Apopthelema Entry 4 Part 3 by Kyle Nonneman
[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the link listed at the end of this entry.]
Apopthelema Entry 4 Part3
POSTED Monday, Sept. 11, 2016
THE AMERICAN NOISE SCENE AS ATROCITY EXHIBITION
PART 3
((This Is The Way Step Inside ))
"I AM THE UGLY AMERICAN, I HATE WHAT I AM... TAKE A PISS ON YOUR FOUNDING FATHERS"-BIG BLACK
"SOME PEOPLE TAKE SO MUCH PRIDE IN IT LIKE "OH, I'M NOISE, I DO NOISE, I DO ANTIMUSIC ." GREAT FANTASTIC, LOVELY- I DON'T CARE-
DANIEL MENCHE
Incongruously in the american underground you see performers cheaply adopting the aesthetics and ideas of other countries and there adaptations are typically dependent on xenophobic distortions and false stereotypes.
Similar to a Redskins mascot or a blackface ministrel show except according to scene politics for some reason its not racist or ignorant... No when punks etc do it, they act like their a fucking modern day John Brown. Fetishizing something unreal inside of a blur of paraphillia....Gaijin Goyum Utlending neophytes such as these still feel themselves justified in passing judgement upon individuals such as myself. They fetishize images and ideas they stole from the japanese and filter it through there american minds until it's bastardized and dissociated from its original source.
They keep their desires and urges locked up behind a wall of denial and neurotic self contempt. Like christian's suppressing the natural urges of mankind and becoming all fucked up in the head. When they're confronted with someone who comes out and owns their depravity they dont know how to fucking respond. They try to channel the spirit of actual demons, but like a cheesy horror flick, when what they conjured up actually rises up from hell, they freak the fuck out.
Im tired of cosplaying paleface fantasists attempting to pass judgement upon me. These people are fucking cattle who have never experienced real brutality in their lives and through their sheltered existence they deem themselves worthy of voicing an opinion about my actions. They're simply sheep pretending to be wolves.
My art has for the most part always reflected my own reality and a way vent the depravity and ugliness intrinsic to my psyche. When i recorded the Disease is love, the spoken word samples in the intro were from private phone calls made to me by my better half while she was in prison for stabbing a cunt in the stomach multiple times. That shit all happened. I dont need to resort to sampling horror films and true crime documentries, i can simply use broken shards of my own tortured existence to spread my hatred to your kind like a virus.
i was always attracted to experimentation musically and transgressing accepted standards and norms. I fucked with electrical devices to make weird noise in an unsophisticated fashion since childhood, i used the reality of video games, the distorted harsh tones of chiptune, reminding me of the escape i chose from abuse and the world surrounding me that i never felt a part of. I started out doing straight harsh noise and progressed to more structured droning atmospheric pieces.
Later on when i became involved in various violent dysfunctional relationships and my life became surrounded with violence, I started doing more power electronics related material as an outlet for that hatred and urge to kill.
i came close to killing Angie a couple times. Cowards within the scene who have never lived with that inside of them, try to channel the evil and misanthropic depravity of individuals like myself. Through vicarous proxy. When confronted with the real thing, they cower in fear, reminded of how weak they are.
Randall Philips the creator of Fuck zine started a feud with Slogun, when he tried to interrogate Slogun as to what attracted him to serial killers and what inspired him to use so much of it as source material. Slogun choked up. He didnt want to admit to admireing them or wanting to be like them. He simply couldnt come up with an answer.
Most of these cattle can't. They act like they're individuals that think independently .But in reality most of them blindly conform to scene politics and follow the rules and standards set by the individual with the most scene capital. They seek acceptance and they crawl for validiation within that social structure.As such they're fucking peer pressure zombies.Not free thinking individuals following their own personal vision.
THIS IS THE WAY
THIS IS THE WAY
STEP INSIDE.........................
MORE TO COME...
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