Apopthelema Entry 7 END NOTES by Kyle Nonneman
[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.]
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!(THIS HOLIDAY SEASON WE NEED TO REFLECT UPON THE MEMORY! !OF THE GREAT LASZLO TOTH) !
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OH TANNENBAUM!:
!(THIS HOLIDAY SEASON WE NEED TO REFLECT UPON THE MEMORY! !OF THE GREAT LASZLO TOTH) !
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OH TANNENBAUM!:
'TO THE GUESTS IT WAS QUITE ENOUGH THAT THEY WERE GERMANS. THEY WILLINGLY WOULD HAVE SHOT THEM DEAD,BUT A CLUB PROVIDED A LOT MORE EMOTIONAL SATISFACTION AND THE BOYS AND GIRLS BRANDISHED SOME AS THEY MARCHED ON THE DARK BROWN BARRACKS. AT AUSCHWITZ THE SS HAD BEEN FORBIDDEN TO HURT A JEW FOR EMOTIONAL SATISFACTION,AND SS MEN WHO DID THIS, COULD, SOMETIMES WOULD BE IMPRISONED, BUT THE GUESTS DIDN'T FEAR THAT THE OFFICE WOULD PUNISH THEM. UNLIKE THE SS, THE GUESTS HAD GENUINE GRIEVANCES...
"TALL!" SHLOMO CRIED TO A TALL BLOND MAN "LIE DOWN RIGHT HERE! TALL" TO ANOTHER TALL MAN. "LIE DOWN BESIDE HIM! TALL!" TO ANOTHER ONE. "LIE BESIDE HIM!" AS SOON AS THE THREE WERE LINED UP, SHLOMO CRIED, "YOU! LIE ON TOP OF THEM CROSSWISE! NO HE SAID CLUBBING THE MAN. "I SAID CROSSWISE!
YOU!" HE CONTINUED, AND HE KEPT PILING UP GERMANS,THREE THIS WAY,THREE THAT,TILL HE HAD A HUMAN CUBE AS HIGH AS A HAND COULD REACH.
"ALL RIGHT!" SHLOMO SAID, AND HIS GUESTS STARTED SWINGING THE CLUBS, WHACKING AWAY AT THE CUBE AS IF THEY WERE HUNTERS AND IT WERE A POD OF CANADIAN SEALS. THE AIR WAS THICK WITH THE GRUNT OF THE GUESTS AND THE THUD! OF THE WOOD UPON BONES. IN THE HIGH TIERS THE GERMANS CRIED, "BITTE! PLEASE!" THE GERMANS IN THE CENTER TIERS MOANED BUT THE GERMANS IN THE LOW TIERS WERE MUTE FOR THE WEIGHT OF THE TWO DOZEN PEOPLE ONTOP HAD PUSHED THEIR VISCERA OUT AND THE GERMANS WERE DYING.
"PIGS!" CRIED THE PARTY GUESTS,POUNDING AWAY, BUT SHLOMO JUST LEANED ON A BED,WATCHING LAUGHING LIKE MESHUGGANER-A NUT, HIS CODE NAME IN THE JEWISH PARTISANS'" -EYE FOR AN EYE BY JOHN SACK
(NEWSWEEK;60 MINUTES AND THE NEW YORK TIMES INDEPENDENTLY VERIFIED AND CORROBORATED JOHN SACK'S RESEARCH,JOHN SACK IS ALSO JEWISH, SCHLOMO MOREL WAS INDICTED FOR WAR CRIMES AND FLED TO ISRAEL WHO REFUSED TO EXTRADITE)
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GRIEBEN: ON KILLING AND GUILT:
YOU KILLED THE GREEKS. YOU KILLED THE ARMENIANS. YOU KILLED THE HUGUENOTS. YOU KILLED THE PROTESTANTS. YOU KILLED THE CATHOLICS. YOU KILLED THE GYPSIES. YOU KILLED THE POLES. YOU KILLED THE UKRAINIANS. YOU KILLED THE INDIANS AND THE MALAYSIANS AND THE CEYLONESE. YOU KILLED THE BANTU AND THE RIFF AND THE EGYPTIANS AND ARABIANS AND WHAT HAVE WE DONE? WE HAVE KILLED A HANDFUL OF JEWS-FOR CHRIST'S SAKE AND A HANDFUL THE WORLD WANTED TO GET RID OF IN ANY EVENT.
GOD IN HEAVEN IS IT ALL GUILT? EVERYWHERE? WE KNOW THERE IS GUILT IN HELL. WE KNOW THAT DAY IN AND OUT WE SWEAT BENEATH THE BURDEN OF OUR INTOLERABLE GUILT ON EARTH. IS IT POSSIBLE THEN, THAT THERE IS NO GUILT IN HEAVEN ALSO AH YES OF COURSE . THEIR IS GUILT EVERYWHERE AND THERE IS REPENTANCE EVERYWHERE. BUT WHERE IS THE FORGIVENESS? I THINK THEIR MUST HAVE BEEN A MOMENT IN TIME. WHILE I, PALE AS A GRUB AND INSATIABLE GREEDY FOR THE ROTTING RED FLESH OF MY MOTHER'S WOMB,CAUGHT MY FIRST WISH OF GUILT WITHOUT SIN, OF SIN WITHOUT REPENTANCE, AND OF REPENTANCE WITHOUT FORGIVENESS AND IN THAT MOMENT OF LARVAL CANNIBALISM I REACHED WITHOUT KNOWING IT, THE CONCLUSION WHICH INEVITABLY WAS TO GOVERN MY LIFE.
FUCK IT.
FUCK IT ALL.
IF I AM NOT TO BE FORGIVEN THEN I SHALL NOT REPENT"
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"HE OBEYED THE CALL OF THE BLOOD,THE WILL OF THE GERMAN FOLK-SOUL, AND THE CRY OF OLD GODS,TREACHEROUSLY SLAUGHTERED EONS AGO,YET STILL HOWLING FROM THE SWAMPS FOR VENGEANCE. ALMOST SUFFOCATED WITH THE MELANCHOLY OF SELF PITY, WITH NOSTALGIA FOR THE GLORY AND PAIN OF ALL THAT HAS GONE FROM THE WORLD,HE EMBARKS AN OLD MAN-LOST ALONE, THE LAST BEARER OF A FAITH BETRAYED-ON A PILGRIMAGE TO AUSCHWITZ"
AND FOR THE BEST OF:
* THE BEST DOOM RITVALS : *
1. DERKETA-IN DEATH WE MEET *
2. WARHORSE-WHEN HEAVEN TURNS TO ASH *
3. WITH THE DEAD-WITH THE DEAD *
4. GRAVES AT SEA -THE CURSE THAT IS MY FAVORITE SONGS OF THE YEAR: COMBAT WOUNDED VETERAN-FOLDED SPACE:MAPPING UNEXPLODED ORDINANCE & RAMLEH-NEVER RETURNER (AWESOME FUCKING SONGS YOU NEED TO HEAR!) *
YEAR END TOP 20 BEST FULL LENGTHS: *
1.DISEMBOWELMENT - TRANSCENDENCE INTO THE PERIPHERARY (old as fuck record but still a fucking essential canonical classic!!!) *
2. RAMLEH - CIRCULAR TIME *
3. OBLITERATION - BLACK DEATH HORIZON *
4. LANTERN -BELOW *
7. MITOCHONDRION-ARCHAEON *
8. DEATHHAMMER-EVIL POWER *
9. PORTAL- VEXOVOID/OUTRE *
10. GHOULGOTHA - TO STARVE THE CROSS *
11. KRIEG-BLUE MIASMA *
12. TAAKE -HELNORSK SVARTMETTAL *
13. SHINING- 8 1/2 FEBERDROMMER I VAKKET TILSAND *
14. ASPHYX - LIVE DEATH DOOM/ALL ASPHYX RELEASES *
15. BEHEXEN- MY SOUL FOR HIS GLORY *
16. SARGEIST-THE REBIRTH OF A CURSED EXISTENCE *
17. EXECRATION-MORBID DIMENSIONS *
18. ANTICHILDLEAGUE-HOLY GHOST *
19. VASTUM -PATRICIDAL LUST *
20. HEADHUNTER D.C. -GOD'S SPREADING CANCER * BEST SPLIT: SATANIC WARMASTER/BEHEXEN *
BEST DEMOS: SEMPITERNAL DUSK-SELF TITLED * BELLICOSE MINDS -BUZZ HOWL SESSIONS * DOCTORSHOPPER-PAX PHARMA *
BEST EPS: BLOOD INCANTATION- INTERDIMENSONAL EXTINCTION & INVERLOCH -DUSK/SUBSIDE
* NOW YOU LISTEN! *.
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