Apopthelema Entry Supplemental by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry Supplemental
by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Most clothing,furniture,boots etc used by the u.s. government and in particular the military is manufactured by inmates in federal prisons by Unicor. So if an individual is wearing military issue combat boots made by prison labor to make a subversive countercultural fashion statement, the situationist method of detournment etc, that's more punk rock and metal then Converse.

Converse is the official shoe of the p.c. scene police. Unicor workers make a few hundred a month, so its not "slave labor" Inmates get shitty jobs for $20-$50 a month. Converse is owned by Nike. Nike supported the Measure Eleven Mandatory Minimum sentencing initiative.

This gave first time criminals and career fuckups the same sentences and eliminated good time as well as parole. No time off for good behavior. Nike also sells all their defective shoes to inmates at full price. Also Nike was part of the WTO, the Black Bloc anarchists have fought against for a long fucking time. In addition Nike /Converse followed in the footsteps of Toyota Scion and started sponsoring various punk,hardcore and metal bands by fronting cover costs for shows and covering studio costs. Maximum Rocknroll called out the bands who sold their souls to Converse as traitors and sell outs.

Despite these well known fact, you still have hordes of self righteous p.c. assholes stomping around wearing Converse.

If you look at the facts , what the fuck is worse ?

A DIY HOME SCREEN-PRINTED DEATH IN JUNE SHIRT,  A DIY HOMEMADE PATCH FOR A SKETCHY UNDERGROUND METAL BAND ,
OR A PAIR OF SHOES MANUFACTURED BY NIKE, TURNING YOU INTO A WALKING FUCKING ADVERTISEMENT FOR NIKE AND ALL THE SHIT THAT NIKE STANDS FOR?

You got hordes of PC Scene-police using their liberal commie politics to justify their own fascism and the march like jackbooted nazis burning Death in June records like the nazis burned semitic books. And smashing tour vans & record stores like the nazis smashed Jewish businesses during Kristallnacht.

If you're wearing Converse you're supporting Nike.

Wearing Converse makes you a bigger piece of shit than wearing a Blood Axis patch.
But it's been obvious to a lot of people for a long time how basely hypocritical the p.c. scene police are. So this is nothing new.

YOU GOT LAMES WEARING SHOES THAT ADVERTISE A CORRUPT CORPORATION THAT SPONSORS MASS INCARCERATION AND THE WTO AND ACTIVLEY TRYS TO INVADE THE UNDERGROUND AND USE PUNK AND HARDCORE BANDS TO FURTHER THEIR AGENDA,

PROTESTING AGAINST GAY NEOFOLK BANDS AND SKETCHY METAL BANDS BECAUSE OF SOME LARGELY MANUFACTURED CONSPIRACY THEORY THAT THEY'RE TRYING TO CORRUPT THE UNDERGROUND AND TURN KIDS INTO NAZIS OR WHATEVER THE FUCK.

WITH CONVERSE IT'S NOT DEBATABLE,
WITH CONVERSE IT'S NOT A CONSPIRACY THEORY .
WITH CONVERSE YOU HAVE HARD EMPIRICAL EVIDENCE THAT CONVERSE IS OWNED BY NIKE AND A CORRUPT CORPORATION.

SO WHY IS WHAT'S OBVIOUSLY THE GREATER OF TWO EVILS CONSIDERED POLITICALLY CORRECT AND THE LESSER OF TWO EVILS MET WITH VIOLENT PROTEST?


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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

Wednesday, March 6, 2017

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 5 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 5by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

REMEMBER KIDS THE ONLY TRUE COCK ROCK HAIR METAL SONG IS WE FIGHT FOR COCK! 8==D~~~

Older butt rockers will pretend to give a shit about true metal and act like they have an understanding of what brutal means. But they don.t. They're butt rockers...( The only lower form of life in the underground than a butt rocker or a slipknot fan is people that listen to Horde Alive in Oslo, and anybody who actually saw Horde Alive in Oslo should be shot in the fucking face. Also anybody who supports the band Sorrowstrom , needs to fucking die in manner reminiscent of Broken Hope lyrics. People who support Sorrowstorm and Horde two of the most false bands ever, are the only lifeforms in the metal scene more deserving of death than buttrockers and Slipknot fans)

The combination of spandex, hairspray, and backstage sex with underage girls still going through puberty in conjunction with the excessive use of drugs and alcohol has a lot of adverse effects upon butt rockers. They become deranged and turn into faux transvestite vampires, feeding off the blood of little boys. This happened to the drummer for Judas Priest who went on to become a carrer pedophile, as well as the drummer for Journey who is also in prison for touching kids. The plague of direct action statements made by the Norwegian black metal scene is widely hyped and publicized to take the heat off the wave of vampire faux transvestite pedophilia associated with hair metal.

Spontaneous human combustion is also a side effect of hair metal. This is what happened to Great White/White Snake, whatever that lame band was called. Going up in flames and leaving behind a bunch of crispy butt rockers burned alive in their spandex, flesh melted off their skulls when their mullet curl activator boiled their brains inside their skulls, is the only brutal metal ever put out by butt rockers.

The criticisms of true metal expressed by fans of false metal and butt rockers are as invalid and wrong as a pedophiles views on the attractiveness of adult females.

False butt rockers are also vastly similar to pedophiles, since most pedophiles are attracted to children because they're immature mentally and/or physically and due to these deficiencies are scared of and turned off by adult women-- similar to a butt rocker's response to true metal. The weird thing about it is most butt rockers know the shit they listen to sucks and they don't really have a scene to contribute to, their subculture doesn't extend that far beyond going to the mall and buying the latest hit record by the current trendy major label butt rock act. Its a consumer capitalist genre, that just requires you to buy corporate products. It's not a movement. It's just entertainment and empty escapism . That's all.

The shit is so fucking lame it scares Freddy Krueger away, Watch the Dokken dream warriors video.
The people who listen to it still support it because their slaves of corporate sponsored popular culture.
Butt rockers like to pose and pretend to be real metal heads because even they know the music they support is weak false shit.

I guess they're unable to stop listening to false shit even though they know how much it sucks, like a self loathing child molester pretending to love adult women to cover up what he knows is a sick and vile urge.

Recently I encountered a butt rocker who boasted about being an old school metalhead. Said he's been listening to it since the eighties. But he then said he likes modern metal like Nickelback and when I played him iconic classics from the eighties, he didn't know what was playing. I played him Into Crypts Of Rays, Satan's Curse, Return of Darkness and Evil. He didn't recognize any of the songs, despite being a self professed old school metal head that's been listening to metal since the eighties.

Then he complained ignorantly about recording quality,indistinguishable lyrics, and said his ears hurt after 3 songs. If you cant handle metal and love butt rock, claim it, don't make excuses. Tell everybody you love cartoon cross-dressing child molesting hairspray and spandex shit with clean family friendly lyrics.

And if the shit you love to listen to regularly sucks so much ass you gotta make excuses for listening to it and have to lie and pretend that you know about good music and try to falsely claim an appreciation of true metal, then maybe you're fucked up in the head and living in denial of how pathetic you are like a pedophile. And should just smash your stryper vinyl and slit your wrists while you hang yourself with your official Brett Michaels sex tape.

All butt rockers need to just kill themselves.

Death to False Metal!

(I BRING UP THE TRANSVESTITE ASPECT OF BUTT ROCK/HAIR METAL TO EMPHASISE HOW THE FASHION OF THE MUSIC CLASHES WITH THE MEATHEAD HOMOPHOBIC JOCK MINDSET OF ITS AUDIENCE AND TO ILLUSTRATE HOW HAIR METAL ALSO REINFORCES NEGATIVE STEREOTYPES OF TRANSGENDER INDIVIDUALS. )
       

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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

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"HAVE YOU NEVER NOTICED THAT MEN ARE AT THEIR BEST WHEN THEY HAVE ONLY A LIMITED AMOUNT OF FREEDOM? THEN THEY FIGHT AND STRUGGLE FOR MORE. WHEN DO YOU MAKE YOUR GREATEST EFFORTS--WHEN YOU HAVE TO STRUGGLE FOR WHAT YOU WANT, OR WHEN YOU ARE FREE TO DO EXACTLY AS YOU LIKE? IF MEN ARE SUDDENLY PRESENTED WITH TOO MUCH FREEDOM THEY FEEL CONFUSED AND LOSE THEIR SENSE OF PURPOSE"
-COLIN WILSON
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"I'M A SHOCK TROOPER IN A STUPOR/YES I AM/I'M A NAZI SCHATZE YOU KNOW/I FIGHT FOR FATHERLAND"-RAMONES (TODAY YOUR LOVE,TOMORROW THE WORLD (ORIGINAL UNCENSORED VERSION))
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"GOD BLESS PRESIDENT BUSH&GOD BLESS AMERICA"-RAMONES (ROCK&ROLL HALL OF FAME ACCEPTANCE SPEECH)

Its funny I'm accused of being a nazi, yet there are distros in Israel selling my releases on discogs.com.. In Israel, the Kiss logo is censored because it allegedly promotes anti-semitism. That's
almost as funny as when Prurient got stopped at the border on tour and had his merch and equipment confiscated because customs thought he was promoting hate crimes.

It's a sad anecdote cited in zines when government officials do it, but it's a celebrated act when the scene police do it...Recently the P.M.R.R.C scene police in another act of blatant Mcarthyism attempted to bring back the Hollywood black listing of the dark ages....The witch hunting that resulted in a lot of great writers being unable to get their work out,  due to censorship and government fascism, has now been reinvented in a campaign to censor discogs.com .

Discogs.com was a way for independent distros and labels to sell releases outside the corporate controlled infrastructure of Amazon and Ebay . Now it's being screened for content by Crimethinc Mccarthyists.... Discogs has removed a lot of releases by Tesco, including a lot of Genocide Organ releases. You study Genocide Organ their clearly fucking nihilistic anarchists satirizing fascism. Why else would a European act do songs about white power racism in the United States? If you look up the names of the members of Genocide Organ you'll see clear references to German anarchists. You can subvert control systems by taking the symbols and methods of control as your own and disseminating them ...Hence the military surplus aspect of subculture fashion.This is part of why pop punk,Kiss and hip hop are so mainstream.When you popularize a cartoon version of something, it disarms the real thing as a whole because the two become indistinguishable in the eyes of the masses.

Gangsta rap was a threat to white America and struck fear in the hearts of the caucasian establishment.The government knew that banning it and talking about how dangerous it was would just serve to promote it and make it more of a threat, likeKent State made the draft resistance movement more militant.

So major labels started releasing it en mass and distributing rap music worldwide. So now rap music is so fucking mainstream and assimilated into pop culture it doesn't mean shit anymore. It's just cartoon bubblegum radio friendly shit .

The same thing was done with punk rock. And before that Kiss. Why do you think Kiss was so heavily promoted and merchandised?

But in the case of Power Electronics, Neofolk, Black Metal and other 'sketchy' strains of music you can't make that type of material mainstream. So they try to suppress it by getting it blacklisted from discogs.com . Which just makes it more underground and forbidden .By driving it further underground and forbidden, you're just adding value to it. Now its more subversive and outside of the mainstream.

Bataille wrote a lot on how when the church tries to ban and suppress something it inadvertently gives it a value it didn't have previously. Not to mention in terms of record prices, This type of material is now harder to obtain and locate .So it will in all likelihood jump in price.Since you can't simply do a convenient paypal transaction. You in some cases have to go back to obtaining it through mailorder distros and zines like you did before the internet.This also means a lot of acts aren't going to casually latch onto this trend and attempt to use this type of imagery and sound unless they're really fucking serious about it. Because now if you transgress beyond the confines of what's accepted by the Scene Police your releases end up blacklisted. But historically that didn't stop anybody.

Dalton Trumbo still won awards for his scripts. In addition to being just like the red scare, it's also similar to how skinhead prison gangs check paperwork and charge pedophiles extortion money for having bad charges. What's allegedly a lofty act of justified vigilantism ends up just being an excuse for jockish meatheads that can't function outside of a cage to exercise power over weaker individuals. In most cases, they manufacture rumors about what an individual's charges are. Just like punks are doing now. Fuckin base hypocrisy at its finest.

So fuck censorship and fuck discogs.com and fuck your politics.. and fuck the Kiss army.

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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

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Lovecraft distilled the gothic elements from gothic romance and discarded the rest of it. Just like he took all the bleakest and most horrifying elements of supernatural literature and isolated those core images and filtered it through his misanthropic anti natalist nihilism known as cosmicism. Lovecraft's work had almost no characterization. Let alone anything remotely human for readers to relate to. It transgressed all that and spitefully refused to pander to simple minded readers who needed a linear narrative and character development to sugarcoat the horror of his work. In his refusal to pander to accepted standards of what proper writing is supposed to be his work was all the more powerful and disturbing as a result.

Lovecraft's imagery was also at times vague and subjective. Prompting the readers to fill in the blanks with images from their own psyche. As a result Lovecraft was able to coerce readers through understated details to imagine personalized visions of hellish nightmares from their own minds and this as a result made Lovecraft's work more powerful then overly descriptive formulaic writers who gave readers clean precise descriptions. Like Lovecraft removed the romance from Gothic Romance, alot of extreme metal took all the pop and rock elements out of thrash and heavy metal and even stripped out most of the blues influences. Leaving by a cold monstrous sound of pure evil. This was taken to an even further extreme by power electronics and noise artists carrying on what true industrial stood for before it became associated with raver trash dance music and false mall metal with keyboards.

In what is in effect the auditory equivalent of Lovecraft's prose.

As a result weak minded sheeple can't handle it. They try to disarm their revulsion and claim to appreciate some metal , but they can't handle true metal, metal refined and distilled down to its brutal core of pure evil. Remorselessly and unrelentingly dissociated from anything remotely relatable to the common mass of mankind.

Something the common cattle can't even decipher. They will claim that its too loud,too distorted, the lyrics are just screaming, or cry about the unintelligible lyrics that they simply can't understand.
It;s interesting cattle accustomed to pop music will typically say similar things about jazz. You play jazz for a lot of sheep they will complain about the lack of vocals and the timings they can't follow.

But these aren't valid criticisms .It's like an illiterate crackhead giving a book a bad review because the words were too advanced for his reading level. Or a child criticizing a gourmet dinner because theirs no sugar in it and he just wants to eat candy... Or a toothless senile old man complaining about food being too hard to chew. Their suggestions to make the music they disapprove of more acceptable to their palettes are all centered around debasing down to the level they can understand. Making things safe for everyone. Weakening it and sugarcoating it for civilians.

This is the tyranny of the masses in action and the type of forced equality that destroys individualism like what Vonnegut was satirizing in Welcome To The Monkeyhouse. They're also completely blind and ignorant to the passion and the energy behind the music.

John Shirley wrote a great description of live Punk Rock in his cult cyberpunk science fiction classic 'City Come-A-walking'. He said the fact that the lyrics were indecipherable and unintelligible didn't matter because the sheer passion and energy behind the performance overcompensated for all of that.

But they dont get that. They're actually, in a lot of cases, frightened of music with actual emotion and feeling behind it. Buying instead releases from shock acts whose extreme lyrics are actually just a misunderstood metaphor for something acceptable and politically correct. Preferring dead clean sterile remastered studio versions of radio hits over live bootleg deep cuts where the band is actually taking their mask off.

You listen to the live Joy Division material, is raw,violent, and distorted. Ian Curtis' voice cracks and becomes frantic . The fluctuations in volume heighten the delivery. It's the sound of Curtis bearing his soul to the crowd and letting his emotions bleed through the microphone. In the last years of his life before he committed suicide The Martin Hannet production material is cold and definitive but it also tones down and censors a lot of what Curtis was trying to convey.

On album Black Sabbath's heaviness doesn't reach the level of modern acts like Electric Wizard.
Sabbath's Live at Asbury Park New Jersey bootleg from the seventies is as essential as Paranoid. Its Sabbath live in the flesh with all the proto-metal doom conveyed in a more heavy context due to the mafia produced boardmix that isn't cleaned up and post processed by major label hired gun studio exec engineers for proper radio airplay.

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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Wednesday, January 11, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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"I don't think Sotos' work needs to be upgraded or explicated by anyone,me included, and i think its inability to present the details and factors and signals that would facilitate an argument for its value as literature is one of the reasons it's among the most important writing being done today. It is scary, intense, ugly, honest, original, problematic, profoundly challenging stuff. It's also highly intelligent,refined and kind of a masterful example of writing at its most rendered and self investigating. All the more so because it's art refuses to give an inch to readers who need something conventionally beautiful,however offbeat to justify a book's assault."-Dennis Cooper

"These contemporary court artists, like many of past centuries, smugly pretend to spit in the eye of the exploiters while allowing themselves to be pampered,de-loused and when they arn't looking declawed.

The majority of these art and rock magazine styled rebels are playing out rebellion psychodramas to package and merchandise to consumerist sycophants. This strategy is the simulacra of terrorism: The content seizes in the frozen attitudinizing of pose and goes no further.

We must look to the true outsiders and not the would-be insiders for an artist truly capable of effective counter-terror against the insidious mantras of consumerist brainwash. Terror means a threat, and the outsider's version of Aesthetic Terrorism belongs to those performances or arrangements of words and pictures to unleash the reactionary impulses of police and bourgeois artist/critic alike . The kind of art that evokes this wrath,fear, and condemnation rejoices in the pagan spirit of schadenfreude which controverts the humanist piety of "enlightened victim". Anti-social sadisim rarely recives patronage, however. Outside the corrupting realm of societal handouts ,the Aesthetic Terrorist is the last bastion of aesthetic purity"-Adam Parfrey

I was recently accused of being close-minded and elitist. Allegedly my views don't allow for any dissension and this put me on the level of an ignorant fascist. This came from an individual who when asked about punk, brings up the eighties and name drops brand name acts that have little relevancy to the underground such as The Clash and Violent Femmes. Then, he prattles on about only caring about music and not giving a shit about the politics and the subculture. Which of course means they're simply a consumer who sees music as a consumer product to be purchased and consumed as a disposable form of entertainment. Not a lifestyle,not an identity, . Not a weapon of Aesthetic

Terrorism to fight against this world of shit and take back what they took away. No to them its just entertainment and a product.

They have no comprehension whatsoever of what lies beneath the pedestrian abyss of radio-friendly pop music. So when someone willfully chooses to sequester themselves from pop culture and sever their mass media feeder tube, consumer sheep will look at you like you're a fucking freak and close-minded. Because they don't know what your mind is open to. They don't know what exists beyond the simpleminded civilian shit played on television and radio. They're content with happy packaged sounds sold to their market demographic.

A sad fact is a lot of people who make ignorant claims of being open-minded and liking everything, are just conformist yes-men, afraid to step out of the herd and form a strong opinion about anything..
They're pop culture rape victims. Fucked so hard by pop culture they are too beaten and ashamed to take a stand on anything .

They're safe within their tiny fucking box and they don't color outside the lines, and they think this is being open minded.

They don't know a fucking thing about underground music yet they boast about their open-minded appreciation of all different styles of music.

In reality they just like all the different flavors of bubblegum sold to them .

It's as ignorant as saying you're a worldly eater and appreciate all different kinds of foods simply because you eat at all the different chain vendors in the food court at the mall ..... But never actually go to a restaurant or cook your own meals, let alone invent your own recipes...

These centroclines aren't fucking open-minded let alone appreciative of different kinds of music. No they're just sheep chained to a mass media feeder tube trying to put a dignified spin on their base ignorance.

Bubblegum is a sugary chemical substance mass produced in a factory. Giving you a short burst of sweetness before turning into a lifeless mass of rubber you can't swallow because it's indigestible and contains no nutrients. So you have to spit it into the gutter. Where it becomes litter...

So as such BubbleGum pop is an apt term for the shit they identify with. As the bovine herd conformists and peer pressure zombies that they are.

Like Ian Brady said, Individuality should be the highest value not servile social assimilation...


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Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman

Apopthelema Entry 6 Part 1 by Kyle Nonneman
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POSTED Friday, Dec 16, 2016

ZARDOZ SPEAKS TO YOU~~~!!!!!!!!!!

"NO ONE CAN STAND KNOWING THEY'RE ARTIFICIAL"-World On A Wire

There's an old science fiction tale where a guy wishes that everyone was equal and his wishes is granted when all of humanity turns into flat gray mindless robots.

When you look at the problem of government subjugation as a separatist issue only affecting natives, then people reading books like In the Spirit of Crazy Horse, can say well it doesn't effect me because I'm not native. That's why when Ward Churchill wrote about the Peltier setup in Agents of Repression, he also exposed how the FBI's Cointelpro program targeted the freedoms of other people not just AIM.  

It's harder to dissociate yourself from those facts. You look at the ending to Indian Killer By Sherman Alexie, its subjective who the killer actually is and who's at fault. So is the subject of whether or not these crimes were justified acts or atrocity. Similar to how with Peltier, you have people who think it was righteous and justified to kill those FBI agents and admire him for that . And you also have people who admire and support Peltier because they see him as a political prisoner and a martyred symbol of government corruption. That duality has helped to immortalize his plight.

Sherman Alexie frequently in his novel Indian Killer attacks false Indians, whites who try to pose and pretend to be native for various reasons. Even going so far as to discriminate against and fight with real natives in a sustained and concentrated to prove they're not white. Its fucking pathetic. If you hate your race and your culture so much that the only way you can deal with your self-loathing is to pose and pretend to be something you're not and never will be, then you need to deal with your neurotic self contempt , instead of building up a delusion around yourself.

You see beatniks and hippies attracted to black culture and fetishize it. This was done in rebellion against the racist white mainstream society of the time. 

Now you see white kids attracted to black culture because its so assimilated into mainstream pop culture and in fashion. This was done in response to major labels giving all these black rappers record contract and tv shows to defang a subversive element of black culture that was a threat to the white status quo.


There's nothing at all subversive or even slightly edgy about some white kid trying to rebel by pretending to be black anymore. It was pathetic and lame in the 50s and 60s and now its even more pathetic because there's no fucking political statement or risk involved, no you're just going with the fashion and conforming to trend.

Then you also have the racism by proxy found in the all the trailer trash inbred whites that come to prison and pretend to be black or make up stupid inane stories about having minute trace amounts of native american blood in them. Because they do nothing and accomplish nothing with their pathetic lives and they don't ever get anywhere in life and if you're privileged and white and living in filth and poverty , then you either have to drag yourself up and better yourself , or your embrace redneck ideologies that scapegoat responsibility for your failures onto racist conspiracy theories or you become a race traitor and simply pretend to be black,native or whatever. Because then it's somehow glamorous to be a failure living in the gutter in poverty, more natural and typical. 

Then you can look at the pathetic wreckage of your life and feel like a martyred victim not a casualty of your own stupidity. Then you feel its ok to hustle welfare programs with your pretend minority status to fraudulently gain assistance normally reserved for people actually in need. Their way of pretending to be of another race usually involves acting out the cliche cartoon stereotypes of that culture , like a juvenille devil worshipper that knows nothing about true satanism so he imitates christian propaganda about satanism he saw in hollywood horror films.

You also kill two birds with one stone , because this also becomes a convenient way to deal with the collective guilt of being white. People need to face the harsh realities of their existence and not try to pretend to understand the senseless chaotic horrors of this world. We are forever bound in ruin to the uselessness of this world. The fact remains peace and understanding between races isn't ever going to be fucking possible. 

Diversity is forever the enemy of equality. Equality, and mixing of cultures and making the secrets and traditions of every culture public knowledge, doesn't make the world a better place, it just cheapens everything and devalues it into a common mass of hive minded mediocrity. obscurity needs to be cultivated. Some things should remain secret.

REMEMBER THE PARADOX OF SOLLIPISM, NO ONE CAN EVER TRULY UNDERSTAND ANYONE FULLY NOT EVEN THEMSELVES.

DEDICATED TO FRED STILLER (RIP?)

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Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Apopthelema Entry 5 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

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POSTED Monday, Oct 9, 2016

(A EULOGY FOR RIO VANCE)
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"PENETRATION/SACRIFICE&MURDER. PLACE NO LIMIT ON ACTION. THEY ARE THE FULLEST REALIZATION OF THOUGHT&SENSATION SEVERED FROM CONSEQUENCES. DENYING ALL POSSIBILITY OF SURVIVAL. DECISIVE. YET TORN BY CONFLICT. THEY INDICATE A POINT AT WHICH DELIBERATE TRANSGRESSION GIVES WAY TO THE CONDITION OF ABSOLUTE FREEDOM"-HOLLINGS

Most people who read Full Force Frank's zines in the 1990s, did so because it was a trainwreck atrocity exhibition, they were insidiously waiting for Frank to act on the various actions he alluded to in his polemic rants. When nothing ever came of it and he disappeared, a lot of his fanbase was disappointed that he didn't follow through and lost respect for Frank. This is the 'Society of the Spectacle' and Frank never gave us the spectacle he promised..Talk minus action equals nothing..

But if Full Force Frank had followed through, his actions wouldn't have been solely motivated by a personal vendetta against the world, He would have also been giving fan service to his cult audience, which corrupts the beauty of the act. What I'm going to do has nothing to do with proving myself to anyone or providing fan service or proving a point to anyone. It will inevitably end in wreckage, unless in the next nine years her self destructive impulses don't beat me to it and she unfortunately finishes without me...

Rio Vance has for years done nothing but live homeless,in the gutter. Trading on the fantasies of lonely men to purchase the drugs that kill the pain of an outside world that she cant function in. In between the forced detoxes that result from whatever silly shit she got arrested for recently, she pretends to be clean & sober. She will prattle about turning her life around & doing something with it, becoming an artist. Working on her music.

She was assaulted recently because she asked for it. Being assaulted is something that validates her existence. She loves being a victim, being able to scapegoat responsibility for her actions and leech pity from people too blinded by her manipulation to see beneath the mask. Rio is exactly like the star of the film SMITHEREENS.The one with Richard Hell. I bought her a USB Audio interface so she could record her music. But she was always too high to record any music. Which is pretty pathetic considering even GG Allin managed to record his music...But GG Allin was more responsible.

Closest Rio ever came to being a musician was singing for crack money with an acoustic guitar. She has a lot of talent and intelligence but she chooses to be trash. A lot of drug addicts and prostitutes lack the ability to rise above their position in the gutter. They're too far gone to be saved. Its tragic when you see a great mind like hers destroy itself being a whore. This makes her all the more pathetic and worse than a common addict. Because she made a conscious decision to become trash and live this lifestyle of despair. She isn't the victim of determinism. All the abuse and degradation she suffered is either manufactured to get sympathy or simply the inevitable end result of the poor decisions she has always made in her life. Bottom line is She Knows Better. So she asked for it.

She continuously trys to contact me and to whip me again into submission but she never says she's sorry or apolgises for all the ways shes hurt and abandoned me over the years. She enjoys tormenting and abusing me its as simple as that. I enjoy being abused by women but in her case, there's never any reward given to the obedient slave no matter how obedient he is to his mistress. I hate how pathetic she made me. I hate how blinded I was to how depraved and heartless she has always been to me. I'm still pathetic. If she asked , I'd come crawling back. This 'Hypogirl' still has power over my heart.

I realize now-- at this point-- that she is a monster. So there is only one way I can move on from this.....Directing this violence inward at myself, just gives her more control. Channeling this by proxy into music is weak to me . why jerk off when you can just fuck something? I feel that the inevitable action Ii must take, is the only way to achieve closure and validate my existence, enabling me to die without regrets having accomplished something of great importance.

"YOU WERE WRONG TO RESIST ME/I WAS WRONG TO FORGIVE"-SWANS (Empathy)

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