APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 5 by Kyle Nonneman

APOTHELEMA 16 #5 

APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 5 by Kyle Nonneman
(Note: This is the latest entry from Kyle... I'll return to his previous entries after this one is complete.)

APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 4
by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.] 

"No one who, like me, conjures up the most evil of those half-tamed demons that inhabit the human beast and seeks to wrestle with them, can expect to come through the struggle unscathed."
-Sigmund Freud
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THE HARD REALITY OF SATANISM:
(excerpted/quoted/compiled from O.N.A. samizdat)

"SATANISM HAS BEEN HIJACKED BY POSERS,BY PSEUDO INTELLECTUALS AND GUTLESS COWARDS WHO LIKE THE GLAMOR AND DANGER ASSOCIATED WITH IT IN THE PUBLIC MIND BUT WHO DO NOT HAVE THE GUTS TO BE EVIL. THESE SO CALLED SATANISTS ARE REALLY NAZARENE SCUM IN DISGUISE. WORMS IN DEAD SNAKE SKIN. PRATTLING ON ABOUT MORALITY. I'M SICK OF THESE IMPOSTORS. THOSE WHO GET A THRILL FROM PLAYING THE ROLE BUT WHO NEVER ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING EVIL,WHO NEVER GO TO EXTREMES, WHO NEVER STAND ON THE EDGE; LET ALONE CLIMB DOWN INTO THE DARKNESS OF THE PIT OF HELL"
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"SATANISM DOES NOT SEEK ANY FORM OF OFFICIAL RECOGNITION AS IT DOES NOT SEEK TO BECOME RESPECTABLE OR THE PREROGATIVE OF A MAJORITY."
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"RATHER SATANISM OPERATES AND MUST OPERATE,FOR THE MOST PART IN A CLANDESTINE OR 'UNDERGROUND' MANNER"
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"OFFICIAL" RECOGNITION MEANS SOMEONE OR SOME ORGANIZATION IS GRANTED SOME SORT OF "STATUS" AND THUS ASSUMES BOTH IN THEORY AND IN FACT AN AUTHORITY' AND AN ORGANIZATIONAL STRUCTURE TO SUPPORT IT. "
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"THIS AUTHORITY AND THIS STRUCTURE MEANS FOLLOWERS AND SYCOPHANTS AND CONTRADICTS THE ESSENCE OF SATANISM"
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"BOTH OF THESE OFFICIAL RECOGNITION AND RESPECTABILITY ALSO MEAN THAT THE SELF APPOINTED AUTHORITY WHICH IS RECOGNIZED AND BECOMES OR SEEKS TO BE RESPECTABLE, SETS ITS OWN LIMITS; THERE IS PRESCRIPTION OF OTHER GROUPS , A PEER HIERARCHY AND ALL THE MANY TRAPPINGS OF HERD CONFORMITY. THE TRIUMPH OF ILLUSIVE FORMS OVER ESSENCE. IN BRIEF THE DELUDING OF OTHERS RATHER THAN THEIR LIBERATION."
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"SINCE THE EXPERIENCE OF THE ESSENCE THAT SATANISM BRINGS IS UNIQUE; THIS UNIQUENESS IS TOTALLY CONTRADICTORY TO ALL FORMS THAT SEEK TO CONSTRAIN ,DEFINE AND RESTRICT. TWO OF THESE FORMS BEING 'OFFICIAL RECOGNITION AND RESPECTABILITY."
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"SATANISM IS HARD AND VERY DANGEROUS. THIS DANGER IS MUCH MORE THAN JUST A 'MENTAL' OR A PSYCHIC ONE OF THE KIND SOMETIMES EXPERIENCED IN MAGICKAL WORKINGS. IT IS A PERSONAL DANGER OF THE 'LIFE OR DEATH' KIND.
IF IT IS NOT TOUGH ENOUGH IT IS NOT SATANIC.

FOR FAR TOO LONG THE PATHETIC IMITATION SATANISTS SUCH AS THOSE IN THE TEMPLE OF SET AND THE CHURCH OF SATAN HAVE HAD NO ONE TO CONTRADICT THEIR SICKLY,WIMPISH VERSIONS OF SATANISM.

THEY HAVE TRIED TO DENY THE DARKNESS AND EVIL WHICH ARE ESSENTIAL TO SATANISM BECAUSE THE FRAUDS IN THOSE ORGANIZATIONS ARE FUNDAMENTALLY WEAK.

THEY HAVE NEVER GONE TO THEIR LIMITS; NEVER EXPERIENCED THE REALNESS OF EVIL.

THEY HAVE TRIED TO MAKE SATANISM SAFE & RESPECTABLE THEY HAVE INTELLECTUALIZED IT BECAUSE THEY ARE TYPICAL PRODUCTS OF THIS PRESENT
INTELLECTUALIZED PEACE LOVING 'WE NEED TO BE SAFE' SOCIETY."
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"A SATANIST IS LIKE A BEAST OF PREY-IN REAL LIFE NOT IN FANTASY."
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"A SATANIST MAY BE AND OFTEN IS AN ASSASSIN, A WARRIOR, AN OUTLAW- IN REAL LIFE. THE IMITATION SATANISTS HOWEVER PRETEND TO BE THESE THINGS- THEIR FANTASY LIFE IS GREATER THAN THEIR REAL EXPERIENCES OF SUCH THINGS.
A SATANIST SEEKS AND MAKES REAL HIS/HER FANTASIES AND THEN MASTERS THE REAL LIFE SITUATIONS AND ALL THOSE DESIRES/FEELINGS WHICH GIVE BIRTH TO THOSE FANTASIES.

THEY LIVE THEM AND THEN TRANSCEND THEM. CREATING FROM THOSE EXPERIENCES SOMETHING BEYOND THEM :  A NEW INDIVIDUAL.
OFTEN THINGS GO WRONG -BUT AS ALWAYS IN LIFE, THE STRONG SURVIVE AND THE WEAK PERISH. THE SATANIST CREATES THE DREAMS,STANDARDS OF EXCELLENCE AND SPIRIT WHICH OTHERS OFTEN LATER ASPIRE TO EMULATE. THIS CREATION IS IN REAL LIFE BY DEEDS AND DEEDS ALONE."
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"BECAUSE OF THIS,FEW INDEED ARE THE GENUINE SATANISTS. SOMETIMES THEIR LIVES OR ASPECTS OF THEM BECOME PUBLIC-BUT OFTEN THEY ARE HIDDEN, WORKING THEIR DARKNESS IN SECRET FOR THE BENEFIT OF EVOLUTION"
-O.N.A.

You can contact Kyle at:

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APOTHELEMA 16 #4 THE OATH OF THE ANTI COSMIC CURRENT

APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 4 by Kyle Nonneman
(Note: This is the latest entry from Kyle... I'll return to his previous entries after this one is complete.)
APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 4
by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.]

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/THE OATH OF THE ANTI COSMIC CURRENT \
/BY NOTHINGISTTRUE\:

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IS A LIE
CHRIST FAILED WHEN HE DIED
HIS PIOUS WORDS OPEN TO MUTILATION
PRURIENT INFECTIONS
SPREAD BY POWER HUNGRY HIGH PRIESTS SAYING NOTHING
WE MUST DENY THE POWER OF FORGIVENESS
UNDOGMATIC UNBELIEVERS WE MUST REMAIN
STANDING AGAINST ORGANIZED BELIEF
WITH INTOLERANCE & HATE
THE IMAGES OF GOD LAID TO WASTE
WE MUST TAKE EVERYTHING DARK INSIDE OF MAN
RAISE IT UP FOR THE GLORY OF SATAN
WITHOUT REMORSE
NO FAITH IN HUMANITY
JUST SURVIVAL IN THE SHADOWS
THROUGH IRON & BLOOD
WE BRING BACK THE CIRCUS MAXIMUS
TO AID IN THE RESURRECTION
OF THE BLACK FLAMES THAT BURNED BEFORE CREATION
DEATH COMES AS IT MUST TO ALL LIVING THINGS
IN THE PREDATORY STRUGGLE FOR EXISTENCE
THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST IS RELENTLESS
OUR WILL TO POWER RAZED IN SUPREMACY
THROUGH SACRIFICIAL SLAUGHTER
HEADS IMPALED IN A FOREST OF SPEARS
ILLUMINATED BY ROMAN CANDLES
ROTTING BODIES LEFT TO HANG ALONG THE APPIAN WAY
LESSER MEN SLAUGHTERED TO SATISFY THE PREDATORY APPETITES
FOR POWER
TO DESECRATE THE COSMIC CREATOR
WE MUST TURN THE PLANET EARTH INTO A HUMAN SLAUGHTERHOUSE OF SPLATTERED GORE & SHREDDED FLESH
LIVING CHILDREN OF HUMANITY DEVOURED BY FLAMES
SOWN WITH SALT
UNTIL THE NEW EON OF IMPERIUM ARISES
SO THAT WE MAY GAZE DOWN FROM CELESTIAL OSSUARIES
INTO THE DEPTHS OF TIME
SILENT AND ENDLESS ACROSS THE EMPTY HORIZONS
AS CHAOS RISES THROUGH COSMOCLAST CHEMOSYNTHESIS
BORN FROM A GENERATION OF POST LIFE BORN WITHOUT LIGHT
FREED FROM ITS LONG DARKENED CHAMBER
INVOKED IN THE LONELIEST DEPTHS OF SPACE
BURYING CLAWS INTO SOFT FLESH
SPILLING BLOOD
LIVING THINGS CEASE TO EXIST
SEEKING DEATH FOR SUSTENANCE
INFINITE MOUTHS OPEN IN THE DARKNESS
TO DEVOUR WHAT REMAINS OF THE LIGHT DWELLING CREATURES
A THICK CRIMSON MIST FILLS THE CHAMBER
WRITHING & PULSING WITH SUFFOCATING DESPAIR
FROM RED STRANDS OF MUSCLE FIBER
DANGLING FROM THE STARS LIKE A NOOSE
TEARING TISSUES APART WRITHING CHOKING
MISSHAPEN BODIES TRY FUTILELY
TO FORCE THEIR SHAPES BACK INTO HUMAN FORM
COLLAPSING AS THEIR FLESH IS CLAWED APART BY CHAOS
STRANGLED BY GENETIC DEGRADATION
BEARING WITNESS TO THE DESTRUCTION OF HUMANITY
IN THE CULMINATION OF EONS LONG SPIRITUAL ROT
IN SACRIFICIAL MALIGNANCY
IN PAGAN TRIBUTE TO THE DEATH OF HUMANITY
IN DARKNESS
WE FIND FREEDOM
CEREMONIAL CATHARSIS
IN MASS SACRIFICE TO THE COSMIC CHAOS
ABOVE AND BELOW
POST MORTEM ENTROPY
DRIVING THE FINAL NAILS
INTO THE COFFINS OF OLD GODS
ASHEN SEPULCHERAL FLAMES BURNING AWAY THE WORLD
LOOKING DOWN INTO THE STARLIT ABYSS
SEEING THE FACE OF CHAOS FOR THE FIRST TIME
FINDING NO COMPASSION THERE
ONLY SUBLIMINAL NAUSEA AND THE RESENTMENT OF UNBORN OVA
THE ASHES OF SENTIENT LIFE
SCATTERED ACROSS AN EMPTY SOLAR SYSTEM
CHARRED REMAINS CRAWLING
THROUGH THE DARKNESS OF THE SWALLOWED SUN
INTO THE NOTHINGNESS
DEATH DROWNS
IN AN UNUTTERABLE VAST OCEAN OF DYING STARS
DOWN TOWARDS AN ABYSS WITHOUT END
HIDEOUS BLASPHEMIES
LURCHING TOWARDS AN INFINITY WITHOUT END
LITTERED WITH SOFT WHITE ASHES
AS THE EARTH LIES COLD AND DEAD BENEATH A MORIBUND SKY
(for the triumph of eternal lifelessness)

You can contact Kyle at:

 Kyle Nonneman

 #16534211

Osci

3405 Deerpark Dr SE

Salem OR 97310

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I'm Mykel Board, and I post for Kyle because no one else will. If you're interested in my own ideas, you can read me at: mykelsblog.blogspot.com

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APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 3 by Kyle Nonneman

(Note: This is the latest entry from Kyle... I'll return to his previous entries after this one is complete.)

APOPTHELEMA ENTRY 16 PART 3

by Kyle Nonneman

[Note: this was composed in prison where proof-reading facilities are notoriously bad. Please don't hold that against the author. You can contact Kyle through the address listed at the end of this entry.]

"On April 10, 1994, four young men-- Jason Brock,Daniel Rabago, Jason Brumwell and Johl Brock discussed committing a robbery in order to get money for marijuana"

"They listened to Death Metal music while they made their plans. Rabago, Brumwell and Brock considered themselves satanists,were members of a death metal band.

As Rabago testified, "we were all into evil and we were all pretty much deathers" Rabago described a "deather" as "someone that has a lot of hate in them and sees the morbid things in life".

"Each young man had an assigned job with respect to what happened next."

"The blows shattered Wall's skull." "At some point the defendant shoved the pointed bar completely through Wall's skull. She died at the scene.

"Defendant told Brumwell that he had "killed his" and wanted to know why Brumwell could not kill Ream.  Brumwell hit her with the dumbbell bar and the bar that defendant had used to kill Wall.
They struck her more then 50 times on her head and her arms. They also kicked her and stabbed her with the knife."

"Pretty much what got Rabago and me dabbling in satanism was the message this particular cd by the band Deicide. I mean looking through the lyrics and stuff. Thats how we got involved in satanism"
-9TH DISTRICT COURT OF APPEALS
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In the aftermath of this action; the members of the group involved started informing on each other to receive lighter sentences. The individual who received the death penalty for his role in this action has since become a traitorous born again christian.

It's interesting the differences between the motives and inspiration for crimes committed by American deathers and the Swedish/Norwegian black metal underground.

As stated in the above cited case they were motivated by a need to obtain money to get high & party.
That was their primary motivation. They weren't out cruising the night hunting for souls to sacrifice to pay tribute to satan. They weren't sacrificing individuals of value to the christian order whose deaths would help further the established goals of creating chaos to destroy the cosmic order. No. it was just a random act of stoner violence carried out by fumbling neophytes most of whom quickly reverted back to scared sheep when arrested. Expressing remorse. Becoming born again christians and then cooperating with law enforcement.

You get executed for a satanic slaughter you got a choice between burning in hell as a warrior of evil or burning in hell as a born again traitor. If your going to do something like that; do it right and do it proud and do it to someone whose death furthers the goals of satanism:

"THE CORRECT CHOICE OF OFFER MEANS THAT WITH THEIR ELIMINATION,THE SINISTER DIALECT WILL BE AIDED AND THUS THE INTRUSION OF THE ACASUAL INTO THE CAUSAL SPEEDED UP. [IN NON-ESOTERIC TERMS AID THE DARK FORCES TO SPREAD OVER EARTH]"

"THOSE WHO DO NOT ACT HAVE CONDEMNED THEMSELVES AS FAILURE.
SO GET OFF YOUR ARSE AND MAKE SATAN PROUD. LEARN TO DO EVIL. WHAT IS EVIL? ALL THAT RESTRICTS LIFE--ALL THAT TRIES TO CONSTRAIN THE POSSIBILITIES. DOING EVIL MEANS BREAKING THESE RESTRICTIONS AND CONSTRAINTS AND TAKING THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR OWN ACTIONS."

"IN GENUINE SATANISM [PRIMAL SATANISM] IT INVOLVES HUMAN SACRIFICE ONLY SINCE THERE AN ABUNDANCE OF SUITABLE SPECIMENS-- DUE TO THE INCREASE IN HUMAN DROSS."

SACRIFICE IS ACCEPTED SATANIC PRACTICE FOR SEVERAL REASONS.

FIRST,  IT IS A TEST OF SATANIC CHARACTER TO KILL SOMEONE ON THE PERSONAL LEVEL IS A CHARACTER BUILDING EXPERIENCE.

SECOND, IT HAS MAGICKAL BENEFITS (A GIFT FOR THE PRINCE)

THIRD, IT SORTS THE IMITATION OR TOY SATANISTS FROM THE GENUINE. THE FORMER FIND EXCUSES AND USUALLY RETREAT TO THEIR COMFY, INTELLECTUALIZED WORLD OF PLAYING AT SATANIC ROLES AND RITUALS OR THEY ARE GENUINELY HORRIFIED AND EXPOSE THEMSELVES FOR WHAT THEY ARE:
GUTLESS COWARDS WHO LACK SATANIC DARKNESS."

-O.N.A.

You can contact Kyle at:

 Kyle Nonneman

 #16534211

Osci

3405 Deerpark Dr SE

Salem OR 97310

And here's some more art from Kyle:

You can also see a profile and have e-contact at:

http://www.writeaprisoner.com/Template.aspx?i=z-16534211

And a new contact: https://prisoninmates.com/profile/KyleNonneman16534211

I'm Mykel Board, and I post for Kyle because no one else will. If you're interested in my own ideas, you can read me at: mykelsblog.blogspot.com

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