Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 4

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE


"PROHIBITION GIVES WHAT IT PROSCRIBES A MEANING THAT IN ITSELF THE PROHIBITED ACTION NEVER HAD. A PROHIBITED ACT INVITES TRANSGRESSION,WITHOUT WHICH THE ACT WOULD NOT HAVE THE WICKED GLOW WHICH IS SO SEDUCTIVE.IN THE TRANSGRESSION OF THE PROHIBITION A SPELL IS CAST"-BATAILLE
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"WAS IT NOT LIKELY THAT ALL SELF DESTRUCTIVE IMPULSES WERE THE RESULT OF WITCHCRAFT? THOSE UNIVERSAL IMPULSES THAT WERE A DIRECT CONTRADICTION TO THE LAWS OF SELF PRESERVATION AND SURVIVAL. TO ACCOUNT FOR THEM, POE HAD FANCIFULLY CONCIVED AN "IMP OF THE PERVERSE" AND PSYCHOANALYISTS HAD LABORIOUSLY HYPOTHESIZED A "DEATH WISH" HOW MUCH SIMPLER TO ATTRIBUTE THEM TO MALIGN FORCES OUTSIDE THE INDIVIDUAL,WORKING BY MEANS AS YET UNANLYZED AND THEREFORE CLASSFIED AS SUPERNATURAL"-FRITZ LEIBER (CONJURE WIFE)
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Witchcraft is a convenient catchall term applied to give order to things ignorant folks dont understand. In Crowley's confessions as well as De Sade's Justine, there's a parable made as to the directly ill effects of christianity's doctrines ordering abstinence and suppression of natural human biological functions. Desires,Needs, and Impulses. These appetites when left unfulfilled creates a neurotic self contempt that leads individuals to aberrant acts of self destruction and willful debasement. Jeffrey Dahmer had a strong christian upbringing as a child so did Ed Gein. They were taught at an early age that they were evil and tainted in the eyes of god because of there homosexuality and doomed from the start .

This of course instilled in them an "Imp of the Perverse" essentially. Because instead of being raised to freely be themselves without hindrance, they were taught that it was wrong and evil. This led them to become desperate at concealment . Dahmer's acts were motivated by a desire to keep what he did secret. He couldnt perform unless the victim was unconscious.He tried to create zombies so he would have a partner that wouldn't leave him due to pathological abandonment issues. The attraction to alot of fetishes and paraphillias , comes from the thrill and rush of doing something forbidden and against the status quo. It is of course religion that gives them there forbidden taboo effect and thus goes the theological subjugation of humanity,making all these depraved fetishes so attractive and arousing.

Then they of course blame all this shit on witchcraft and Satanism. In an effort to not only scapegoat there own responsibility and culpability in the acts. But also provide there herd with a common enemy to rally against and frighten them into further submission. The idea of the Imp of the Perverse, is at its core another name for the Gnostic Demiurge. The Gnostic Demiurge is the term for the cosmic indifferent higher power as symbolized by Lovecraft's Ancient Ones. They're not so much working against us and promoting our self destruction as their just bluntly apathetic and indifferent to it. Because we mean nothing to them.

Look at Rio, she wont take her medication, so now the hiv virus is spreading to her brain and this invisible organism sees the tissues containing her memories, desires and dreams merely as a warm fertile place to breed and replicate itself. Conjure Wife is a funny and amusing novel. It somewhat satires the belief in the supernatural that at its core is just something fanciful humans manufactured as a psychological survival mechanism. So they can pretend that their bound in determinism to the whims of a higher power and not actually in control of their own actions.

This is of course appealling on a large scale because it frees people from responsibility and allows them to scapegoat all the damaging effects of their existence onto someone else. And of course some individuals do end up with a death wish and endup living there lives knowingly without a future .Its subjective as to wether thats a form of freedom or self destruction. Those enslaved by the rat race of conventional morality fail to comprehend that and are in some cases insidiously jealous of it so they act in accordance to their cognitive dissonance&perception bias.

"THEY WERE LIKE THE VISIONS CONJURED UP BY SOME FORBIDDEN DRUG. THEY HAD THE LURE OF AN UNKNOWN SIN AND AN ULTIMATE BLASPHEMY. NORMAN COULD UNDERSTAND THE FORCE THAT COMPELLED THE PRACTIONERS OF BLACK MAGIC TO TAKE ANY RISK"-LEIBER (CONJURE WIFE).



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Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part3

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2 by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]

Apopthelema Entry 3 Part 2

by Kyle Nonneman
or NOTHINGISTTRUE

APOPTHELEMA #3 
BY NOTHINGISTTRUE

"DID YOU EVER EXPERIENCE REAL BRUTALITY? OR DID YOU READ ABOUT IT ON THE LYRICS SHEETS? DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR WHAT YOUR FIGHTING FOR? OR ARE YOU JUST FUCKIN' BORED?"-WEEKEND NACHOS (S.C.A.B. from the STILL record)

Dickens had somewhat of an agenda, to make the masses aware of the cruel conditions in london's slums and make them aware of the plight of the disenfranchised . but he didn't go far enough in his fiction. Our modern post industrial society has further degenerated since that period.

With the Smoke Ghost, Leiber made that point. The Dickensian ghosts are dead and obsolete. Unable to enact any force in our world at this point. It also depicts a submission to the cosmic forces, as mankind inevitably bound in ruin. Unable to listen to reason or see reality for what it is. You have to accept the necessary evil and swallow it. Look at the ending to Leiber's Conjure Wife. Its not some "Last Exorcism" type formulaic hackwork where the skeptic non believer becomes a believer.

No. He acquiesces to his wife's lunacy and supernatural belif system for the same reason the protagonist of Smoke Ghosts bows before the ghost. For the same reasons Leiber himself, took the path of horror fiction after Hiroshima, Instead of writing luddite cautionary scifi about the evils of advanced technology .

Similarly a lot of Andrew Vachss work shines a mirror on the ugly side of humanity. He spits in the faces of those sheep looking for authentic crime fiction that's real, By giving them something so real it pretty much ceases to be escapist fiction and becomes a Ketchum-esque beast that fits the standards of aesthetic terrorism as much as it does those of the detective novel.

I like it because the characters are human and not simply cardboard cutouts going through the motions . I don't give a shit about authors that write crime fiction without having any actual experience with the subject matter beyond research and hollywood pandering to a reader demographic of fellow tourists and housewives that have also never lived near the gutter and seen beneath the mask, and beyond the veil.

Like Carpenter's film They Live. Its the difference between those who have put on the sunglasses and those who just go through the motions. Blindly ignorant of what humanity is really all about. Also a lot of these lesser crime fiction hacks are just mining the darkside of human nature in cheaply exploitative fashion in order to have fodder for a piece of cheap entertainment. Junkfood for the masses. Theirs no point in any of it. Its just shit, .

I've lived through those types of hells and there's no fucking tragic martyrdom to any of it. No misunderstood glory in it.. Iv lived with a hooker that shot crystal meth every day in front of me and told me all the war stories about her life on the street and why she did what she did. She wasn't forced into it or controlled. She openly admitted to being cheap and enjoyed the degradation. But of course humanity needs to compartmentalize there evils and have a scapegoat to make sense of the chaos, turn it into something routine. But that aint reality. She wasnt pimped out . Id give her money so she wouldn't have to trick and she would still go out and do it regardless. 

And there are people like myself who fuck there lives over trying to save people who don't want to be saved and then they wake up.. And give up and move on. Like i did with Rio. And the one before Rio. Id get put in jail on domestic violence, get released homeless with no financial support. So id have to go back to living with Angie. She'd burn me with cigarettes,bite me, We'd get drunk and get all fucked up, the only safe word was the trip to the e.r. And the common person on the street cant understand that shit. They think no would willingly live that way of their own free will. So we get demonized and no contact orders placed on us .By people who think they could fucking save us from ourselves. As if there was any fucking point at all to our existence.


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