground. His opinion means shit. His kind are the fucking enemy. Period. The thoughts of his kind stand as yet another example of why the human race needs to just simply be exterminated. Zack Sigel is just untermenschen.

Faust earned his place in the underground, he put alot of actual work in. Faust was also courageous enough to take the life of another human being. You frequently see posers saying Faust's murder was motivated by homophobia. The fact is these poser's have perception bias. They are prey animals. So they are unable to comprehend the actions and motivations of a predator. To compensate for their inability to see things from the perspective of a wolf, these sheep simply debase the situation down to a level they can understand with their lesser minds.Unable to understand social darwininism, natural selection and the predator/prey relationship, they just ignorantly jump to the conclusion that it was a homophobic murder motivated by a prejudical fear of homosexuals.That's a motive their kind can understand & directly relate to, of course. Since like homophobes, they're frightened of anything they dont understand and fear the unknown. .Whereas true satanists and misanthropes embrace death and the endless depths, facing the unknown to achive a higher knowledge and understanding of the world then the sheep who live in denial. Their cowardice is further proven by the fact that they won't do anything but talk shit online. never in person.

When you go to a restaurant, you order cooked steak,the menu says steak. It doesn't say bloody piece of flesh cut from a screaming cow. Our civilized society has wilfully been put into a state of submission . Very few people hunt for what they eat. Instead they dissociate themselves from what they are . Humans are predators. Now that were safe at the top of the food chain, A lot of people are becoming domesticated and weak, to the point that they openly advocate sacrificing what little value we even have as a species to act like a prey animal. This has ugly consequences. Various feminists have advanced the proven theory that since humans, unlike every other mammal, decline to eat the afterbirth of their young, this unrequited biological imperative results in postpartum depression which leads many mothers to kill their children rather then do something as unchristian as eat the placenta.
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